Thanks suzanne!!
38 days today and feeling good.
Wow... Its 5.30am and I can't sleep.I need to record my thoughts onto my diary. I woke up with that sick dull feeling, I felt anxious and annouyed that i did it again!!!! Then I realised it was a dream, it felt so real that I had to check my online account to make sure the money was still there and it was. It's like a sign from God warning me me of what's round the corner if I hit those roulette machines again. Anyway I'm 39 days clean and I'm going to try and go back to sleep..... Catch up soon diary!
Thats a good solid number of days under your belt great work. I am plagued with dreams about gambling too, but like yourself thankfully i have been strong so far and not relapsed and they are just dreams... i dont usally remember the details just being in action.. But we arent in action and thats something to be proud of. I might ask my counsellor in the new year about this, ive seen a few people mention dreams.
Well in mate on 39days thats brilliant.keep up good work 1 day at a time and we will beat this horrible disease.i think the challenge will really help us all stick together and hopefully get through 2016 gamble free 😉 take care fella
Congratulations!!! Keep going. 50 days point soon. Keep thinking about how u feel now compared to how u were feeling 39 days ago at your last bet! Hopefully enough to put you off. Good luck and think positive!
Thanks for the comments everyone!! Today has been a strange day! A lot of emotions running through my head. I keep having strange sensations of how inused to feel before my gambling days.... Over 15 years ago. Its sooooo difficult to explain what I mean but certain streets, certain smells, even the weather is bringing back memories of when I was in my late teens and early twenties (before the gambling took control of my life). 40 days ago all I could think about is how much money I've lost.... I'm over that now! But what has taken its place is the thoughts of what I've missed out on! Who have I been? So many things running through my head. I'm only 34 and it feels like gambling has kept me back all these years!! I'm hoping these thoughts and feelings go because it's not making me feel great at the moment. However..... 40 days and still no urges!! It feels like something had switched in my brain telling me that's enough now!
Well done on the big 40 the days are starting to mount up now keep going and doing what you are doing have a great Christmas and New Year
Just a quick check in... 42 days gamble free!!!
Well done chris
Thanks triangle and GT.
Checking in on 44 days
Keep going! I know what you mean with thoughts and feelings. I'm only 28 and gambled for about 7 years. Weird but things like films that were on in the background teas I may have cooked and places all trigger memories and allow me to remember whether I was winning or losing and how I was feeling at the time. Hard but it just shows that there must have been so much time spent to have memories like that. That deep.
Hold on for day 50 and treat yourself that's what my counsellor advised 🙂
Hi kelmar123, I've already treated myself by paying my £2000 credit card bill off. To me that one less stress off my mind lol. However your right, I will treat myself properly at 50 days. What did you buy yourself? I had a look at your profile and your in 81 days which is really good... Well done!!
Day 46 and still no urges!!! I think this is finally it with gambling. This site is proving to be a life saver.... It's really helping me.
Keep taking it a day at a time my friend.this illness is that strong that it can take you by surprise at
anytime.wish you all the very best in your recovery.
Thanks scottyboy.
WOW... That was way to close. I just had a big argument with the wife (unleaded to gambling). I needed to get out of the house so I jumped onto the tube and went lesciester square.i went to walk into the casino 3 times, the urges were very strong!! I almost cracked , I went back to the casino entrance 3 times and I was telling myself it's only £200, take £200 and if you lose it walk away!! Luckily I was strong enough to walk away, get straight onto the tube and come straight home. I now no what my triggers are....anger and boredom!! I need to keep away from these emotions! Thankfully Im still gamblefree !!! Woohoo
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