My journey

velvet7 wrote: We'll done PG. 50 days is such an achievement!! Keep it up.

Thanks Velvet.

Today is day 79. Still going strong. Starting to get my old self back. I was in a dark hole. Now I can see a light ahead!

Today is 100 days gamble free.

I am at a great peace with myself. Sometimes I shake my head and wonder what was going through my mind when I was gambling. The truth is we lose ourselves to gambling. Money has no value. Time has no value. We isolate ourselves from everything. Gambling is our world.

My aim is to never gamble again. I have said this before, but I'll say it again. I can do it!

100 days!! Well done PG, I'm a bit behind you but, like you are determined to knock this Xxxx on the head for good. Keep it up.

Hi, just wanted to find out how you are getting on with your journey. Ive read your thread and it has been quite inspiring regarding getting over losses.

All the best.

YoungSkiddy wrote: Hi, just wanted to find out how you are getting on with your journey. Ive read your thread and it has been quite inspiring regarding getting over losses. All the best.

My journey was going along great until two weeks ago. I broke up with my girlfriend. I took it very bad. How to respond, go back to gambling. I tried re-activating my accounts but all were still under self-exclusion apart from one; Betway.

In order to remove the self-exclusion I had to phone them up. I spoke with an agent as requested that a monthly limit of £100 be applied to my account. After 24 hour my account was back up and running. £100 was soon gone and I went to change my deposit limits. £200, £300 and then eventually removing the lot. I have blew £5000 in the space of 2 weeks. Back to square one yet again. I actually contacted Betway today to explain my situation. They knew I was a problem gambler. I made the point that I had requested a limit on my account of £100 for the month yet I was able to change this so quickly. I wish the changes to deposit limits would take as long as the duration. i.e 24 hours for daily changes, 7 days for one week or 31 days for a month. Didn't get anywhere. They are like piranha's. They don't care about us.

So it's back at the bottom of the moutain yet again. Once again feeling so frustrated with myself. But again I need be thankful my story is not as bad as others. I have no debt or pay-day loans hanging over me. I don't know; I'm angry but not as angry as I think I should be. Maybe I have let myself accept this is normal behavior. My life has been a failure.

So here is is. Day 1. I have to start somewhere again.

Just checking in.

72 days gamble free. It's not been easy. I was very depressed for the first month. But I'm getting there slowly but surely. Need to keep perspective; I'm a lucky man with great family and friends. I have no debt.

87 days now. Starting to see some savings building up again. Happy that I can get on with my life, not worried about betting on some tennis match in China or some other ridicolous bet.

Just need to stay strong. It has been in these periods of abstaining where I have seen savings build up. Then my mind tells me I deserve a small flutter. This results in me being back to rock bottom again. Need to learn from the mistakes I've made in my past efforts to beat this!

100 days now. Going strong but I have been here before. I cannot be complacent. Keep the head down and don't let this back into my life!

Just checking in. 119 and still going strong. Keep on fighting everyday!

129 days now. It's amazing how the savings are starting to build up again. Just need to stay focused and not be complacent. I may open a savings account which will have restricted access removing the temptation.

This has been my downfal everytime. I start to have a good balance again, then my mind tricks me "£100 won't hurt" And before I know it. It's back to square one!

200 days gamble free. Life back on track. I do still have thoughts about gambling. I'm not going to lie. But I'm doing well. I keep a forecast of what money I will have every month. I've set myself a goal of having x amount by the years end. This is a motivation to stay away from the gambling.

Superb going PG91

To celebrate why not register with gamstop and self exclude for 5 years (if you haven't done this already). Helps exclude you from new sites that pop up.

300 days gamble free

Feeling good with life. I have to admit I still get urges, especially with Cheltenham coming up. Just got to stick at it!

Signed up to Gamstop also.

371 days now. Still not out of the woods. At times I do get urges. But I will fight to defeat this!