My New Life - 22nd Oct 2017

All sounding positive Moorey! I had a few rough days emotionally in the very beginning, been much more stable of late but its still very early days!

All the best

Day 18 gamble free.

Getting a little adjatated now, wanting to speed up the amount of days I’m gamble free.

I guess that’s part and parcel of being a compulsive gambler. We want instant success.

I’m looking forward to payday so that I can feel as though I’m making some progress and building up my savings.

Patience is a virtue but in time your gamble free days will come to fruition. It just needs more of the moorey doing what he's doing so well.

Soldier on my friend alongside your GamCare friends We're all going forward together and ignoring the taunts of the addiction.

We can do this.

Waking up this morning on my 19th gamble free day. My thoughts? Still feeling a huge dislike towards gambling. I had a moment the other night (Day 16) when I thought I had some strong urges towards placing a bet, but thinking about it, I'm not sure I even really wanted to. My urges were more towards wanting to quickly improve my finances and maybe getting slightly envious of the person sitting next to me at the football about him being in a more stable position than I was.

That may not make a lot of sense to anyone haha!

But I know I must stay patient and I will be rewarded. Thinking about it logically, even though these days seem to be going slowly, I actually can't believe it's been nearly 3 weeks already since that horrible Sunday evening when I was playing and losing £450 on roulette. I'm halfway to my initial target of next payday.

Sorry, just rambling this morning. Trying to keep myself positive.

Have a good Friday and weekend, friends.

Moorey

20 days that I've now been gamble free. A personal milestone for me 🙂

I have lots of good/happy memories the last couple of times I was at 20 days GF. I remember being at peace and far happier in life. I have that feeling back again today.

Moorey

Morning Mooreyman The Magnificent....20 Days GF and going like a stream train, Woohoo, Yihaaa and let's rock n roll.

Great to see your positivity and desire to be free. The past is over, let's move on and be who we are. Life is an adventure and good or not so good it is all part of the experience

Thanks Stephen. It’s felt like a long 20 days at times but I know that I’m edging further and further away from that last bet/spin. It’s nice getting into the 20’s. Now I must kick on and keep it going. You’re approaching 200 days which is a superb milestone.

Well done on the 20 days but I would not worry about being impatient about the number of days. Every single day we are GF is a winning day!!

Thanks Muststop.

I know, I have my ups and downs.

Today I woke up feeling very positive but I’m ending it feeling a little worried and stressed.

I guess that’s part of the recovery process. You have to try and ride out the tough times and hopefully they’ll happen less and less as time goes on and the days keep mounting. I’m still in the early stages of recovery so I have to stay patient.

Going out for a meal tonight with my cousins though so that’ll be nice and will be a welcome distraction for a few hours at least.

3 whole weeks gamble free!

I’ve given myself a good platform to now kick on and rack up a seriously good amount of days gamble free.

At times it’s felt slow going but so long as you don’t gamble, you’re always in control and winning the game.

22 days gamble free.

Literally taking it hour by hour at the moment.

I’m getting adjatated, but have no urges to gamble. None whatsoever.

However, I get paid in two weeks (with bonuses) and then two days later I get paid £250 for something else. Then I get paid again a couple of weeks after that (pre Christmas wage) so will that mindset change when this happens? I’m going to be on guard to make sure not!

Hi Moorey

Well done on 23 days today. You are doing great!

Not sure of your circumstances but can you do anything about having money available to you when you get paid to prevent you having opportunities to gamble - you know the time-money-opportunity thing. Give it to someone to look after or stick it somewhere you can't get hold of it easily?

Lets' keep this up.

Muststop123

It's something I may consider closer to the time. I do have some money available to me right now but the thought of gambling just sickens me. Although I'm aware that I'm still in the early days of my journey. That could all change. I feel my mindset is changing by the day though. I'm more positive about this recovery than any previous attempts.

Day 24

Nothing much to add today. I can feel myself creeping further and further towards pay day. This excites me because I can finally begin to do some Christmas shopping! This Christmas shall NOT be marred with any form of gambling and that is something that is giving me huge strength at the moment. My bank transactions for the last 4 weeks have looked ‘normal’ which has been a lovely surprise. Long may it continue.

Moorey

Well done Moorey on your day count... 🙂 enjoy your Christmas shopping. I must admit as a bit of a control freak my Christmas shopping is normally finished in April lol. Maybe this is because it's the only control I have in my life as gambling takes so much away from me....will be interesting to see my spending patterns when GF lol