Evening all, 17 days clean but feels like a lifetime. Payday in 10 days, all the money gets transferred straight to the girlfriend, the money for the bills from my account stays there for 2 days with my Dad monitoring. Even I can’t mess that up this time!!! I have access to cash bonuses from work every now and again, that’s the real rest wether I can get all the way home with it and hand 100% of it over to the Mrs.
It’s amazing how bad anxiety is brought on from gambling because in these 17 days is the best I’ve felt for years!
Liam
Hello Liam,
Well done on your continued abstinence, and using the support of the online environment and supportive people in your life.
Warm Regards
Forum Admin
Day 19.
It’s a brand new week and I’m feeling good. The only gambling thoughts in my mind are why was I such a bloody idiot! The anxiety is so much better by the day and I’m eating properly again (didn’t have time for that before!)
It’s almost like I want to fast forward time and be debt free and hopefully have the trust back of those close to me.
Overall though feeling great!
Liam
Hey man, glad to hear you're feeling better, hopefully you're starting to think about the things you can do with your money once it starts to build up again! I'm commenting because i'm in a similar situation, gambler for 4 years and i'm now on day 17 myself, which is the longest i've ever gone without. Payday myself a week today, so i'm definitely slightly nervous but i've come clean to loads of people and have a fantastic support network in place, and sounds like you've done the same.
Best of luck mate!
Hi there, thanks for the comment.
Yeh I can genuinely say I no desire to every spin a roulette wheel again, I’ve never really attempted or wanted to stop before. I do now.
When I get paid all the money will be transferred to my girlfriend so I have no access. I guess I have to be treated like a baby for a little while but if that’s what it takes so be it.
Maybe you have someone who can help you/ monitor your bank account for you?
All the best,
Liam
74 Days GF but thoughts and desire still haunting me hope it gets easier.
74 Dayd GF but thoughts and desire still haunting me hope it gets easier.
Stay in there mate it only brings misery. A win brings a momentary snap of joy where as a loss brings potentially a life time of guilt, shame and self loathing. I'm soo envious of 74 days just remember the weeks and months of of despair when you relapse. If you win you'll think you are on a roll and compare the money to your estimated overall losses and you'll try your luck again and again until your back to square one- stay strong
Day 21, 3 weeks!
quietly proud of myself for getting to this stage. Others won’t notice it because as a gambler you cover everything up but I can see a massive change in myself. I don’t feel as drained, snappy, lack of appetite and constant regret/fear.
It’s a shame because I’m almost wishing my life away at the minute. I want time to go by to build my GF days up, to be debt and IVA free, to build money up, to be a generally better person for me and my family. On the other hand I want time to drag to cherish every moment with my baby, she’s made stopping gambling easier for me.
Life is far to short to spend a big chunk of it doing this stupid gambling nonsense.
Here’s to a GF remaining 2018. Always here if anyone needs a chat.
Liam
Day 26:
Brand new week! These days are absolutely flying by. It will soon be Christmas, the first Christmas I’ll have when I don’t have to rely on a Christmas Eve roulette win to buy presents. Or make up excuses why I didn’t have any money when I inevitably lost!
Having thoughts of gambling, not wanting to gamble just general thoughts! I broke a rib at football yesterday so the agony is overtaking the gambling thoughts ha!
Take care all, Liam
Dear Liam ,
I wish you a fast recovery. It can be quite challenging when there is emotional and physical pain.
Stay focused you are doing well. You are questioning things but also noticing the changes in your life
Warm wishes
Forum Admin
Day 31:
1 MONTH gambling free. I never ever thought I would reach this point. A small milestone for some but a very big one for me. Time to build towards month 2!
Liam
Congratulations mate you should be very proud of yourself! Keep up the good work.
JW
Day 36:
Just on the way back from my first counselling. Productive, a lot of paperwork involved but that’s expected. Feeling good, these days are flying by! I can’t wait to spend my first Christmas with baby Ivy. Even more so gambling and worry free.
Stay GF all,
Liam
Hi Liam
well done on continuing to be gf. You are doing brilliantly. Christmas with your baby and loved ones will be extra special this year as you wont have the stress and pressure of gambling in your life. Keep going friend. One day at a time.
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