My Recovery Diary

158 days gamble free today, feeling relaxed and calm. Spent a couple of hours on the beech today with the kids, a bit chilly but good fun. Looking forward to spending some time with my Dad tomorrow watching footy on TV with him. ODAAT.

Good to hear you are doing well (and in January of all months! =P )

I follow your diary lurking in the background most of the time. Just thought i would post to say hello today =)

So glad to see you racking up those days, as we were on the same path days wise, but not going to fall off again. Proud of you.

179 days gf 🙂 Feel so much more relaxed. It's taken me decades of my adult life to realise it's the simple things in life that are the best. I really enjoy taking the dog for a long walk on the beach most days. I've just been out with my son to buy him a new pair of trainers, cost a lot and I couldn't really afford them but accepted the price and best of all not one thought of how I could win the money back. Have a great gamble free day everyone.

46 and Out

I have lost a stone in weight since 1st January and I am still going on long fast walks most days despite the weather. Went to GP yesterday for another check up, my blood pressure is now spot on and cholesterol is now just under 5.0. I am chuffed about that.

Must not get complacent, must keep busy, must keep taking it ODAAT.

Healthier body, healthier mind, healthier wallet. This gamble free life is treating me well so far 🙂

186 gamble free days today

Now 47 and Out

I'm up early this morning, planning a long walk later.

I was at a loose end and looking to fill time one night last week and had a number of thoughts about whether I should have a bet. It came out of nowhere really as I've not had any urges for a number of months. I think it may have been triggered by emotions as I had been arguing with my wife (nothing too major) and felt I needed some time on my own so I went out for a drive. Thankfully I managed to keep the urges at bay and it reminded me that I can never become complacent as urges can sneak up on me at any time and catch me unawares. I haven't had any more urges since then and I'm now back on an even keel. I can not win because I can not stop. ODAAT. 193 days gamble free and back on track.

Have a great gamble free day everyone.

46 and Out

Hi mate,

i have just had a read of your diary and some similarities to my situation, i really hope you can resisit the urges as you are doing so well, only think i would say is have all the barriers up so that even if the urges are very strong it is impossible to act on it. Remember your goal for the future, which can be achieved if we remain gamble free, Good luck

Harry

200 days gamble free today, my reward was the washing machine packing in!! We bought a new one on a credit card and I am pleased I have not had any urges to try and win back what it has cost. I have just put it down as a normal expense people have every now and again. Whilst it will make a dent in what I have paid off my debts in 2018 I am still heading in the right direction, if I was still gambling my debts would be getting progressively worse rather than gradually improving.

I hope you have all had a peaceful and gamble free day.

46 and Out.

Well done on 200 days, very nice. Argh, not great about the washing machine but you are right, it happens. Imagine the stress of having to replace that without being as far GF as you are. Everyday helps our finanaces but life does throw the odd unexpected bill at us from time to time. You know what you have to keep doing by now, enjoy it =)

Excellent achievements.

200 days without gambling. Blood pressure spot on. Cholesterol levels on target. Healthier body, healthier mind and healthier wallet.

Very inspirational. Wishing you well as you continue on your journey.

The kids are out today so I really fancied a day out on the booze. I used to love having a Saturday betting frenzy alongside a good few pints in the local pubs. I was so very tempted to go out for the day and I battled with myself for well over an hour whether I should or not, I was really itching for a bet and ultimately decided I would have gambled had I been drunk in one of the local pubs. I eventually decided to go the shops and buy a selection of different lagers. I am having a good drink at home instead. Much safer as my internet provider has been set to ban gambling sites and I am self excluded from all on-line accounts. It's amazing how this illness creeps up on you and tempts you back in. I've had very few urges for many months before today. I know I just have to make it through today and providing I do I know I will be made up when I wake up tomorrow. I can not win because I can not stop. ODAAT.

46 and Out

Your doing well 46 as just one tiny lapse in the mindset and you can be back there with the gambling right back on your tail, it does not how far away from it you get you have to remember it will always say *What's a tenner" "It's only a scratchcard" or anything know the triggers and move on. Gambling is a mugs game will be today and for evermore, try and find an online casino with operating losses, that tells the story why there are new casinos popping up everyday all run by big companies just raking it in, online on the high street, bingo everywhere and we will always be the fools.

237 days gf. This weekend was a lot easier than the previous couple when I had quite a few urges to gamble. I have joined a gym to try and keep busy. Also looking forward to a couple of weeks off with the kids.

Have a great gamble free day everyone

46 and Out

Keep it up 46AO we should be on the same numbers as we both gave up around the same time, I have tried the gym but find it so tedious, I like swimming and maybe a run with the dog, I'll do that more 🙂

I too am getting back in to the gym and also running. No where near as fit or fast as I was but I'll get there. Well done for signing up. Let us know how you find it.