My story and journey forward 190416

Yup, me too, I'll give it a go later 🙂

Meanwhile, massive congrats on the double century Tommy 🙂

Onwards & upwards indeed - ODAAT

I've seen the doc it's one of the better ones out there well worth a watch

Wow!! Just watched the whole of that programme it's shocking and enlightening at times made me want to cry. Thank you for posting this Lu x

Yep sure is Lu. Very emotional to watch at times, a stark reminder of what we are truly up against!

Thank you, very much for sharing that tommy. - joanxx

Just finished watching the documentary tommy , oooh , touched a few nerve's and stirred a few memories there mate , it's amazing how after 14 months of not gambling how raw your emotions still are when images are presented before you ?.

Thanks for the heads up though Bud , it was a good watch :))

Good stuff AL. Yeah found it really stirring and raw like you said.

Was a good reminder what we have chosen to leave behind - found the stuff about the way us as compulsive gamblers our brains are wired differently from others really interesting. How we don't get a buzz from the win's more from the near misses.

Alot of us say towards the end that it was no longer about the winning or the money and the science in this documentary confirms that.

Wish there was more online like this one. One to keep in the locker to go back to in future.

Friday again (just been in chatroom for check-in), time is passing quicker these days! When gambling the month used to go so slow - days trickling by. Maybe it's because i'm starting to enjoy life again...not worrying about chasing losses etc. Feel more comfortable in my skin for once.

Taking pleasure in simple things again. Got brother n his mrs coming round to ours tonight to watch football with a takeaway chinese involved 🙂 Helping family member move stuff to new house during the day tomorrow. Out tomorrow night with best mates and a chill day on sunday - no doubt with a hangover. And I won't grudge any money I spend. Rewind a year ago, I would have fobbed my brother off as don't want to be around anyone, would have still gone out with friends but head wouldn't be in it probably still spinning from friday night/sat morning session wondering how I will win back money from previous days...

Onwards and upwards.

Thanks for the link to that documentary Tommy just watched it and some good stuff in it. Left me thinking it could have had a follow-up to go into deeper aspects as in some areas it only scratched the surface.

No problem Captain! Yeak I know what you mean - a follow-up focussing more on recovery would be great. But it's still the best documentary I've watched about gambling. I know you are struggling just now but you are here and trying - not ducking away from it. Keep in and around the forum/chat and things will get better for you - like they have in the past when you have been gambling free for a good amount of time.

Day 213 gamble free.

Haven't managed onto forum as much this week - to be honest I've been playing a new golf game on my pc a fair bit!

From the start of recovery, I have been looking at ways to fill the voids of when I used to play slots - which was alot. For a long time the forum took place of all that time. Then I was training for a 10k - still go running but not as much. But I do want a little bit of entertainment now and again so last week I came across a free online golf game (www.wgt.com) It's really good for all you golf fans out there. I don't have a games console so its a pretty good alternative. And for a free game the graphics are pretty impressive - love playing at St.Andrews 🙂 Anyway it helps me relax but also to find a bit of enjoyment in something after a long day working (some 'me' time). I could work 20 hours a day if I chose to, so need some ways to take a timeout - this is a good little timeout that helps me.

So my point is, when you stop gambling... Find other things you enjoy to fill times you might be tempted to fall back into old habits.

nice to chat to you and silver today Tommy, feel I have found some good friends/colleagues on here in you too.

Great progress you are making, keep it up. I might try that Golf game you noted, sounds good.

Likewise Captain! Sorry not been on since Friday - hectic weekend but a good one so not complaining 🙂

Had a bit of a c**P day - woke up having had a dream about gambling and just couldn't shake the feeling for most of the day - was in a right grumpy mood.

But I'm feeling better now and ready to wake up tomorrow in a different mindframe.

But on the plus side 230 days gamble free - got alot to be thankful for!

Looking forward to a gamble free festive period and a new year having made many positive changes.

Onwards and upwards.

Yes I sure was glad to hear that OU! And I see you've been keeping active on the forum this week to try and fend off the urges - good move 🙂

SO busy at the moment, not been on forum or chat this week other that quick glance here and there at recovery diary section. But no urges to report, still gamble free and almost at 250 days gamble free now. Not so focussed on the days now - just happy that my life is getting better without gambling.

I'm busy with lots of social stuff that I'm happy to say I'm actually enjoying. Spending time (and money) on doing things with others was something I grudged when gambling. I was never really in the moment. Now I can go out and laugh with friends, spend more time with my wife and other family members - and actually enjoy the simple things again.

Onwards and upwards!