My story of recovery

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Jappy
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Hi all 19/10/18 was hopefully a day of change in my life. I have come gamcare with a need to improve my life and get out of the circle of pain. I have been on the merry go round for 35 years and will be on it and owe thousands without a change. Change not thing nothing changes so here I am. I have read the commitment to go gamble free of 2018 - this is s my medium term goal, today I am Jappy799 st trying not the season urge out more funds today to waste. I like to he comment I read today, if I don’t t gamble they were not get another £1 off me. Today I will not gamble.

 
Posted : 20th October 2018 4:23 pm
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Nice to see you have a plan and are trying

 
Posted : 20th October 2018 5:09 pm
Jappy
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Thanks Keith I have tried in the past and not worked at it and the inevitable happens. Recently the intensity and level of betting has got worse, I earn good money and if I carry on the lot will go. I owe a lot but have done before and if I stop I will pay back! I have got through today by cleaning and tidying kitchen (was quite good decluttering) when that is exactly what I need to do! Tonight I have what do to do and then I have met my first challenge! Today I won’t gamble. Good luck with your recovery!

 
Posted : 20th October 2018 5:24 pm
Jappy
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It is now about 28 hours since I last gambled. My thoughts at present are very clear, by coming on here and opened up to what I have done it has taken a weight off my shoulders, my head is clear this is what I need to do. I have been busy at home, cleaned kitchen, done ironing of shirts, cooked a meal, and done a couple hours work. My m+d came round earlier which was nice (I wish I could tell them, but I would rather tell them in weeks, months, years that I have sorted debts. They know I gambled and 15years ago it all came out and it would hurt them so much if they knew. I will ask for help if needed. But today I have not gambled and for a treat I had a couple of beers out of fridge. Usually I comfort eat sweets when I have done my cash in. May even go to gym tomorrow. Good luck everyone!

 
Posted : 20th October 2018 9:36 pm
Sean1
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Hi Jappy

Buying the Allen Carr book is going to be the best investment you will make, I promise. Just tells us how it is, the gambling industry is playing on our addiction by advertising winning hundreds of pounds with a one pound stake. This is a way to make us participate so they can con us, plain and simple.

The beauty of Allen Carr’s method is, no willpower is required as we are not giving anything up but quite the opposite, we are liberating ourselves.

Good luck.

Shaun

 
Posted : 21st October 2018 6:21 am
Jappy
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Good morning everyone! Today is the first day for months/years that I wake up and feel calm and clear what is going to happen. In the past it has been depression / shock that the disaster that happened yesterday was real, or what do I need to do with the cash I won, is that keep in the drawer and use over the next few weeks to live normally, or go to bank and pay off some / part of the extensive debt! You all can guess which ever I did (within a week) all gone and more! Today I have a plan - golf at 10am and then a day at home doing something / maybe the gym! What ever I will not be getting on a worse position as the FOBTs will not get another £1 from me today! One day at a time have a good day today everyone

 
Posted : 21st October 2018 6:21 am
Jappy
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Sean1 wrote:

Hi Jappy

Buying the Allen Carr book is going to be the best investment you will make, I promise. Just tells us how it is, the gambling industry is playing on our addiction by advertising winning hundreds of pounds with a one pound stake. This is a way to make us participate so they can con us, plain and simple.

The beauty of Allen Carr’s method is, no willpower is required as we are not giving anything up but quite the opposite, we are liberating ourselves.

Good luck.

Shaun

thanks Shaun I have purchased it today from amazon so look forward to reading it and using the technique, as i have found me brain changes it’s mind from minute to minute and usually with another bout of pain! I must say today has been good but I have kept busy- boredom is a trigger for me - here’s to another daygamble free. Jappy

 
Posted : 21st October 2018 6:11 pm
Jappy
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tHi all been on the chat room for first time and there was some great advice and positivity which is good as I am alone and no one to discuss etc. I really liked the ending “c u tomorrow another day gf” - this phrase hit home (however hard it feels) it is quite simple really - just do not gamble today. I will hold that thought when the mist isn’t clearing tomorrow / day after ...... take care all another day gf!

 
Posted : 21st October 2018 8:17 pm
Jappy
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Morning all - day 3 I like to look at my days gf on the account this is a precious number and something that I want to simply get bigger (something to be proud off). Today is first day back at work and it is a Monday! Monday’s are a day when I have probably lost the most, boredom / long week / need a buzz not sure but years of this is a risk to me. Last night I looked in wallet and took out my card and has enough cash for car parking lunch and some petrol. So set up no cash to gamble. I have a busy day but that in itself has not stopped me in the past. Today I will not gamble keep safe everyone jappy

 
Posted : 22nd October 2018 5:30 am
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Hi Jappy, welcome to the forum 🙂

Yes, I too take great pride in my gf number and it’s wanting to make it bigger every day that helps to spur me on to greater things. This whole journey is a day by day battle. The only thing you need to concentrate on is not gambling today. Forget about tomorrow. It’s all about today. If you climb into bed tonight and you’ve not gambled, then you’re a winner.

Best of luck mate. I’m hoping to always be a couple of days behind you.

Dan

 
Posted : 22nd October 2018 6:18 am
Jappy
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DeterminedDan wrote:

Hi Jappy, welcome to the forum 🙂

Yes, I too take great pride in my gf number and it’s wanting to make it bigger every day that helps to spur me on to greater things. This whole journey is a day by day battle. The only thing you need to concentrate on is not gambling today. Forget about tomorrow. It’s all about today. If you climb into bed tonight and you’ve not gambled, then you’re a winner.

Best of luck mate. I’m hoping to always be a couple of days behind you.

Dan

thanks Dan I live alone so find I can “do as I like” so having something to hang on to provides some focus! I have closed the door for the evening so good work and tomorrow my number will increase by 1 hope yours does as well take care!

 
Posted : 22nd October 2018 6:04 pm
Jappy
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12.30 pm just finished working late (first time for weeks) trying to get on top of the work load! Enjoyed it with my iPad on music, feel as if succeeded.i have succeeded and tomorrow I can wake up to my new number of days gf! I have put off a couple of important things - arranging to speak to a counsellor and also facing up to my finances (I have some money in bank so not pressing) but I need a plan to pay back (start) without it killing me! But that’s for another day today I did not gamble and tomorrow I have an extra day gf

 
Posted : 22nd October 2018 11:41 pm
Jappy
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Strange day today! Took my bank card to work as needed petrol, I have been thinking pop out at lunch !! History shows end in bookies and FOTBs so I have stayed put! And came on here, also need to leave card at home, yesterday not an issue as nofunds keep safe today

 
Posted : 23rd October 2018 12:14 pm
Jappy
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Day 5 (all good) I have woken to the wind and a day off work for a game of golf. Last week I played in the morning an then did my cash in the afternoon (nothing to do, no commitments cash on the hip). So today I have arranged a lift so I will be with someone all day, so hopefully a barrier, and I will take the cash I need! Here’s to a good day gf!

Take care

 
Posted : 24th October 2018 6:17 am
Jappy
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11.00 of day 5 - all good gf! However on reflection of the day I have been dissatisfied with performance today of myself which in the past would have triggered a g session. Had a pint at tea time and looked at the slots!! Didn’t act which was good but definitely felt like having a go (instant short term gain at play). I feel strange, good that didn’t act but this nagging feeling I wanted to have a go!! Tomorrow my gf days will have increased take care

 
Posted : 24th October 2018 11:05 pm
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