My Story - One final thread to end the addiction

My Story

I’ve posted on this thread a few times over the years, always at some of my lowest points. Yet, despite everything, I find myself at a new rock bottom.

No one knows about my gambling. I have a family who depends on me, and now I’m in debt—something they don’t know about. I can’t bring myself to put that burden on them.

I’ve told myself so many times, just one more win and I’ll walk away for good. But that lie has led me here—to the most difficult situation of my life. I’m struggling to come to terms with it. I know people will say I should talk to my partner, but I promised her I would never do this again. My family is the only thing keeping me going, and I can’t risk losing them.

I’ve never followed up on a post before, but this time, I’m determined. I’m going to keep this thread going as I turn my life around. I know I need help, and I’m ready to reach out to professionals and put real restrictions in place.

I’ve been trapped in the cycle of compulsive gambling for 12 years, and despite countless attempts to break free, I’ve always found myself falling back in. Now, with people depending on me, I’ve reached a point where I simply cannot continue. Gambling has sapped my energy and passion—leaving me feeling like a zombie, disconnected from everything I once loved.