My Story
I’ve posted on this thread a few times over the years, always at some of my lowest points. Yet, despite everything, I find myself at a new rock bottom.
No one knows about my gambling. I have a family who depends on me, and now I’m in debt—something they don’t know about. I can’t bring myself to put that burden on them.
I’ve told myself so many times, just one more win and I’ll walk away for good. But that lie has led me here—to the most difficult situation of my life. I’m struggling to come to terms with it. I know people will say I should talk to my partner, but I promised her I would never do this again. My family is the only thing keeping me going, and I can’t risk losing them.
I’ve never followed up on a post before, but this time, I’m determined. I’m going to keep this thread going as I turn my life around. I know I need help, and I’m ready to reach out to professionals and put real restrictions in place.
I’ve been trapped in the cycle of compulsive gambling for 12 years, and despite countless attempts to break free, I’ve always found myself falling back in. Now, with people depending on me, I’ve reached a point where I simply cannot continue. Gambling has sapped my energy and passion—leaving me feeling like a zombie, disconnected from everything I once loved.
I know how you feel, I’ve been doing this for the same time with my beautiful family not knowing. Try not to think of the short term benefits, but imagine in a year, two, three years down the track of not gambling. The memories you’ll have, the extra money. It’s all about how you will live your life from now on, and how your future self will thank you.
Thanks, John. I appreciate the reply.
The last couple of nights have been awful. I haven't been able to sleep and have been constantly thinking about it. If I’m not worrying about my financial situation, what worries me even more is my family finding out and the distress it would cause them.
Today is Day 3 of my journey. I have managed long periods before, but each time I returned, it only ended up worse than the last. This time it needs to be different.
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