Need serious help! My life is ruined

How you going rach. .x

Not great. Seeing the solicitor next week. He said plan for the worst and hope for the best. I really can't be away from my son! I got paid yesterday I paid my bills but have a bit left and have thought about gambling 🙁 I haven't though

Rach87 wrote:

Not great. Seeing the solicitor next week. He said plan for the worst and hope for the best. I really can't be away from my son! I got paid yesterday I paid my bills but have a bit left and have thought about gambling 🙁 I haven't though

Not going to offer platitudes but from what i've learnt keep accepting help - counselling, GA, whatever. Its not easy sometimes. tri

Hi Rach, as hard as this is the solicitor is right to ask you to prepare. The outcome can not be predicted but do not let that lead you to gamble ! It would look so bad and feel so bad to turn to what has caused this mess in the first place.

Take deep breaths and focus if you can.

Take care x

I know, and I have resisted the urge. It will not make things better and I will only feel like c**P afterwards. I can't see a GC counsillor because I have an appointment with and Nhs one next month. They have been very helpful though and have offered to see me after my course ends. I need all the help I can get. I know I'm going to be a mess when I see the solicitor. As it's grtting closer I'm finding it had to focus on anything else. Im hardly sleeping and I'm not myself at all. I feel sorry for those around me

Nice to hear from you rach
And well done on fighting those urges at such traumatic time for you...
Hard ...but sensible advice from soliciter. ..
Again....my daughter went of to court....fully prepared for the worse....I was at home with baby...she'd left a letter for me at home with everything I might need to know if she was detained...id also made enquiries with the court as to where she would end up...she took a bag with essentials in....as you know hun. .she came home...lean on your mum a bit love...sort a few bits....just in case...it may help you feel more in control if you've sorted some things out...stay strong for your little ones x

Hi Rach, have been thinking about you as you have that meeting this week x

Thank you, I'm going to the solicitor now. I'm not in a very good way haven't slept and feel like such a terrible mother 🙁 I will update on what is said later x

You are not a bad mother. You fell to addcition. The lack of sleep doesnt help and as a none sleeper to , do you find yourself randomly bursting into tears ? I do, comes from nowhere.

Will look out for your update later. You will come though this, regardles.

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I've just got home. I cried through most of it. The guidelines are about 2 years in prison but I have a lot going for me, the fact I confessed, I am seeking help, I have a child and one on the way etc. I have to get references now and have to make plans for care of my son in case I get set to prison. It's all too much I can't cope with this why did I do such a ridiculous thing?! I don't feel strong at all to get through this

And yes I cry, I cry myself to sleep I wake up crying too. I can't get away from this

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No I won't, I'll be tarnished with the gambler the thief. I have abadenment issues and my partner said one day my kids will leave me too

Rach, you made a mistake. You didnt kill anyone, you did not leave your child hungry and cold.

Take a deep breath, your anxiety will be through the roof.

Have a look at who will be able to look after your son as advised. Your right you have much going for you, the fact you have children wont impact the judges decision. I do not know why you were told that.

However yes you confessed, you are seeking help and you must stay strong because you are pregnant.

Have you seen your GP, I know medication is not given out lightly in pregnancy but they do. My friend lost her husband in an acccident and she was given a short perscription to ensure the stress and sheer grief protected her self and her unborn baby.

Your children will not leave you, words said in anger and frustration are dreadful and not helpful but your partner is under his own untold stress in all of this.

When is your trial due, dont put the exact date to protect yourself.

Rach I feel so worried about you. Please keep updating. Crying is good, let it all out and if you feel low post here I am awake 23 hours a day near on and a lot of others are here right behind you, willing you to find the resolve you need in all of this mess.

Sending a massive cyber hug xxxx

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