New beginnings!

Morning Lucy,

Simple message really, you are an inspiration!!!

Many many of us would have cracked last night.

Have a much much better Sunday than Saturday.

Flagg

Hi Lucy

Glad to see ur ok and hope ur much stronger for fighting those urges , really felt ur pain and wanted to help so much like everyone else did but u were the only one who could decide and u did I am so proud of u for it and so should u

Stay strong

Castle2

Lucy,

Thanks for posting on my diary, which is much appreciated. Great to see you are still gamble free. I read your diary and see that you are still having strong urges but it is great that you are managing to fight them off. You are working so hard and I believe we are all rewarded for hard work. Keep going.

Tomso.

Today I did not gamble

Today I did not want to gamble

Today I feel upset I wanted too soo bad last night

Today I have learnt just how strong I am getting

Today I have finally realised I will at times have urges and must take things one day at a time

Today I know it will never leave me

But today I know it will never take my life from me again, I will continue to be strong , I will continue to hate it and fight those urges when they come looking for me !

My life is getting better each day , so many changes and new emotions happening but I know I have to go through it all to get to the other side

I 'believe' that all this eventually will turn me back to the person I was and will be again but soo much stronger

Hope all have managed a bet free day

Lucy

Also took my son for a bloody expensive lunch (his choice) , if I had let it get to me last night I would not have had any money to do that.

And today not just a kiss from him but also a big hug 🙂

Hi Lucy, it was really nice 2 read how positive u are feeling today. Well done for fighting the urges last nite that shows ur stength and determination 🙂 and u should be soooo proud of urself for resisting and it must have felt really good 2day 4 u when u took ur son out for lunch 🙂 So much more rewarding than gambling. 🙂

Well done Lucy, stay strong and keep going 🙂

lucy. I raise my glass to you tonight you are soo on the gamble free bus, you have binned those "gambling googles" we all wore and you are living you wont just be the person you were you will be much more lucy. Enjoy your recovery be proud you are making the right choices be kind to yourself, take that stick you beat yourself with sometimes and keep on beating the addiction. Well done you. (hope your lunch was good i was busy having a ball at my stove' ) thanks for sharing it makes us all the stronger. Duncs stepping forward never back.

Strong, defiant Lucy!

I am so glad you conquered the urges last night and you are back to living your life the way you want to.

You can tell how much you have changed just by your son's reaction towards you.. it speaks volumes!

Keep doing what you're doing because you're doing it right!

We sure are racking up them days!!

LMM x

Good Morning World

Well what can i say another up and down weekend, when does it start to even out?

Feel positive today about not gambling, i really really do not want to go there again as i know it will ruin me completely and i do not want that for my son or me!

Still not feeling very well but think it is too do with the ex and all the rubbish that goes with divorce.

Have come to work but not feeling that focussed either but must put on my brave face so the staff perform even if i don't to the best of their ability.

Really tired too but have started a book that i'm having trouble putting down so was reading late into the night lol hey it's better than gambling all night and only cost a few pound lol

So for today

I will remain positive about NOT gambling

I will try to smile for at least 75% of the day even if i don't feel like it!

I will gain some focus so i can do my job

I will 'believe' that it is all getting better and try to be less impatient as i want it all sorted NOW!

So for today i will remain bet free again!

Hope all have a great bet free day

Lucy

I will post tonight on others with hopefully some good positives!

hi lucy,

yes you are right about not being impatient.it will take us time to clear all the gambling debts, it will take time to feel strong about our addiction.lets smile that we have in front of us a brilliant non gambling day.

we are going great, nothing will stop us this time.

take care

Hi Lucy, you are real example for me and reading your diary I have learned a lot. Keep it doing because you doing very well. All the best for you today and every day after. Just one day a time and we beat it. even if the sky is falling down there is no need to worry... K. (8 days gamble free)

Just to say

My smile got up to about 90% today , another target reached and passed!

hi Lucy

just a couple of things firstly i want to say a massive well done for saturday, you beat them feelings!! you should be sooo proud of yourself, and also thank you for your kind words of support on my diary, i'm being strong but the urges sometimes are so overwhelming! its a wonder i have beat them some days, when will them feelings ever end will they ever? its something i would like to find out 😉 keep going!!

Hollie

Hi Lucy, thank u 4 ur kind words and support on my diary 🙂

I am glad u r feeling a lot more happier and positive now 🙂

U r strong I know u can do this, keep going 🙂

Hey Lucy,

I think it's testament to how popular you are on this site that I never have to look far for your diary! People react best to those that are good and clearly you fit the criteria of good in many peoples eyes!

Thanks for your post as always on my diary, I decided you are an inspiration whether you agreed or not! To me it's about looking up to those who seem the most "real" and you are right up there in that respect! Fr that I thank you!

Flagg