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Hi Lee

I felt exactly the same, each month blowing my money and feeling sick each time

I really think I hit my rock bottom on Friday, I signed up to everything to block me and still borrowed a tablet to gamble,  it wouldn't let let me download gamban as the storage was too low on the old tablet,  so I cut the wire up so I couldn't charge it!!  It actually felt liberating!

Only on day 4 and taking each day as it comes, but feel quite proud of myself for doing it, as I literally spun every day

And you know what, I haven't felt sick in those days

I actually smoked a lot while I played which sort of come hand in hand with gambling, I've not even smoked

Just good luck, hope you can do it, take each day

Thanks, luckily I can't gamble online at all due to all the gambam, GamStop bank card blocks ect so that helps alot and I'm self excluded from almost every bookies, casino an even bingo halls in my town, but there's so many that I can still go in to some unnoticed, I'm just going to focus on keeping busy

Well done on 4 days!

Good luck Lee, putting all the stops in place certainly helps, let's hope we can all stay strong and beat this awful addiction

Hi Lee. Wishing you the best of luck, strength and determination. I have lost so many months salary in just hours of it reaching my account, over the years. No way to live at all and I think I am finally realising this! I am now not far off being 300 days g.f!

Great that you have a plan 👏👍.  I would just say though, that the first 90 days can also be the hardest but with determination, patience and plans in place, it can be done. Better than this though is that from experience, within just a matter of days/weeks, I can assure you that you will feel so much better physically and mentally and I can bet your sleep pattern will improve too.

Wishing you the very best 🙏.

Pink Lady 🩷🍎.

Thanks pink lady, and well done on 300 days!

Day 1, took the dog for long walk this morning, really cleared my head, came home thought I'll sort out my finances, work out how much I'll need to borrow to get me through the month then as soon as I started worrying about money all I could think was I should go back one last time to try and get abit back! Even though I know from experience that I'll almost definitely loose every last penny I have, so came on here instead untill the urge passes, going to read some more threads then do some jobs in house I've been meaning to get done for ages before I have to go to work!