New diary, fresh start

welll done xxx

51 days gamble free, going through alot currently but so glad I have tried to find a way to gamble, its helped me so much my partner having financial control. I highly recommend trying it if your struggling with staying gamble free. 

I'm starting my Christmas shopping tomorrow,  really can't wait to start. Something I've been so behind on previous Christmases due to my addiction..going to make this Christmas extra special. All I want is to be with my wonderful family and not have being skint hanging over me like previously.

Its strange at the moment,my moods low and I have alot going on,but I'm coping so much better without the added stress of gambling. I'm finding healthy ways to cope

My mum passed away this morning. Devasted 

Hi Stace,

I'm so sorry for your loss & my thoughts are with you & your family.

AL

Dear Stace,

I am sorry to hear that she has passed away.

You have spoken about how important your mother is to you. We are here when you wish to be contacted for us to listen and support you. We are thinking of you at this time, but no response is needed if you would prefer some space to grieve.

www.Cruse.org.uk are a bereavement charity that may be able to offer you specialist support.

Please take care of yourself.

My condolences,

Louise,

Forum Admin

So sorry to hear of your loss, and deepest condolences. 

@stace how are you? I’m so sorry to read about your Mum x

Thankyou everyone for your kind words. Over a week now since I lost my mam and I'm broken. Truly devastated. There are no words to describe how I feel. I've really wanted to gamble, to have that escape from real life for abit, but I'm 62 days gamble free and my mam was proud of me for stopping,  so I will keep making her proud. I love and miss her so much. Our lives will never be the same again

great move stacexxxx we are with you all the way xxx

66 days gf and 14 days since I lost my mam. Totally heartbroken

I am guessing your mum would be so proud of you, 66 days is hard enough but with what you`ve had on your plate and then the loss of your mum, it really is an achievement in the most extreme and trying circumstances.

You are amazing.

Thankyou lids

Today I'm 72 days gamble free, I don't know how I've managed it because right now the urge to gamble and escape the real world is huge. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks since my mam passed away and its also her funeral. Its going to be the hardest day of my life and I honestly have no idea how I will get through the day. I can't properly describe how I am right now. I'm in the darkest place I've ever been, thought I'd been to this dark place many times b4 but it was nothing compared to the utter heartbreak I feel right now. My mam was my world, there wasn't one day that went by without us seeing each other or talking on the phone. She was an amazing mother and grandmother. My heart is completely torn to pieces. I'm devastated and don't know how I will ever move forward. My mam was proud of me for stopping gambling, I'm so glad she got to see that. What do I do now? How on earth do I keep going? The pain i feel is unbearable. Tomorrow will be the hardest goodbye I've ever had to do 💔

80 days gamble free today. This past month has been the hardest month of my life. I can't eat, can't sleep, can't concentrate, I'm so low but I'm managing to stay away from gambling. Gambling was my escape, with out it I'm having to deal with my feelings and its so hard. Really am heading to rock bottom 😭

84 days gf, not having any urges, the thought of gambling makes me feel sick. Lifes too short and precious to waste gambling. Will never take life for granted again. 

89 days gamble free, so glad my blocks are super tight, its stopped me even trying to gamble, with losing my mam 5 weeks ago, fracturing my ribs, my washing machine breaking, and loads of other stuff going on, I know without those blocks I would of gambled. I've had urges, but I've dealt with them. Without the escape of gambling I'm having to deal with whats going on, its so hard but its what I need. I can't keep going through life trying to escape my problems instead of dealing with them. My mood is very low right now but I'm just relieved I don't have gambling added to my problems.