New diary, Need some backup

Alright bud,

First of all. Your in the right place. What's bad is when I read your post there I instantly thought £200, I wish that was all I had lost recently! It is a lot of money to lose though. Online Casino's were my ultimate downfall, and I know I'm not as "bad" as some people on this forum, I've still deposited and withdrawn thousands over the years, but as you pointed out, many withdrawals don't make it your bank account due to the reverse wthdrawal feature. I think the Casino's know this and for some people, they will always end up reversing it when they feel the urge to gamble.

I'm glad you have admitted your problem though, as it only gets worse and more expensive the further down the road you go, you just have to think positive and vow to never let yourself do it again!

Stay positive

Stuart

Casinos definately my problem at the minute bud, originally all started with horses when i was 18. Determined to beat this now though, did it for over a year some time ago so i know i can do it. Heres to day one!! Cheers for posting anyway mate

tarnlad

welcome to the forum a place where you will receive a great deal of support and some amazing advice to help build your resolve to deal with your addiction.

well done for accepting you have a problem before you have debt, this is something that does'nt happen often enough, for that take great heart.

The compulsion to gamble is recognised as progressive in it's nature and as it progresses the stakes get raised and the losses with it.

whilst gambling for the most we all follow the same mantra

I cannot win because I cannot stop.

any win is never enough, leading to us to relentlessly continue until any wins become losses and then the chase unsues ending in not only financial damage but emotional damage too.

It is your choice how you approach recovery, for me total abstinence is the way I became a winner, by not placing a single penny I actually achieve what gambling fooled me into believing I was chasing.

Money stays in the bank, savings become a result of not blowing my had earnt on the futile act of gambling, plus emotionally I win too, no more deceipt,lies and self loathing that gambling gifted me.

Regards not telling your partner, that again is down to your choice, for me I had no choice but to confess to the damage I had done, I actually gambled until we were a day from repossession before I sought help.

bottom line is fella the choice comes down to you, you have gamble free time under your belt from previous abstinence, take strength from that too.

My advice

the advice that got me to where I am today, gamble free and happy.

There is a triangle

Time-Money-Location

Take one away at all times and the punt becomes impossible.

Self exclude, get blocking software for your computer which is available for free, all this will mean your time will be better spent with those kids and your missus.

I hope you get as much out of your diary as I do mine.

Recovery the gift that never stops giving.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

keep strong pal , you can beat this , make sure you have self excuded yourself from any casinos you have been to aswell as any online ones as i closed my online acount but then was thinking of going to a physical casino at one point but then remembered i self excluded from that aswell when i also closed the online account and so i think this has helped me, keep strong, we can all beat this

Well day one has been a success, had a busy day so kept my mind from gambling. Feel happy in myself for saving money today. Plus city lost and would have prob backed them lol.

Not very often i go to a casino so should not be a problem in that regard. Only thing i do do is go to races with the lads feom footy a few times a year but ill deal with that when it comes around, hopefully be a good few months in by then and can make a decision on going or not. Cheers for the posts they all mean a lot

Day 2 passed!! Another busy day at work, and been gym this evening so kept my mind occupied. Ive had gambling thoughts but not even looked at any football to even make me consider a bet. Hopefully all the days can be like this

well done

Well today is day 7. This week has been gamble free 😊 I must say i have had gambling thoughts, mainly because of cheltenham but i have not acted upon them. Really pleased with myself. Off out for the day today to the farm with my little ones so will be away from gambling again 👍

Hopefully i can keep this going, this is the way forward!!!!

Day 14, still going strong. Hardly any gambling thoughts this week but when i do i tell myself its no good and they seem to pass. Seem a lot happier in myself too!

Try to keep in mind that recovery is a journey and not a destination. There is no rush to get there!

Take care

Been a while since ive been on here, afraid to say ive had a relapse and am P****d off with myself. Was goin really well, went 7 weeks and wasnt even thinking about betting. Then grand national weekend i had a bet on the national thinkin it would be a one off, like that was ever gonna happen. Slowly but surely started with a few small bets n start building up again, few wins makes u want more as always. Determined to start again as of now. With the football season over it should help. Only one betting account to close which will be done shortly!! Wish me luck

So i have finally closed my account after another loss yesterday. Determined to get through today without a bet. Yesterdays bet were ridiculous when i look back, just following somebody elses tips without even considering the form myself. Proves that its jist the feeling of gambling i want considering i dont even pick them. Realised its pointless doing this!! Also realised that i get angry when i lose, found myself shouting at the kids yesterday cos id had a loss, kinda upset me a bit when i realised and i dont ever want that again. I enjoyed the feelings when i was gamble free and want them back. New start today!!!

Good luck tarnlad stay strong for the little ones.

You will be feeling good again in no time.

Ste26

Well once again ive had another relapse, determined to do this. Time to start posting on here everyday now to try and keep me motivated to do it. Also gonna start and keep myself busy so i dont get bored and turn to gambling. Todays been quite tough, keep thinking how i could do with winning some money, when i really cant afford to lose anymore. Luckily im still not in any debt but still have no spare money. Im still quite young but find it hard to believe that i have nothing in savings for the future. Need to really knuckle down now and look towards a gamble free future!!