Think this is the point now were i need to start writing down how i feel each day. Ups or downs.
As title next yr my partner will b having our second child. A little boy. I already have a 3 yr old little girl and shes my life. But......... for some god awful reason i waste much of my weekend family time gambling. I say to myself just that 1 spin and you will b fine. Never seems to be the case. I need to start puting my family first and noy wastung every last penny online.
I always say each month with the start of each pay that this is the month. But i always seem to dip into ut and before long i got 3 wka left of the month and i struggle. So...... this is my diary from now on. 17/11/2014 any1 wushibg to follow advise or just show support will be warmy welcome.
Day1......... lucky for me im in works car park then home to gym. See 8f it last that way.
Take care and thank you fot listening.
Hi there and welcome on board. First step towards better and calmer future.
These pages are full of wisdom and really helpful advice. You are surrounded by like minded folks which will offer a lot of support and understanding.
Gambling is destroying addiction. You need to arrest it. So far i can see you have a purpose - loving family. No punt could be more important than that... it is never too late to stop and turn your life around, but some barriers has to be put in place to help you with your recovery. Sometimes willpower is not enough. Firstly i would suggest blocks and self exclusions. If you gamble online there is many sites offering blocking software. .K9 is for free also and you only need to ask someone you trust to put a password in for you.
Secondly, keep yourself occupied and distract yourself from annoying urges. They will come. Recovery is not an easy ride, there will be many ups and downs that's why you need to be really honest with yourself and commit to the change..
It will get easier with every day you abstain. More abstained days will bring you sense of relief and achievement. Something possibly alien at the moment to you. You have a choice - life or misery. You are here and i guess you are choosing life. Well done to you dear soldier.
You can do it and you will. Keep believing and looking ahead.
Wish you well on your journey, keep posting.
S
Thank you for your kind words.
Today is goin ok but beung at work i find easy nit to gamble.
I lined up a bet for tonite but my first test will b not to.
Thank you again.
Hi well done on accepting the problem is there. You have too distance yourself from gambling completely, ie don't line up bets cause if they win you will beat yourself up more. A used too bet heavy on sports betting, I have seen things that are unbelievable. The faro islands winning an San Marino getting a point an Malta getting a point in football past few days is enough too say the international football world has got so much better which means it makes it harder too win. The more money you have the better life you can give your family. Stay stronger an give up for good. Moving forward never back
ally
Cheers ally. Well home now. Still no erge really to gamble. Best not check any scores later.
All strength is needed mostly on wkends. I bore very easliy and if im stuck indoors i gamble.
The worst thing ive done of late is winning. But beung bord and playin the lot through.
Will post anythung that happend in nxt few hrs.
Thank u for all postive post
Well. Cold turkey was just abit to much. I no a bets a bet regardless of what we stake. But i felt i had to inform every1 here rather than lie and say i done a who day.
But there is a positive.... beit small as i awayed from roulette while online and didnt deposit more than £5
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