New start - again

Yes keep it going mate, ur doing really well! i have had a few mess ups but am getting there and am getting better, baby due this saturday ! scary times ahead lol

Still here and not touched those vile horrible money grabbing online casinos. Stay strong and have a great weekend all. Doggy.

Good to hear doggy. Is it helping having the joint account with the wife? Not long now until the nipper arrives. I hope you and the Mrs are keeping well. Keep strong doggy, you have something very special to aim for. Russ

Hi russ. Yeah it's a great help mate. Then again hateing online slots and fobts is helping. The sleepless nights I have had...ill be getting enough of them soon! How's things with you?

Well a slip but not to my previous levels. Still angry with myself but the days of being up all night and losing up to 1000 are long gone.

I am an idiot. 1460 loss ( my worst ever) on Monday. The bank left me a 4000 overdraft on my account that I asked them to take off...so what do I do. Not on the phone anymore but online. So what now. Well I have cancelled 8 credit cards today cut my debit card up already I have my salary paid into joint account. Had been doing so well and paid a good chunk off my debts 10k now. Baby due in June. Horrible selfish vile human I am. Help.

Mate, thats terrible. I hope you can find the strength to start again.

You're not selfish or vile, you have an adiction that is hard to beat. I know... i'm only on day 6 but it's one of the hardest things i've had to do.

Have you considered getting an online block. Once you do that you have to really work at getting back on there, and hopefully it will be enough to make you think twice.

Hope you feel better soon.

SF

Thanks for the reply. Yep no longerable to gamble on line. Got no access to cash anyway now. That final bloody access I had to my account. Bloody livid and upset with myself. Going shopping for baby stuff this weekend. 1460 would have added to what we saved! Got to pay that off now. Can I get over this?

Hi im only on day 4 at the moment but feel like im finally starting to get somewhere. Well done on getting the blocks put put on. I have kept reading diaries on here find them very helpful. The one thing that i keep reading on here is

I cant win because i cant stop

Really hit home with me because i could never stop till i lost my last penny.

Stay strong take each day 1 step at time

Best wishes

Andrew

Well the moneys gone from my account. Can't do anything about that except start paying it back! Fool that I am.

Another day down day 5 today and I won't gamble my life away.

Alright lad sorry to hear about the gambling but ur not alone I had a big slip up down my arcade spent over 1200 on one machine and didn't win a thing! Made me realize how stupid and pointless these machines are! Got home did a word document with a photo of me and went round my local arcades and banned myself from all of them! After it happened I thought I was losing my mind I was screaming on the way home in my car I know I can't go on like this, I've wiped out all my ISA savings which I've worked so flipping hard to save and to hsve it wiped out in days is so sickening anyway I have blocked out nearly every way to gamble I owe it to my son to stop, he deserves better , good luck mate

Day 6 done. I actually love it. Life is so much simpler. I dreamt of gambling last night and woke up feeling terrible. Why did I ever do it! Why why. Off to work with a clear head. Have a great day all.

Morning g dog well done on getting to day six im just 2 days ahead of you. I have 2 days off now and instead of being sneaky and work out how i can fit gambling in im off walking in the yorkshire dales. Cant wait loving being gambling free. Stay strong buddy. Andrew

Sounds good to me. This time last week I was mid way through losing a fortune. Now I am a week closer to paying it back. Still feel a fool. I may even sleep tonight!