no win situation

Hi Jeff

Thanks for your post on my diary, just want to say good luck in your recovery, there's some great people on this forum who will give great advice and support... Keep posting and all the best to you in your recovery......take care, ands

im getting great help off u all her 30 years of gambling on anything and u r all making it go away for me yes i get the urge to play poker but i dont want to let anyone down i know we all want the same thing and have all gone through hell encouragement is what we need thanks all

Hi Jeff

You are right, i am so determined to beat this, You just make sure you keep one month behind me, because the way i feel just now, gambling will not be on the cards (pardon the pun). Urges will come. thats for sure, just be strong mate, and hopefully they will pass, and get less strong in the coming weeks/months...all one day at a time of course.

neil

saturday morning and i havent got a paper dont think ill bother. Watching football focus and my first thought was i wonder what odds i get for tonights game, then looking through what to watch on tv to keep me busy i see snooker is on hmmm i wonder what odds i get to win outright? its still automatic everything i look at ,everywhere i turn the temptation is there. last night i was out with a m8 watching darts hamilton verses painter. i said hamilton would win my m8 put £2 on the bar and said ok ill have painter.it felt good when i said pick it up .I DONT BET ANYMORE. Today is a big test for me there is temptation everywhere im off work and ive got money,but im sure its a very hard day for a lot of you so we will all get through it. Anyway apart from England (im one of those patriotic people) who cares who wins anything if you dont have a bet on it . i might enjoy watching it instead of praying that whatever happens next helps my bet. stay strong all jeff.

Hi jeff,

Thanks for your support and well done on changing long held habits, it's not easy, but it will be worth it.

DT.

ps I'm not working at the minute, but I'm going to the pub anyway and gonna spend some of my wife's hard earnt. Cheers!

Hi Jeff

Gambling is everywhere i agree, 24 hours a day, 7days a week...we just cannot escape it. But we can choose to keep our money in our pockets, its hard sometimes but we can do it.

As for the kids in the car whilst u "nip" in the bookies, im ashamed to say i hav done that on many occasions, id even play roulette machines whilst they sat there. Id lose, walk out, reality hit home, and see my kids innocent little faces wondering where their daddy had gone and why it took so long. I will never ever do that to them again, and luckily they are young enough never to remember cr** like that. Keep strong mate, you can do this.

neil

hi Jeff,

Thanks for youer support. I think its lovely that you are new on here, but posting so much encouragement and support on other peoples diaries.

Have had a bit of a drink so going to read your diary when Im more complus metus - cheers! 🙂

f x

well i got up early this morning rudley awakened by a throbbing headache. i feel great for not betting and ive still got money on a sunday, but i still feel like ive had one of those bad losing days.i was aggitated and restless all day yesterday everytime i put on the computor or switched the tv over there was a betting oppertunity .im hoping this will pass today maybe subconsciously it was worrying me more than i thought. would be interested to hear if anyone else has felt like that and if its only because im just starting off. anyway another gamble free day out of the way and im playing golf today so wont be near a bookies . and remember guys sunday is a day of rest.and mon-sat for us lol take care jeff .

morning jeff,

ah...all of those emotions that you were blocking out with gambling seem to be rearing their ugly head! It was the same for me. I still sometimes get days like that, 15 weeks on - but it evened out a lot for me.

the biggest help for me at these times is exercise. handy that you are off to play golf today then! Fore!

f x

hi all bit of a strange weekend for me really . First of all i had a bet free weekend,but ive never been so bored it was as if i missed something .Dont get me wrong i was chuffed to bits waking up this morning knowing i was still bet free but when you lose , you feel very low and depressed. Well its strange but thats how i felt and i hadnt lost a penny . what i can say though is that my missus was glad id done it . I think she doubted me as ive let her down so many times before . anyway she gets the money now instead of the bookies so she would be happy lol. This site is deffinatley helping me i think without the help from you all i may have failed like so many times before . but i am strong now i have help thanx all jeff.

Hi Jeff!

Thanks for the post and well done! You said about waking up having the feeling of a bad loss, its funny because thats exactly how i felt in the first week. Its weird because you know you should be happy about your progess but yet still feel bad! I don't get that feeling anymore but the strangest emoition is boredom. I've never had so much free time! Its sounds like your really committed to giving up and i respect you for that, and the support you've got from your partner is invaluble! Its good you can laugh about her having the money now, to have someone that understanding is amazing!

Keep it up mate and thanks for the support

James

Hi all

not really had an urge to go the bookies this week, but plenty to go on the online poker,which i usually played everynight.

I dont know if it happens to anyone else but everytime i try to make a new start and pack i n gambling something else goes wrong . Im only into week 2 and my phone plus the dryer have both broken lol,so i guess ill have to wait abit longer before i have any money in my pocket. Nevertheless i had the money to solve the problem there and then ,which makes a change. im going to watch england tonight . It will make a change watching it without a bet on it and will probably enjoy it better instead of being all tense waiting on my score to come in anyway no lapse so far that cant be bad thanks all Jeff

Hi jeff,

You are doing great, keep going, it's gonna be worth it. The urges do subside, it's just such a massive behaviour change that our minds don't know how to replace it. In time, that part gets easier, promise.

Take care,

DT.

Jeff, Im new to the road of recovering and reading your diary has made me more determined to stop. You have a wife, and kids and you are lucky to still have them as they are the most important things in your life. You may have lost money in the past, which i have done myself, but you got whats most important. Im glad your doing well and i hope to do as well as you are! All the best mate

Hi Jeff, keep up the good work! You're at a point now were everyday will become ever so slightly easier to deal with and get through. Keep your motivation for quitting and when urges come remind yourself why your quitting. They come but more importantly they go!

Stick at it, your over the hardest bit in my opinion, the first week was really hard for me because i still wanted to gamble in a weird way.

Stay strong mate

james