no win situation

Hi Jeff,

Yeah I still have the dreams, quite alot at first 3 or 4 a week, but I would say 1 or so a week went on for quite a while. I still have the odd one especially after a skin full, but they are either getting less or just not so vivid and I cant recall them the next day.?. My mate has given up he is on 66 days and he still gets dreams at least once a week - he tells me.

Well done Jeff keep on going mate.

Its a nice feeling when you realise you haven't slipped! Every cloud....

hi jeff

thanks for the words of support on my diary

your right i think i will focus on something after christmas im needing another car so i will have to save like crazy to get one

im glad to hear you have got your daughter what they wanted for christmas i guess this year we might be looking forward to it a lot more

just one thing with 3 daughters do you ever win an argument

i have two daughters 19 & 21 and in my house im never right

anyways thanks agian for your support mate

i hope you and your family have a very nice christmas

all the best

JOHN

i wake up with them fears too gamblerjeff...it all comes down to when ave lost the day before..its a horrible feeling wakening up in the mornings thinking f...ing hell what have i done. now after 3 days without a bet i still wake up and think how much have i lost...i also sometimes used to find it hard to sleep at night having pains at bottom of legs as if blood rushing down there for some reason..probably the stress of it all

It's all happening at City hey Jeff!

4-3 win, sacking the manager and appointing a new boss all on the same day. It's like an episode of the old sky one drama "Dream Team".

I think maybe Mark Hughes has been a little hard done by. Too many draws but you have only lost 2 in the premiership all season and one of those was in the midst of a defensive injury crisis.

Thanks for continuing to post on my diary you are a big help to me.

First day of the holidays for me today.Ive got to say ive found it quite hard today. I have been looking forward to a rest from work but feel i will haveto keep busy during these holidays.It will be hard but i wont gamble.Jeff.

Stick to the plan Jeff, some days are always going to be harder. I finish work after tomorrow and although I tend to winge about work at times, when I'm off I get easily bored so it'll be a tough test for me too. We both know a wee gamble is not worth it though because it won't be just a "wee gamble".

Keep going!!!

wtl.

Hi All

Thanks for the post wtl. just need that extra will power through the next couple of weeks but im sure it is the same for many of us .Anyway today i will be really busy im going out of town shopping for presents for my missus ive got all the kids and family sorted.My missus also has her birthday on christmas eve so its a dear do

(today it would be cheaper to gamble lol)This year will be a lot different to me this time last year i was packing my belongings into boxes i finally lost my house and moved on boxing day. Id lived there for over 20 years. i used the last couple of mortgage payments to give us a christmas.This year is our first in this house.The kids have settled in and made new friends the missus is happy and ive kept my job through the recession,but most of all we will start the new year with a small ammount of money due to not gambling.Im also a very lucky person in life outside gambling .Ive never really had lots of money but both my parents and all my family are still here and we all live within half of a mile from eachother. If one of the family have another child i always jokingly moan thats another christmas present to buy. But inside im thinking as long as the count keeps going up that suits me.Christmas is a time for us to give to our families not our bookmakeres, bingos,arcades etc they have enough. All the best Jeff.

Morning Jeff,

I really enjoyed reading your last post..so positive....thinking of all the good things you have in your life. Know what you mean about Christmas being expensive but we both know it could have been a whole lot more expensive if we were gambling.

Happy Christmas...Jas x

Hi All

Is everyone getting excited now?

Reading through the diary section lately i can see lots of people worried about having their families over all i will say is that we have to put uo withit only for one day just to keep the peace maybe not for ourselves (we can hate every minute of it ) but for our partners and the rest of the family we love. I do loove christmas but i tend to agree with something i read on fredas diary.Christmas is for the kids our enjoyment is watching their enjoyment.We have boxing day and new year. And best present a gamblefree 2010. Happy christmas all Jeff.

Merry xmas to you Jeff.

I really appreciate your support over the last 6 weeks on here.

All the best fella.

Merry Christmas Jeff!

Cheers, Jim

Hi All

So far so good.I dont know really if ive had any urges to bet ive been thinking about the boxing day fixtures horses and football and im not sure if i was thinking about them as a good or bad thing (confusing i know).I watched football on the internet and at the pub ,i watched racing on tv and i really enjoyed the day.It was nice to see the great horse winning and it was nice to see man city winning.3 months ago i would have bet on them both.BUT i know i would have bet on everything else and lost so the enjoyment of watching that horse and my team win would have been ruined.This time i couldnt ruin it. A really nice day made even better without gambling.Jeff.

thanks for your post jeff..your last post summed my day up yesterday as well (that horse and football on tv)..keep up the good work for ive noticed you take up the time to reply to just about everybody on these forums and reading your posts gives me great confidence...

thanks for your post jeff... keep up the excellent posting on these forums for ive noticed you take the time to just about reply to everybody and it gives me great confidence reading of your positive profiles on these diaries..thanks again.

Hi Jeff

Just want to add to what others have said and say a huge thank-you for your support since i started my diary, i've never really thanked all the people that have taken the time to reply with advice and support since i first joined this site.

But reading back i remember you saying( take some time to read other peoples diaries, these people know what is going on in your head, they understand just what you are going through)

Well i'm reading them slowly and you are spot on it helps a great deal.

Thanks Jeff and congrats on your continued

recovery..

Takecare