I am starting day 1 tomorrow as I have failed.
I'm so upset with myself. I feel so low.
I'm sorry for letting everyone down and I Can only make this right ny succeeding.
Day 1 will be 10/09/14.....I will beat this.
Any advice will be so appreciated
Mba
MBA
Sorry to hear about your slip up, however you just need yo try yo ensure that's all it was I suppose, looking through a lot of diaries on here and many have slipped up at some stage and got back on track
Maybe read through some of those and see if you can get any inspiration? Said if before but I have found this site a godsend over last week or so
Keep at it, certainly know for sure that I will be tempted many times over the next while, just hope I can keep going and sure you can pick up and start again mate
Good luck to you and keep your head up
Can you take some honest brutal talk ?
Let me know, you sound a bit brittal at the moment so don't want to push you ?
Andy
Hiya mba thanks for the post on my diary. You asked for advice I would recommend self exclusion and giving someone else control of your funds as they are two things that really helped me. Its good you have come back as when I recently slipped up I nearly gave up on this place. Stay strong and seek help for your problems, life as a gambler sucks, we need to beat it.
Andym
Say what you need to mate.
I probably know everything you will say but coming from someone else will probably help.
I only cracked because I know a bookmaker that often mess up
I took advantage of their error. Won 500. Then lost it and another 500 of my own.
And that literally was a sure thing but I still lost. This proves I cannot win even on a 100% cert so as before I'm trying again.
Thanks bornagain
I have done the self exclusion. 24hrs complete again 🙂
Right MBA Wise up, Nobody on this huge earth can help u, only u can. I can say lovely things, so f*** this. I cant nor can anyone in this chatroom be there when you decide to log on, so It's down to you.
Get yer act together and just stop. Do you want to stop ? Sounds like you are not ready to stop yet ? What more can you lose ? Its like being on a train or bus, You really don't have to go to the final/last stop. You can hop off before the terminus If you choose to go there, there is probably no way back...You Choose !
MBA
Fella you will stop when you are ready,no rant or piece of advice from me or anybody else will force you to do so.
How do I know this??
Because countless times in my twenty year gambling life I was gifted the same advice.
Did I act on any of it??
Did I f**k!!!
The difference for me is you have admitted to your problem,something for my entire gambling life I failed to do.
Always hiding it through the shame I kept gifting myself.
Keep doing what you are doing fella,the penny will drop.
In the mean time the truth is your actions won't effect my own life or recovery,so my support I can unconditionally offer.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back
That wasn't as harsh as what I expected a AndyM but its all taken on board.
Yes only I can do this and you ask if im ready?
Well even if I'm not ready I have to be as I can't go on losing money.
So yes I am ready and I will do this for my family. Yes I slipped up but that's history now and the future will not have a slip up. That slip up has taught me something and made me even more determined.
Mba
Hi MBA
One thing that is 100% true and that is you will never win by gambling
It is a total waste of our time lives and money
So what's the point in keep losing and losing more of everything everytime you gamble
The stakes get too high not just with money but with our families
Well done for not giving up,use this as a big positive and keep going one day at a time
Suzanne x
Thanks Suzanne
I appreciate the motivation you are giving me.
Believe me I was considering not coming back on here as I felt so bad but I have and I will not slip up again.
Mba
MBA
Take it one day at a time , keep posting and reading ,make that choice each day and choose not to gamble the belief and self confidence will start to come back that gambling can take from us so easily
Best wishes in your recovery
Castle2
Thanks castle2
I am halfway through day3 and going strong. No real urges just plodding along.
Totally self excluded from online accounts now so cant bet even if I wanted.
Hi MBA
Each time you slip it makes you stronger and wiser
This is a journey of recovery you will discover all sorts of things about yourself and that will be sooo positive for you
Plodding along is good but keep your guard up as your feelings will change daily
Well done
Suzanne xx
Thanks again suzanne,
Just had some bad news in my dad has fallen and broken his hip. I'm very worried but this will keep me busy for a while. He's gonna need help from me.
Day 3 nearly complete. Weekend starts tomorrow and i know I'll get through it
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