OAU Ginger

Man...everyone is running except me :-0...that was my plan hooligan today as well dear Ginge, but i had to go for an interview first..to my shock i found my tyre flat (again...mental note - replace it!), & when i opened window i couldn't shut it close when reached the garage for petrol :-/..time ticking and me nearly 40 miles away from my destination i put goggles on (tinted ones ;-)..i see better in the dark) so i get it right ( gasoline instead of diesel cause i didn't want my bad luck to keep going) & off i went. By the time i got bk, huge/massive black cloud was above me (not mentally - hooray!!) & i end up having some food instead of putting trainers on :-(..don't feel guilty tho 🙂 , there is always tommorow & there is always Lithuania with lovely greenery & beach to boot ☺

Thank you for your well wishes...getting "offline" is part of my recovery & break is needed...besides I'm sure my parents would nudge me in the chops if i had face in the phone all the time lol...i have a lot to catch up with them so win win in my eyes ☺.

Aha - plants huh...well, my neighbour with his "plantation" definitely helps if i leave window open lol lol...but i prefer more healthier greenery for sleeps 😉

Take care & keep winning! Besides..don't b shy & hop along on the challenge wagon. You're more than welcome ☺

S x

Cheers mate - you are right I did enjoy the occasional beer during the summer - indeed I was lucky enough to enjoy several in Bordeaux, as we went over for the first game of Wales in a major tournament, which I never expected to see in my lifetime. Each step and success was more than I expected, and went into the tournament thinking I'd be happy with a draw in the first game against Slovakia, and respectable defeats in the other two matches. Needless to say I was pleasantly surprised!

As for this addiction, self-sabotage is exactly what it is, and I don't want that in my life, and it certainly isn't a need for me. Just got to stamp out those demons again, and start this journey back in the right direction.

All the best

Ryan

Hi Ginge,

Nahh..I'm still here ☺. Flying out Sunday night (or is it Monday morning) so am still enjoying the British weather 🙂

As of flying..brrrr..actually i did fly back and fro for the last month.. (in my dreams) so am quite used to the idea now ☺. ..ohhhh...i usually go for a "walk" while in the air :-D..it's like walking on cloud nine huh. I never been scared of flying, loved it actually until my brains got rattled on the way bk from Tenerife few years ago :-(...but it is what it is & i will embrace it!

Good stuff on the run. I feel a lil distance coming too...maybe 10 miles for the starters 😉

Car in the garage..boo..decided to leave it there for sorting stuff out so awaiting for a phone call with a heafty bill to boot lol.

You look after yourself and keep staying safe ☺...one tiny tipu tapu to the right direction.

S x

I do think this place is losing its way when so called moderators edit a lighthearted posting you make in reply to another somebody made which frankly was quite insulting...maybe it's time for me to "bail out"

No excuses Ginge...Your recovery comes 1st & since you have nowhere else, you must stay here! Besides, we just got you back!

He's baiting you as he has been doing to all of us for months...Don't let him win! He'll be over on other people's diaries poking for a reaction when the 'fuss' dies down on his! He's clearly very poorly but there's no more advice that can be offered than hasn't already been so just give it a wide berth!

Yo Ginge! May i ask..... ;-).. You know that this place has it's hickups but man... why to give up on your support network (which you certainly have & deserve) cause of some comments and actions made by not committed souls and out of the loop moderation?..no way dear soldier! You get your backside (excuse the language) back to the place and share, talk, laugh & live the way you always had. You & your recovery is a priority, keep making the right choice. We are here (maybe not daily) & listening! Ps..hope you enjoyed the flight cause mine was a lil brain rattling (again) but i managed to detach my soul from the body! ..yup yup...anything is possible 😉 Later you & keep posting! S x

Alright mate,

Don't let anyone else try to aggravate you or push you out of here, like ODAAT and Sandra said, your recovery is more important than that! Hope you had a good weekend, and are ready for another week of kicking the a**e of these demons.

Earth calling Ginge! ☺

Cmon & don't be shy to share how your journey is going.

Hope all is well

S x

Wondered what the smell was 😉

Oh Ginger one, I cannot believe that it’s taken me 4 days to see your post (there was a time when I couldn’t go 4 seconds without a refresh) & I can’t believe how gutted I am to hear you not only fell off the wagon but lay down on the track & let it nudge you right off the broken bit back into the abyss 🙁

I may have drifted away from ole blue eyes & thinking I can do this my way but good news is, I’m still living proof that even people like us can “do this” if we want it hard enough, just not alone.

I’m not going to lie, there are still good people here & I have no doubt that many of our GamCare buddies are still stalking us from the sidelines, probably hoping for a bit of action, maybe even wishing the green one back, but the site isn’t quite what it was.

None of the advice has changed so hopefully you’re out in the garden smashing the f word out of that gambling triangle & we can look forward to an update on your diary soon.

I still can’t buy a bottle of water without thinking of you so let’s make a pact...Bottle of Evian as a cheeky celebration when you get to a month. You in?

WOW :-0 Grab hold of that lifeline Ginge & never let go...Slowly & surely you can claw your way back up it onto dry land!

How apt that your new birthday is April Fool’s day 🙂 Akin to my wedding anniversary being Halloween 🙂 & now May Day being Evian day 🙂

Don’t forget this feeling won’t last forever & bolster the blocks you thankfully put in place last time with some multiple exclusions from online & bookies as below (these have both come in since you were last here):

www.gamstop.co.uk

MOSES 0800 294 2060

Be good to see you return to your diary Ginge but I can imagine it’s taken some XXXL kahunas to even come back @ all so have emailed admin asking them to pass you my email address as another layer of defence.

Jeepers Ginge, I’d said I’d raise one on Evian day not give up the red & white stuff you crazy fool!!!

WOW, huge deal where you are @ with GA, I hope you carry through & feel the magic I did when you 1st walk into a room...Not sure that we are all Wednesday children but not many of us walk in there 1st time bouncing off of the walls! Woe & fear & all sorts of other pains are @ the root of our addictions even though some of us never reach the roots, we can still treat the poorly shoots that we find out about.