Omg i hate myself right now

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Yes it does!!

To beat your addiction just like the rest of us here

We can only make our own legacy, you still have time to make a difference to it!

Choose life and happiness will find you mark my words,

The mother in Africa finds strength for her babies, she has no materialistics, no supermarket to shop from, no fridge to store her food, no transport to ease the walk, yet she still looks to her baby everyday and smiles as eyes meet!

Think about it.

You have alot more than you realise, give your kids what they deserve it may take time but you'll get there one day at a time

God bless you.

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 10:30 am
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Ty Hun so annoyed with myself why ????
It took so long building myself to up to here an then in a instant I'm bk where I started well worse coz now I'm not just broke ive let everyone down .

Hate myself so much prayin for a miracle

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 10:48 am
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Yr welcome 🙂 its my pleasure

50 days ago i was feeling every single feeling your having now, i never thought they'd stop but they do, I've relapsed many times in the past and making sure i don't again is my cure for this destruction, the urges come but i just think of my kid's future and give it all to the battle!

find support its out there, book an appointment at the docs, tell him her everything! They will help you!

I wish you all the very best for the future, take care and hopefully that miracle will find you

Your babies need there mom,
Never forget that.

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:13 am
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What a 20 minutes the cat is out the bag an he knows what's done, and his reaction was expected he's just walked out. He said I chose this over my family an he's right . He's coming bk at 6pm an I need to be ready to leave , my daughter looked at me with tears running down her face an asked 1 simple question mum why ? I'm officially broken right now

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:14 am
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BE STRONG!

Time will bring calm.

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:19 am
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You didn't choose this, your addiction got the better of you!
Now your urges arnt there you would choose to of not made the mistake!

Tail between your legs and convince him your gona get proffesional help, he needs to understand you have an addiction! And you need help!

Show that you want and are gona fix this

Yesterday was the end of your gambling life, its time now not be a gambler! Draw a line and start fresh, Your gona get through this, wipe the dust off the shoulders and shine on

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:28 am
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Not a clue where I'll go I have nobody now just put what few items I have on selling pages to leave them with whatever money I can . Trying to write the kids a note but can't even see straight through the tears . Thinking all kids of crazy thoughts right now

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:30 am
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No going bk he just text an said last time he lost any love for me this time he hates me !! He said I care about me an only me I said to him I'm trying to find somewhere to go an his reply was tough your gone today if u have somewhere or not . He said me an kids are not doing this again . Anyone reading this please get help earlier than I did don't lose everything for an hr s play it's really not worth it

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:36 am
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He's just very angry atm

Ride the storm

You'll get there!

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 11:42 am
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Posted : 24th June 2018 11:46 am
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Hi sorrygorry, stop, take breath. Don't leave. Everything is manageable. Call all the numbers and talk to someone. My advice would be to get off the gadgets. If you can't afford online blocks call your internet provider. There is always a way to stop if you really want to. You have to fight the urges, admit you're beaten. Cancel cards, get rid of access to money. Anything! It is true gamblers love gambling more than anything else. It's a choice, you have to choose not to do it.

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 3:06 pm
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Thank you I will try but he's still adamant I gave to be out in 15 minutes . I don't know what to do X I understand it's all my fault can't even think straight . I've asked can I have till morning but he's said no

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 5:48 pm
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From one mother to another Stand up and fight for your children, his rage will pass, money comes and goes as does debt companies cannot take what you do not have and your husband cannot kick you out as you are your children's guardians in a court of law. We all make mistakes, time does heal, together put steps in place. I wish you strength during this low period in your life X your kids need you even if you don't see it

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 6:35 pm
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He had watched me walk out an towards town with no idea where I'd go then text an said the kids are upset so I can stay in the dining room on condition I stay in there away from him tilli i have somewhere else an gave me a MTH maximum. He's in work tomorrow we'd Thur an Fri so he won't be in till late I've sold my laptop tablet an some other bits today for basic gas an electric just need to try an sell more now to cover rent .
I'm currently with a mental health nurse from the recovery team from when I was admitted last year so will ring her tomorrow.

The kids are looking at me with such hurt I thought I was at rock bottom last year but this is a while new level . I'm a evil horrible person people would kill to be in my shoes an I've just let it all go !!!

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 8:10 pm
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You're not evil or horrible. You're troubled. Get help, surrender to the addiction, it's beaten you.

 
Posted : 24th June 2018 8:42 pm
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