One last attempt

Day 12

I am hoping this is the case. I think about it quite lot at the moment but I am hoping the more and more larger the time frame gets, the less and less I will think about gambling. For the next year at least I know I cannot enter a bookies in my hometown or gamble on my computer, I still need to find the solution for my phone but I know it's something I won't use anyway due to the inconvenience of it more than anything else. I am hoping that by getting to larger numbers then it will be harder to break the time built away from gambling.

Been a good weekend so far, many trips past bookies but yet to even think about going in. At one point I would walk past thinking what I would bet on, now I won't even look at it. When I was at University, it was like my head would always so no, and I would be walking along the road looking away from the bookies, but my body without control just carried me inside and once I was inside it felt like I had no control over what I was doing, although in my head I knew it was a bad idea I just couldn't do anything about it. I would come out a lot of money down and very angry, it was like a massive rush of blood would come over me and take away any rational thinking. I would even be planning when I would bet hours in advance, which is definitely a worrying thought. University was a bit of a bad time for betting in terms of my third and fourth year, I am just very grateful I was able to graduate with a very good 2.1 degree and a first in my dissertation and that the gambling did not affect that sides of things to much

Going to enjoy the Liverpool Man City game now with no other persuasions on apart from Liverpool winning. YNWA

For today, I will not gamble

Day 13

What a feeling you can get from football! It's been 24 hours from the 4-1 drubbing of man city and I cannot stop smiling! What a win and we played well with still more to come! Got a feeling success will come under klopp!

As for the weekend it's been really good! Really starting to find a lot of comfort with this site as everyday I'm trying to find time to update even if it is just a little word just to keep seeing that day count build up!

I think it's genuine this time though! I first joined under a different name back in August, August 10th and thought the number count would be the solution to see it keep growing! Howver, pay day came round and everything was forgotten! I got lazy with updating and would go days without coming on here and by then it was too late

I thought the novelty of this site would have worn out the first time and the second time I came back I lasted 5 days! Which is when I really thought this site wouldn't be able to help me, just as ga when I first broke the count then

However I think during those two times I didn't properly address myself and whether or not I was ready to do it, whereas this time feels different and I'm 13 days in with changes constantly being made to my lifestyle and I feel this time is going to be different

For today, I will not gamble

SRL1 wrote:

Day 10

Thanks guys,

Yeah I have already put as many barriers in place as possible. I have self-excluded from all the bookies in my home town and put a blocker on my computer which has stopped me from accessing anything to do with gambling. Just trying to find something that I can use on my phone to ensure I am not tempted to gamble on the internet on my phone. I have thought about the gamcare councelling and think it is something I need to put in place, and gamblers annoymous is hard as I don't really have the time to get to my local one due to work. Also with the financial control, I can do this however it would mean telling my other half about earlier relapses she doesn't know about and I am petrified and worried she will leave me for being distrustful. It is something I need to do but I think I need to do it with time.

Not much going on on the gambling thoughts though. Busy at work as we are nearing the christmas rush so it is important getting everything ready for that so really haven't had the time to think. Another weekend coming up and I just hope I can keep building that number up in the top corner of the my account section. Pay day next friday so I am going to make sure I get something in place between now and then in regards to councelling and also looking at a phone block which is going to be the most vital one

For today, I will not gamble

You've given it thought SRL1. Of course if things change you could always pick something else up but well done so far

Day 14

Two weeks are finally here, not been that bad to be fair. Payday this week so all focus will turn to the end of the week although I have still got through two weekends without doing anything, I will need to stay strong in order to keep this run up.

I will update more tomorrow, very tired so should go to sleep

For today, I will not gamble

Day 15 and Day 16

Two days rolled into one again but more importantly 16 days gamble free since I made this thread. Feels really good and keeping busy so thoughts are staying away from gambling. Payday this weekend so just hoping the weekend runs smoothly and then it will really be a big step in recovery.

I saw on a post here once about the triangle of money-time-location and it really does work. Currently it most probably the money one but even if you take the time away you cannot find the time to gamble, and if you take the location away it almost becomes impossible to be able to search out areas to gamble.

Work continues to pick up before christmas, probably the last two days of relaxing work before the christmas overhaul begins. Will update again tomorrow

For today, I will not gamble

Day 17 and Day 18

Payday is here and so far so good! Already spending the money elsewhere which is nice so hoping that will stay the case

Does anyone know of any good mobile blocking software? I don't feel strong enough yet to go completely on will power so if anyone knows anything I can get on my phone to stop allowing gambling access that would be greatly appreciated. Tried one or two things but not very good and only want to pay money if it is going to work

For today, I will not gamble

Hi SRL1

We have information on our website about blocking software: http://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-advice/what-can-you-do/blocking-software#.VliXJHbhC5t

Hopefully others will chip in with their experiences.

Best wishes

Forum Admin

Day 19, 20, 21 and 22

It's been a few days since I last updated but all good so far! Payday has come and gone and so has payday weekend and haven't been tempted to gamble once, not that I physically can, but still haven't been tempted even to try find something on my phone

Downloaded a few phone blockers but they are pretty rubbish so going to need to still re think about that one

Weekend was good, took the girlfriend out for the day Saturday which was nice for once considering normally I'll be spending most of the Saturday in the bookies it was nice to treat her for the afternoon! Sunday was a relaxing one and Monday was hectic at work so very little time to not only update on here, but even think about gambling

Nearly been a whole month which will be well worth it! Also already bought the majority of Christmas presents as well for this year so finally getting my priorities right

For today, I will not gamble

Day 29

Been very lazy with the diary as of late but still all good in terms of the gambling front. Nearly at the first month and couldn't be prouder of myself. Still really hard to judge whether or not I am becoming stronger or just still not being pyshically able to gamble, but either way I have kept a payday in without using any of the money to gamble which is a plus. Even though that money is going on christmas presents this month, it makes it so much better that it is going on presents rather than feeding a habit.

Very busy in all aspects at the moment hence only the one post in the last week, but managed to find 5 minutes to get around to doing it. Need to keep this brief but will hopefully update on the weekend

For today, I will not gamble