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Lovely post loxxie. I hope to be in that place too. It's funny how you become more busy with life when you are able to rid yourself from playing slots!! Since stopping I've got so much to do and catchup on, I now have a social life x

Just re watched on you tube the gambling addiction films
" going for broke" and "winner takes all "
Both films about ladies with addiction. ..one the slots..the other the horses. .
I could see myself so much in the slot one...ok...so I didn't leave my kids alone half the night and go to a casino...but even though I was in the same room as my family when I was playing online...I may as well have been a million miles away...the innocent way in which her addiction began...a night out with the family...found the slots...had that first win.. then as we know...it's a downward slope..could see the way the film was going before it happened...a lot of it ...the lies..the unpaid bills..manipulation when questioned...excuses etc...could so easily of been about me...or many of us in this forum. ...
Worth a watch...

Cheers Loxxie I wouldn't hold your breath on a six pack though lol

I've not seen the films you mentioned so I'll give them a watch the weekend

X

Mankini now there's a thought. Then again everyone would see that I have part shaven legs. From injuries obviously lol I wonder how the old goat is getting on? Must of had the op by now

Been looking back over my diary whilst waiting for my little grandaughter to fall asleep...just cant imagine being back in that dark dark place of my addiction...nothing really to report...it's just how I live my life now....how I choose to...not how an online slot machine tries to dictate to me...or fool me into thinking I need them in my life...I don't...I can see now it was a seriously one sided relationship...with me permanently giving....and the machine permanently taking....it saddens me to see posts on my diary from peeps who seem to have gone awol. ...just hoping there all in a better place now and strong enough to still be in recovery. ...fingers crossed. .
400 plus days ago i would have been willing my grandaughter to sleep so I could hit the slots....today...it's only a shower I want !
As in my first post....please let my strength continue. ..x

I admire your strength wish I had the same will power

Just to say many thanks for your congratulations on my 100 days.
You kept me going when I was at my lowest and your diary has massively inspired me along the way. Hope you're keeping well and loving life x

What a wonderfull morning ..blue skies...sunshine...! always makes life seem better....did it when I was chained to my addiction ?
Truth be told...I can't remember..I probabally didn't even really notice the weather...defiantly didn't really appreciate each lovely new day....the saying....happiness comes from within....so true ...you've got to be happy with yourself to be happy with the world....and I am...I wasn't...but I changed things...fought tooth and nail to break those chains of addiction...soooo today's going to be a busy day for me in my little old pub....full house for lunch...and I'll be cream crackered when I sit down around midnight tonight....but that's wonderfull...my choice...for me...
Those rusty old chains of my addiction are being kept safe...in the past...
Keep fighting ....it works...

Love your diary entries loxxie, they always encourage me to keep striding forwards.
I wish I didn't live at the opposite end of the country because I'd love to pop into your little pub for a pub lunch! You never know, one day . . . Xx

Always a cheery post from peggy Mitchel , always makes me happy to see you doing well .

Its amazing how far you have come in the past year a sign to everyone hard work always pays . You're probably up to your pits in mash potatoes by now so I'll leave you be . Catch you on the other side

Deano x

I came out as a compulsive gambler I may aswell admit I'm a wolves fan , see now I'm confused because we have roast potatoes and mash up this end . Actually most our meals consist of potatoes come to think of it .

That's what I miss about big Harold these little back and forths.

You'd think I'd be given a pass on the captcha but no still can't work out what classes as a sign post 7 attempts it took me earlier to a new member I posted to they probably just felt sorry for me in the end ? It takes me longer to do the captcha than write the dam post . Anyway as this isn't the most serious of posts I'll give you a tip boil the potatoes for 10 minutes with the skin on take them out and you can just pull the skin away hence more potato less waste, don't mention it to Harold mind he's tight enough

Batteries 're charged after manic weekend here...early night last night..little lay in this morning..sorted !
Little funny story from trade in Sunday ..
Step dad late 80's...came for lunch Sunday ( 30 covers in total plus drinkers...so a packed pub )
He's a little confused at times and walks with frame...noticed he was making way to gents...thought id follow as steps etc...got up behind him to find him happily peeing in " f*g bucket" !. .which is on route to gents..."you ok pops" I ask..."yes love....lovely dinner...havnt had beef like that for years " !. ..tucks himself away and says..." I'll have another whiskey now I think " !. .bless him...no harm done...mind you the "church ladies" we're looking out the window ! Lol..
Anyway...he enjoyed his day...dear old mum ate more than I imagined possible for an old lady...and continually told anybody who would listen.." so proud of my daughter...don't know how she does this all on her own "
Weird ...at my age...how nice it was to hear what mum had to say..so...a good lunch time all round....which actually didn't end untill 9.30....around a dozen drinkers stayed on ....sore heads yesterday I reckon !
Anyway....obviously great trade ...but even more important...great time ...great memories...great fun..
Easter hols now...so bit of extra time with youngest...16 in 2weeks....moped awaiting him in garage...bit of independence for him...plenty of worry for me...but we have to let them go don't we...he's a sensible lad....so he'll be fine...hubby off next week...few projects to do here...odd day out I hope...functions planned here...
Open for national ...horses never my problem...so that's ok...and it's about supporting local jockey. ..and the social get together...not the actual racing...
Kids Easter fun day coming up..
Two cricket teams will be starting there season soon...
And holiday makers will soon be out and about...
Soooooo .....busy busy busy....
I'll settle for that though...
Take care ....take the right choices...you'll be buzzing for all the right reasons...x

I did laugh at the above. Poor old boy. And he didnt get that well known phrase

Get out of my pub

Peggy Mitchelll........lol x

Loxxie I wallowed and sank like a stone yesterday after posting here but.... today was soooo different, I'm in a really good place now...Maybe I needed to 'fail' just that once to see I'm missing nothing...Just wanted to thank you for posting, it really does help.

Crikey you're a busy woman....I'm knacked reading your post lol!

Mari x