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Lol...steady on first step...only few bits and bobs...sick of looking like some skiddy old tramp lol....us EX gamblers have to make the effort :)....have a good evening xx

Well that's another day done...and it's been a good one.....and I might be a nanny again by the morning.....probably won't get much sleep tonight....but least it won't been down to those dam slots x

Loxxie

Reading your threads I'm feeling motivated and determined reading your journey well done keep pressing forward never look back

Koliver37755

Thanks koliver...you have been through the mill. ...glad you are here....and a high five to you....it's not easy but it's got to be better xxx

Hello Loxxie

Well done for resisting temptation. I'm locking myself away from gambling for now. If gambling had come to me I think I'd have been derailed.

You are doing really well, showing great strength and giving excellent support.

I've been noticing your name, reading a few of your posts but only yesterday read all your diary. I thought you had been using the site for a long time from the way you post, then I see that you joined later than me!

I'm impressed.

Blessings

Glint

Thanks glint. ...I find it helps me to post....yes I'm a newbie...but I'm fighting this the best way I can...just going with the flow really....but as long as it keeps me gamble free I suppose its working....I am ...or was a strong person....a long time ago....and I will find the old me....starting to see little bits popping back up...Lol...I'm plodding along steady and hope my comments do help some people on here....good days...bad days...and everything in between....still a long way to go and very aware I'm only one spin away from disaster. ...so. ..come on here very often to remind me what recovery is all about....and anyway it's better to ramble than gamble....good luck in your journey xx

Good day today...no urges or even any thoughts of gambling....you lovely people out there who are many days ahead of me....when did you all find the real urges..kick in...just a bit worried that one day I will be taken over by these mega strong urges that some of you talk about..xx

Hi loxxie,

You are doing great, don't worry about what may happen, this is a negative:) just keep going one day at a time and keep one little step ahead,

Keep positive and keep winning.

Suzanne xxx

Hi loxxie, I have thought exactly the same as yourself. It slightly worries me that I am getting on so well and have no urges that one day I will feel different and suddenly gamble. I will not gamble and I shall just fight any urges that come my way. I think that we just have to be careful not to become complacent and always be aware of where we have come from.

You are doing just fine and really we shouldn't be worrying about something that may never happen. Take care x

Boo! I too am having a good day and long may they continue for all of us. With regards to urges, I generally find that 3-5 weeks is the tough bit for me. The first few weeks I have generally found the shame and action attached to the lying and finance juggling keeps me occupied and then things get back to normal and the loose wires in my brain start to tell me everything is okay and I can just have a shot. I'm hoping that having made several variations of that mistake before, I won't do it again. You seem very aware of the risks so I'm sure you will be fine. Jx

Hi Loxxie

After your support on my diary yesterday I thought I'd have a read of your story and you've made me feel a little better for having a good old stalk over the forums!

Hopefully, like you, keeping myself on here will keep me off those pesky slots! I've been reading away all evening and only just realised its half 9!

I need to find more focus and I think I'm going to find something small to treat myself with after a while like with your bit of clothes shopping to bring myself back to reality and keep myself going. Give me a bit of incentive to keep going strong.

Hopefully I'll be where you are in three weeks time! Well done! X

Hi loxxie well done on your 27 days gf. Thanks for posting on my diary and yes I am extremely lucky to have a wonderful oh who is supporting me but I also appreciate and value the support from people like yourself who totally understand what being a cg is like thankyou xxx

So...28days or 1month gamble free...can't make up my mind if it's gone quick ...or seems like yesterday...how do I feel...not sure really....but at least my life is not focused on gambling anymore...nice to not wake up and think ..right let's play slots...or as soon as I walk in the door rush to switch laptop on...I just wish I felt a bit more up beat....feel like I've lost my mojo...whatever that is....I suppose because gambling was such a big part of most days of my life it's a bit like Greif in a weird way.....'re arranging my daily routine is what I'm struggling with ...I hoped I would have more energy I suppose...more like the old me....busy doing the chores....and happy doing it...but that feeling hasn't returned yet....spose it was so many years ago that life was like that...and apart from the gambling...other things have changed...hubby being so poorly....kids having there own problems which I helped with...me getting older lol...so I'm struggling to settle into a new routine....if that's what's needed...lol...what a load of waffle....but makes sense to me....anyway
At least I'm not relying on the slots to prop me up...and one month gamble free can only be a posative.....and maybe today my latest grandson will be born....I expect that's why I feel so muddled this morning....x

Loxxie - any sign of your new grandson yet? That will keep you busy and no time to think of gambling? I am still being strong, the funny thing is I am not sat on my laptop all night but watching the TV with my husband instead, but, he hasn't mentioned once to me "why are you not on your laptop" He doesn't know about my problem! He knows I played the slots but I say "oh its free money" I know what I am doing - famous last words

No not yet chip....glad to hear you are doing well....I know what you mean about laptop...I'm surprised mine never overheated.....it's weird....I gave my laptop to my daughter...that's all I ever used to play slots on....I have never played on my phone...although I have got a block on it just in case....but I think it's helped not having it here...I think if was using it for other internet stuff I would associate it with gambling....and be more tempted...anyway...going to meet other daughter now for a coffee....will speak later ...hope you have a good afternoon xx