Thank you for your post. 🙂 your so right. Got through the day. Writing in the diary certainly helps and I just have to revisit posts each time my brain telling me I might get lucky. Have woken up this morning again thinking about it but the urge is not as strong as yesterday. Got Xmas cooking to keep me occupied today. Im pleased I’ve managed to get through 4 days after payday GF the longest I’ve done in a while. I am starting to see the gambling for what it is now, how clever the companies are which develop the games which appeal to an addictive personality like mine. I once thought when I first started to play and was winning that I could make a living out of it. Wow. What was I thinking. They wouldn’t be in business and no one would work. My debt is something I am working on and it’s not going to be an overnight fix as much as I wish it was. There’s so many things I wish I could change and turn back time. I just got to forget this and move forward.
I had many a time where I’ve had to scrape together the piggy bank money too just to buy basics. I’ve learnt a lot the last few months. I have spent all spare money on Xmas for family and friends, not myself. I feel lucky and relieved to go to shop and actually be able to buy milk without worrying. Not relying on cash back or bonus money which may never come. I had been lucky when I ran out of money I did get a small bonus back which saw me to end of month. The chances of it happening were so slim, wouldn’t be something to rely on and that danger of trying to win more with it would always be there.
I’ve learnt some valuable lessons the last few months and budgeting my money one of those. Faced up to my debts and my CG. Learnt to appreciate the value of money and how easy it is to spend the money you haven’t earnt yet. I am grateful for this although has caused much pain.
Merry Christmas everyone xxx hope GF and full of fun and good times ;-D xxx
Stay strong Mel you can do this. Remember that sickness and despair when we hand over our months wages to the fat cat bookies. The people cashing in on our stupidity will now be enjoying a lavish christmas or maybe holidaying in some tropical sunshine and dining out on our hard earned money.
Let's all go forward together. We can reclaim our lives and sanity.
Wishing you peace, contentment and joy over Christmas.
Still going. Keep thinking about it, but determined not to be the mug. Really proud haven’t acted upon it, and it’s starting to fade gradually. The first few weeks are the hardest.
Thank you for all your support and understanding xx
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