Out of the shadows

Oh my, I'm so upset now he just called me " Freak face " !! Sob , Sob , Sob , dab, dab, blow , blow Oh . I'm ok now :))

Could have worse..
Could have been " fish face " lol
: )

Thanks deano....very luck chap considering he left it so long before going quacks !
Anyhow...that's the past...have a good weekend love x

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I'm lost at the minute i don't know who I am. And I don't know how I'm going to get out.
The last couple of months have pushed me into a place I've never been.
I've been here almost a year I've achieved nothing if anything it's stronger now than it ever was I can't control myself anymore.
My wife constantly asks me if I'm OK. I'm screaming inside I can't get the words out that I'm not ok
I don't want to be locked in like this.
I'm a coward and I can't face up to who I am.
I would rather hide and wish it goes away.
Where do I turn now I don't know
But I can't live like this anymore
I'm going to step away from here for a few day's and try and work some stuff out
Thanks for reading

Deano ... Reach out not in. Isolating and constant introspection can drive you insane. There are so many good safe people on here for you.

Take Care

Draw strength from us all here deano....you've given so much on here ...now time to have some back
Open up to Mrs deano...tell her your not ok inside. ...it's not weak to say how you feel hun. ...
Xx

Hello Buddy :)) Just ask yourself a couple of question's , " What is going to happen if you give up gambling completely " and Secondly " If I carry on gambling , what will it give me that I don't already have " ?

I don't know about you mate but I suspect it's the same answer I'd give now " Nothing " ?

You have a loving supportive wife , wonderfull kids and a good job that pays well and your own house ( oh and me of course ) so what is it that's dragging you back there to question yourself every few weeks or months ? Fear of the unknown mate , taking that leap of faith that we all need to take and letting go of your gambling rope that your clinging to so tightly thats kepping you dangling in mid air .

Those same feelings have kept me dangling for so many years Deano , letting go of that rope and landing on safe ground was the best thing I could have done but gambling kept me believing for such a long time that I couldn't live without him in my life and thats the problem so many of us have , it's such a natural part of our lives to expect to have a bet whenever the feeling strikes , for me it was my first thought in the morning and usually my last at night , just like brushing my teeth really .

You say youve achieved nothing ? Well thats the biggest load of bolx I've heard come out of your diary since you said you were a good brickie :)) Ok youve not given up gambling completely but you had more gamble free time than you have gambling and If you add up all your diarys that equates to quite a lot my friend , youv'e tried many different approaches which you wouldn't have had you not been here and youv'e also been on a journey of self discovery , which again you wouldn't have done had you not been here , so stop putting yourself down just because the penny hasn't quite dropped yet , I'm a fair bit older than you and it took me many years to finally realise what I needed to do ,s o its not the end of the world if youv'e not had yoyur eureka moment just yet .

Talk to your Mrs , open up and tell your struggling , she;ll think more of you for that than if you clam up and go off the rails , it's not a sign of weekness mate , in fact it takes courage to do but honesty will always triumph and you know that , she probably knows your not happy for the simple fact she keeps asking if your ok , so just blurt it out when youv'e got some alone time , I'm sure it will help :)).

I hate to hear you like this mate and like Loxxie said youv'e helped so many others on here , maybe you need to spend more time looking after yourself a little ? , we can all send you little bits of the journey map you'll need but it can only be your choice as to the route you take.

Sending you a Cyber Man Hug Deano x

Here here !
Wonderfully put Alan
Print it off deano....stick it on your
Freezer....
Wise words from a wise man : )

Guy's thanks for the replys they mean a lot.
I have told my wife and she's upset. She's upset that I can't go to her when I'm like this.
I struggle to tell her because I don't want her carrying my burden
She thinks that I'm unhappy with her. But it couldn't be further from the truth. I don't know why I'm like this. Apart from my addiction to gambaling I'm just your everyday person I'm not anything special and I don't want to be.
I think I struggle to come to terms with I have to grow up. I'm not Jack the lad anymore living like there's no tommrow.
Time to man up
Thanks again x

Take your time mate I'm glad you shared with your Mrs because I had a feeling She'd think it was something else , our partners always fear the worst and what may seem like a massive issue in our world is sometimes quite a relief in their's , none of us are anything special and gambling doesn't care who it takes with it .

Your doing fine mate and your much more of a man than you give yourself credit for and an even bigger man than I was at your age .

Big respect buddy and I'll talk to you when you feel up to it :)).

Night mate x

Hey Deanno, you will be all over the place at the moment, you will wake up sweating in the night, but you are not alone in your struggles, I am no longer struggling with wanting to gamble it's the after effects mate that mess you up. Take heart from alan on here, he exudes positivity, i dont know your financial position, are you in debt from gambling, if you are it's time to stop mate. It's not a great way to live our lives, just makes the bank account a big f.....g mess - Paul

Hi, Deano,

Is this crisis because you've gambled once? Are still regularly gambling? Want to gamble? It's hard to tell, you're being so very cryptic.

It's good that you've told your wife, avoids the age old question, "Why couldn't/wouldn't/didn't he just TELL me what was going on????" But at the end of the day, you can't just hand the problem over to her to solve it for you. You can't run away or go it alone, none of those work. Put the goal posts where they belong: your salvation lies with you, get the help and support that you need to overcome the addiction. From GA, from GC counselling, from your wife. Put the blocks in place, close the loopholes, make meetings part of your routine, keep a diary here. Approach it systematically: choose your tools and stick with them. Then you'll change things for you - there are no quick fixes.

Wish you well,

CW.

Hey Deanno how are you this morning? Im pleased you've shared with your wife how you are feeling, if she had a problem I'm sure you would want to know and help her wouldn't you. Here's to a better day stick in we all know you can do this! High fives - wcid xx