Our lady, your posts make me feel joyus and in love with life.
I love the fact that you value your time with your family so much. My mum has just been for the weekend, and we had a super time. Enjoy your travels.
Julie x
Awe thanks so much Julie.
Day 78.
Been to the hospital this morning for a scan so still off work and making the most of what may be my last week! I've had a brilliant long weekend away, at my brother's lodge and us girlies had such a belly laugh - much needed. We were so lucky with the weather too!
As I type this, my new Gardner is in situ and has been since early this morning, concentrating on my unruly borders! My new monthly treat to myself. They're looking great so far.
Catching up with my son tonight for dinner at mine - burgers with blue Stilton. Always a winner with him. It's just so nice again to be "normal" and have money to do such normal things as buy the food you want/need, as and when. Yes, money has been tight again this month but nothing I didn't already know and my weekend away, I didn't spend anywhere near what I thought I would so result!
Take care all, have a stress free g.f week and so will I.
Our Lady
Ah here, that sounds all very positive and amazing Our Lady. I am so pleased for you to be enjoying life again, and spending time with your family. The gardens getting sorted sound amazing, I have just come home to a clean house, and we have a cleaner, so nice to sit and do nothing in my break from work. Things I don't take for granted, but am grateful for.
Have a fabulous week ahead, and may the sun shine on you.
Julie x
Awe thanks once again Julie.
Day 80.
If Dr Dolittle can get round the world in 80 days on a boat then I can surely do another 80 days on my boat - sailing to the Island of Peace & Harmony!
Have a "peaceful" day everyone.
Our Lady
Hi Our Lady, I accidentally pressed the'flag as abusive' button on something you posted, sorry!! Having a right c**P day today, anything that can go wrong has.......hope you're all GF etc best wishes S 🙂
Don't worry Sharon. I have done that before myself on someone's diary!!
Day 83.
Feeling so much better now health wise. It's looking like the consultant was right about the Sepsis inflaming all of my lymph nodes in my stomach and so the stitch in my side/ribs has finally started to subside as things are now settling down.
Got some lovely news yesterday - my son got the summer job he had put in for at his university as an Ambassador. He was delighted and he really deserved it. Now he will be flush for the summer holidays. This will hopefully also give him work for the next few years, whilst at uni too. We are going to celebrate tonight with a nice meal at mine and my mum is also coming over to stay.
Bit of a boring day today - my sis is on holiday, otherwise, I would normally be doing something with her. Still, have got a meal to prep for later so will play my tunes whilst doing so.
Probably my last week off work next week so hoping to make the most of it too!
Have a peaceful g.f weekend peops and so will I.
Our Lady
Day 86.
Found myself on the virtual sports last night - not gambling money of course. This I cannot do anyhow, as I have all my self exclusions in place. This for me, has proven to be the best all round method of preventing me from gambling. I only gambled online in the past. So for about half an hour, if that, I was putting "pretend bets" on. Most of which lost! What did I achieve from this?-
1. I lost most of my "pretend" races;
2. I found myself getting bored and disinterested fairly quickly;
3. It reiterated that for people like us on here, it is a mugs game;
4. It made me realise even more that I do not want to break my g.f counter;
5. It made me think of mini goals and wanting to put more in place, for the long term as well as the short term;
6. That going back to the basics of "old school" saving bit by bit and buying things in advance, bit by bit, works best for me.
7. Being alone and struggling to sleep, until almost daybreak, was a trigger for me to distract myself putting on these pretend bets.
was it a good thing? Maybe no - brings gambling thoughts back to the forefront of my mind;
Was it a bad thing? Again, maybe no - it just reminded me that it is often fixed and we people will always lose n the end and it just made me more determined to set up more manageable goals for later down the line.
I hope I don't upset anyone with the above but this diary is for my thoughts and I felt compelled to share and include what I did early hours this morning.
The best thing of all is that it has just made me even more determined to remain focussed and continue to clock up even more g.f days.
Got my x-ray and blood results back today. All fine. Still have this stitch in my side but will now be returning to work on Monday on a phase return. In the meantime, Doc has told me to see what happens in another two weeks and if no improvement, I will be sent for a C.t scan. Hopefully, it will continue to gradually ease off.
Take care all, have a peaceful week and so will I.
Our Lady
Hi, great post....anything that keeps us/you focused on staying GF is surely a good thing? I have 2 betting shops that I walk past every day but now instead of being tempted I look at the people playing the machines and think I'm so glad that isn't me. Ps glad your results are ok, take care S:)
Hi our lady I won't come here and tell you what is right and wrong. Just offer a little advice that being pretend bets/dry gambling is possibly something you should swerve in future if possible. Reason being what if you won the pretend bets? I know you can't gamble as you have blocks but would it just drive the urge?
Anyhow I popped by to thank you for the post last week and wish you well on your return to work next week . First though enjoy the rest of your time off
Deano
Thank you both Sharon and Deano. Much appreciated.
Deano, after going just over two and a half years g.f, one thing I got from this I think, was knowing that any money I won in the future, would only in effect, be a loan for my next bets. This in itself, has been enough to put me off and deter me from wanting to place any "real bets", which I can't do anyway. I think last night was more to do with the frustration of not being able to get off to sleep, rather than the need or the desire to get a buzz from gambling.
Take care both and thanks once again.
Our Lady
Hi OL. Thanks for dropping by my diary. Keep up the positive work and hope you feel better soon. Weldy
Thank you very much Weldy. I am feeling much better now and returning to work on Monday!
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