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Hi shattered79

Well done on being honest about your relapse, have you discussed this with your family?

Please ring Gamcare and get into the free sessions with a therapist, not online but face to face, it helps so much. My 3^rd session tomorrow.

Your losses are gone you will never claw them back the odds as they say are always going to be stacked against you. Think about how much money you could save if you lived a normal gamble free life. I will support you and you support me, come on mate time to be honest and move on.

I feel very low today but am not going to let this beat me down anymore; I want you to do something positive and we will get our pride and so much more back.

I am here and your loved ones will help you!

Face it, be honest and the rest will start to fall in place little by little.

Timetochange69

Hi Timetochange

Thank you for your post. I came clean to my wife yesterday once again and am really grateful for her support. She now has all my cards and I decided to live on daily allowance. Unfortunately today I gave in to gambling online on my iphone today (I normally donot gamble online) I felt sick and in determination to stop this addiction in destroying my life I installed K9 on my iphone and iPad and disabled safari with my wife knowing the enable passcode. I had earlier installed K9 on my PC with my wife's email so that I cannot reset the password if I get tempted. The iphone and ipad was a loophole that got fixed today though it took a relapse. With this I have now restricted access to almost everything I can think of through which I can gamble.

I am determined to beat this addiction mate. Being jobless I donot have enough funds to travel for the appointment, hence thinking of focusing on blocking all possible access and looking at other options at the moment.

I have an interview coming up tomorrow. Had prepared whole day today before letting myself down with the relapse. I am determined however to do as well as I can in the interview and leave today's failure and past failures and losses behind. It will be a hard slog and I am in this for the whole hog now. This is the greatest battle of my life and I will win it.

I can completely relate to how you are feeling mate. Together we can beat this horrible addiction. You have been a soldier. This shows that you have it in you to fight hard adversities. We can beat this adversity and heal ourselves by first forgiving ourselves and knowing that we are greater than the damage inflicted by this addiction. We are not bad people. We are just not well at the moment and with time, forgiveness, determination, patience, understanding, humility and perseverance we will get through this and emerge better and stronger.

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Hi Shattered. I hope you are pulling through mate. Life can be so tough but we've got to keep trying, hoping and striving to create a new and better future.

Did you get that job? I know how it feels to be out of work as I have been for 2 months and am grateful now I have a job offer.

I refer back to your post #12 where you talked of getting through this phase and changing your outlook, whilst looking forward to the next 30 years, working hard to overcome the past with intent for enjoyment, happiness and prosperity.

Hold on to the vision and believe in change.