Relapse for the hudnredth time

Hey av_1914,

My most recent losses were also my biggest and most painful. 

It's important that you put this behind you now and move on. Please don't chase your losses. Don't even consider the money as lost, instead it was SPENT on an expensive lesson of why not to gamble.

How much did you manage to blow out of interest?

Nope, gambling certainly is no reliable way to make money.

Sure it can happen but more often than not you will just either lose your money quickly or manage to win for a bit before it all goes back in.

Any wins we do manage will always become future losses for us compulsive gamblers! We are simply not capable of walking away with our winnings and not coming back for more.

If you haven't already, I would sign up to GamStop and take advantage of the free GamBan subscription GamCare offer through their partnership with them. 

(Massive appreciation to GamCare for this by the way)

GamBan even blocks the casinos that are not blocked by GamStop. 

Had you already made that promise to your partner or has it been made off the back of yesterdays blunder?

@d602n8icoj Hi HouseAlwaysWins (so true)

Thanks for your response.

I agree that it was a lesson learned by spending this amount of money. I have been to a similar rollercoaster in the past, but this was the largest one.

It was some money on winnings, and I knew and was telling to myself that now I need to stop and never gamble again, but the rush overtook me and i wanted more. The winnings were wiped away within a day, and 2 days later I was down 3 grand. Painfully large amount, but the best I could do is to stop.

I have placed all restrictions possible, and now looking to focus on my self improvement, my work and my relationship with people around me.

That was the first time I promised this, and I am willing to keep it.

As you described, for us compulsive gamblers there's no win we can manage, unfortunately.

Lesson learned, wishing to myself and to everyone around fighting this, all the best.

I will stick around for updates 🙂

av_1914

@ticap6y5hs 

Oh wow that does sound like a hard one to swallow. I'm down £2,190.00 of my own money since October, £1,190.00 of which is since 2nd January.

Did you burn through it quickly or over time like me?

Make sure you do keep your promise because the biggest problem I have had is with having hidden this from my fiancée. 

I promised her I would keep it under control and as something I would only do now and again but addiction took over. The guilt I feel is awful and I wouldn't want you feeling the same. At least I only used my own money but I still feel so ashamed for failing her.

It's good that you have put the restrictions in place!

I wish you the very best and hope I will see you continuing to post that you have remained successful being gamble free. 

All the best!