Remember that last bet

Morning all, two days off this week and going to get my a**e into gear and sort the kids bedrooms out I've never seen so many toys in all my life I'm also going to clean my car and help my dad to move house so even If I wanted to bet, which I don't I wouldn't have time anyway.

The sun is shining going to take the kids to school in a little while.

Today I will not gamble good luck to you all.

Ste26

Day thirteen nearly two full weeks gamble free still in s**t state financially but that will sort it's self out before long.

Gambling wise not doing it has not been a problem, I don't feel the need to go into the bookies for me it's just when I go in lose a little then start chasing but if I don't go in I won't lose and I won't have to chase.

Didn't post yesterday I had loads on got four days off work starting on sat I'm looking forward to that going to have a nice weekend with the family.

Today I will not gamble.

Ste26

wow i just posted , my weapon last night when i resisted was to remember my last bet , then i look under my diary on the listing and there you are right below me in the listings, with your title remember your last bet . that tells me my form of defence is right which i kinda new but to see that title on your diary right below my diary just after i posted specifically about that point is almost trying to tell me thats what i need to do when i get tempted. thanks . well done your doing well and yes your right we should think about what we have and not about what we havnt as that is part of the of the start of gambling aswell i think wanting what we havnt got . i will not be a victim to this addiction

Hi tryer I can't forget my last bet because I've kept it and I look at it everyday £500 treble and everytime I look at it it makes me feel exactly the same as it did when it lost..sick...empty...worthless...like a down and out.

When I look at it the last thing I want to do is gamble, this may not work for everyone but its doing the trick for me.

Keep up the good work. Ste26

Hi ste really huge step getting to 2 weeks same again u would have done a month since reading ur post when I can on 10-11 days ago I new u would do it I have read some others but u have to much to lose ur mrs and your kids will be proud off u mate your the most consistent said the same since day 1 and u have done exactly what u said I think I'm on day 6- or 7 and for some reason not even feeling like gambling I told my family what I had done I don't live with my dad but I got him round told him aswell I feels so much better my dad has been great he has helped me mentally and financially mum sister and girlfriend have also been understanding things couldn't be better I said yesterday day 6 and my girlfriend said yeah 600 u get ur wallet back lol so that's the goal 600 days clean 🙂 today I won't gamble ! 😉 your post has helped me a lot thanks ste speak soon

Hello mike I'm so glad things are going well for you now that you have come clean just don't forget what a d**k head you(I and the rest of us)really were and alwAys look at the difference between how you felt then and how you feel now.

I'm still being treat like a child lol, she said she feels awful not giving me a penny because I work hard but I told her never to stop treating me like that because every time she does I remember what I've done.

It's stupid how much we worry about telling our loved ones, we put ourselves under so much stress we don't need to(which causes us to gamble more)and all they give us is support we think we're unlucky but really we are the opposite we are very lucky to have people who love us no matter what.

Be good mike.

Ste26

Day 14 still hate gambling with a passion so don't think il be going back there anytime soon.

Hope you all have a nice day.

Ste26

Day 15 today and the start of four days off from work which is good.

Feel bad though as its my mother in laws birthday today and everyone has gone to the local casino for a great night, I don't feel bad for me but for my partner who again has to make an excuse for me not being there( they don't know I'm an idiot).

On the flip side I'm having a great night playing chicken little on the playstation with my 6 year old, oh yeah and little Harry started to crawl today and I nearly cried these are the things that our lives should be full of, not them horrible pokey little shops full of pain heartache and what ifs.

Have a good Saturday night everyone be well.

Ste26

Well day 16 over and i feel like s**t I've had to be bailed out by my sister again as somebody else needs the money I owe them.

The day started well I went for a run then when I got back took the boss for a little run, but then it started football beers dinner football more beers now I'm sat in the takeaway, I know what your thinking what's the point in running right.

I don't just need to stop gambling I need to change my way of life it's not healthy.

No thoughts of gambling but I still feel like a loser today for some reason.

It's when I have a few days off work I just seem to be an alcoholic it's mad because while im at work I won't touch a drop.

I am a very very complicated person I'm going to have to make some changes to stop myself feeling like this.

I think gambling is the least of my worries.

Night night and god bless ste26

Ste pick urself up mate the road we were on I will admit we were going to be the P***** old guys in the bookies but are new life can be good I went and had a few drinks today and watched Liverpool United normally I would have backed my team Liverpool £100-200 to win as u probly know from the result I would have won but if I put the bet on I would be back 10 days and I didn't want to I had a moment of weakness this morning and got past it take on one thing at a time sort your gambling in anyway u can I used to smoke ca*****is befor gambling and have started again this week it's harmless compared to gambling It cost me no more than £20-30 I put that on a spin on roullete ! Everyone does things drink smoke gamble eat the wrong food #takeaways hard drugs it's up to u which path u choose I put gambling in the same bracket as *** ! And I don't think it's far out also Saturday I ha a bad day really bad people chasing me for money I don't have cause of gambling ! But today ha been a great day everybody has that u can't feel great everyday u may look back in 3-4 years and get depressed about how much u gambled the only thing that is important that we don't do it again honestly I don't know u personnaly or even know where ur from or what u look like but u have helped me stop ur post writing to u has helped me so when u feel worthless or shi* about yourself think u have helped a young 20 year old lad try get his life back u truely have helped ste I there's any way I can help u say the word keep strong things will get better :):):):) thanks mate

Cheers for that mike, good to hear that. I'm glad I've helped you.

I'd have done Liverpool arsenal in a big double lol but that would have been stupid because eventually that would have lead to a massive loss again and I know this now as do you.

I don't feel like gambling mike, far from it in fact and I'm glad you had a good day and stayed strong, top man.

I'm back into my running now and feeling loads better I'd had a few yesterday when I posted and probably felt a little sorry for myself lol I did actually have a good day with the family but I was drinking as well(with my dinner and watching the footy)I wasn't drunk far from it but its just another thing I want to change and I'm going to do that.

I'm glad I've helped you mate that makes me feel good and remember you've been a massive help to me also.

Keep strong son have a good day!

Ste26

Hello guys day 20 today, I havnt posted for a few days my heads been in the shed, lots and lots going around in my head and I'm getting massive headaches my mind is in overdrive.

I couldn't of had my latest episode at a worse time really I go and sign all the mortgage papers for my first house(1st one I will own anyway) pn the 1st which also means coming up with my bit of the deposit and solicitors fees my dad is paying most of it if it wasn't for him we wouldn't be able to get the house. Big thanks.

We also have a Holliday coming at the end of may which still needs paying for we all need clothes to go and spending money.

This is topped off by normal bills new school shoes people I owe money to wanting it back food petrol and so on and so on.

Why do I keep putting myself and my family in this situation I can't help thinking I've bitten off more the i can chew this time, AGAIN.

I need these headaches to stop all I want is a full day when I don't think about anything, mind totally blank but I can't see that happening in the near future,

But hey ho apart from all that I'm ok I think and I'm not gambling and I know all of this will come out in the wash and I will be fine.

Have a good day..... Ste26

Day 21 and three full weeks, nothing compared to last year but a good start and I will not give any more of my hard earned to this horrible thing.

I'd be lying if I said I felt better because I don't ive been getting massive headaches and not been getting much sleep because of work, I've had a few dreams about gambling and wake up feeling awfull so it must be on my mind.

My dad put a large amount of money in my bank yesterday ( deposit for a house) and if in being totally honest I thought just for a second about you know what, I quickly squashed that thought that would have been even lower than I have stooped already.

The sun is shining and it's a lovely gamble free day.

Ste26

Hey guys, I havnt posted for a while, I've been reading every spare second I get though. It's been quite easy not to gamble for four weeks even though I have thought about gambling lots for various reasons.

All day everyday since my last episode I've thought about what an idiot I was and how much money I lost and I'm constantly reminded of this by the hard times we are going through financially, I havnt had money to bet even if I wanted to.

I have thought about having a bet a few times however mainly on a Saturday on the football this was/is my poison but I've been strong so far and I believe that I will continue to do so.

I have a hell of a lot on my mind at the moment and in getting very bad headaches most days we are in the process of buying our first house, going on Holliday in may, paying the bills, shopping, new others for the kids, paying off the family I've lent money from paying off the loans I could go on all day, I hope this is causing the headaches and not something more serious, the whole situation will be a lot better at the end of may so I'm looking forward to June and onwards.

It's quite sad really because if I wasn't a gambler I would be looking forward to buying my first house and having a great time on Holliday with my family but because of this horrible thing I can't wait for these to be over......So sad.

I feel good today though I'm smiling even tho in having the worst day at work lol I can't wait for the day to be over and I've got four days off after today to have some quality time with the ones I love.

Be good evertbody and smile.....ste26

Hi Ste26 - good to hear that you are still staying strong. Reading about all the things you are involved with at the moment, I should think your headaches are down to a fair bit of stress. I hope that in this short break you are having from work you can get a bit of relaxation - perhaps some deep breathing or listening to some calming music. Even ten minutes at a time can be beneficial. However if they really are bad then I think a trip to the doctor would be advisable. You want to be fit for the house move and your holiday and you'll be able to cope with both much better if you are free of pain.

Best wishes,

Joanna