Remember that last bet

Thanks Joanna, I've been putting of going to the doctors to be honest I don't want to be labelled as depressed, stupid I know but the real me is a happy go lucky guy who always has a smile on his face.

Also....

It's like I don't function properly when I'm not going at a million miles an hour, this past month without gambling I have been making the most stupid mistakes its like my brain has stopped working its nuts.

I feel good today as I do most days it's just these headaches il pop to the doctors on Monday.

Thanks

Ste26

Worked money out again this morning and to put it mildly it doesn't look too good, my first thought I think you all know it being Saturday and all but that's not the answer and the money situation will end up even worse.

Be positive, be strong and things will change I know they will.

Ste26

Ste26,

Nice diary enjoyed the read but don't enjoy reading you have headaches all the time. Go see a GP just to be sure. If your as committed to stopping gambling, is it so bad to find out your stressed because of it too? You seem like you want to kick this habit 100% so take control of the headaches too fella will make you feel even more positive. Your headaches are making you think it might be due to the stresses of gambling which in turn reminds you it's Saturday, go kick those pains out quickly too.

CasinoRoyaLoser

Thanks casino, in going to go on Monday I have enjoyed your diary too and well done your in the right place.

I can and will do it this time I stopped for thirteen months up until October you know what it's been like up until a month ago so I won't bore you, I got complacent what can I say and as you and everyone knows when you relapse you gamble harder than ever before.

I stooped to a low I didn't think I could stoop too and that scared me.

Keep in touch casino you can do this yours and your family's life could be unreal your a very lucky man just remember that next time you think about being an idiot. Ste26

Mother's Day, yet another day ruined by the compulsive gambler that is me, I'm on day 30 today but financially we are a mess from my last episode and I feel awful, what a grade a idiot I really am!

Ste26

Chin up Ste26 look at things more positive you are free for 30 days of this terrible addition. Don't be too hard on yourself think about next time you will be able to spoil her rotten 🙂

Yeah cheers casino I know your right, its always next time though isn't it, I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself I suppose lol il snap out of it. Well done by the way on getting paid and not being an idiot, keep it up.

Ste26

well done for appreciating the 30 days Ste

keep going and keep things simple

triangle

Thanks triangle, I still don't feel like I'm achieving anything but I know I am and the financial situation will be good again shortly I'm just a mixture of emotions at the moment and need to give my head a shake every now and then il be fine I always am.

Ste26

Just been to the bank to sign for my first mortgage, unbelievable feeling then I popped over the road to another bank to see how long I had left on my bank loan which I've had for eight years and the lovely lady said to me October 2015 I could not believe it I am over the moon I will be debt free in 18 months. Woop woop. Oh yeah and day 32 today still don't feel good because we are in a mess financially for a few more weeks but light at the end of the tunnel.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Ste26

Day 34 today.

I don't post on my diary everyday but I do post on the site in other forums, I am bored at work today but feeling ok still skint but will get better in a few weeks so its not all bad.

Today I will not gamble......ste26

I haven't posted for a few days now as I've broke my phone and the keypad won't work.

It's been easy not to gamble as I have all sorts off other things going on at the moment.

Feeling a little stressed and under a lot of pressure, the headaches have stopped though which is good.

I don't really even think about gambling until the football comes on on a Saturday as that was my thing but I quickly remember where that's got me and squash the idea of gambling all together.

I've become the most amazing pundit now I think straight and I don't think about how much I have to win lol, but I know if I bet il throw the last six weeks away and eventually end up in a bigger mess. I've been reading everyday and get so much from these forums so thanks to all of you. Today I will not gamble good luck to you all.

Hi guys I haven't posted for a while I dropped my phone and the keypad is broken so I can't type.

I'm nearly on 8 weeks free from gambling but I'm starting to realise that this is not my only problem I'm at the doctors this afternoon hopefully they can shed a bit of light on the situation, I'm just up and down all the time like you wouldn't believe.

Anyway as far as gambling goes I've had a few thoughts but quickly squashed them, I've had my deposit for our house in my account for around a month now and haven't been tempted to spend it so I suppose that's a good thing I've been attending ga once a week which helps and I'm getting rid of a few debts this week so hopefully that will relieve some pressure il post in a few days and let you guys know how I'm doing.

Good luck to you all.

Set 26

STE26

fella a great post to read, inspiring that another compulsive gambler has sort to arrest the punt,to end the destruction it waged upon their life.

Then to read that you face the debt created and life treats you well.

Keep making the right choice and enjoy it.

All it takes a choice each day

NO BET TODAY

duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks dunc, sorry about the late reply. I'm eight weeks gamble free today and paying another debt off this feels good. Getting there with the new house aswell and starting to look forward to our holiday next month, also it looks like I might be getting a job closer to home which is good, it just shows when you don't gamble good things happen. Hope you all have a good day.

Ste26