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Hmmm lol, I do like this mantra ya know lol lol, never blame alcohol (it is a lack of sleep haha)...even after 10 hrs in a dream land lol

So, your weekend coming to a close,..awww girl, mine only starting lol. God, that was a tough one last night. Just managed 10 hrs and got out of the door just after 4 am lol..god that felt good! Went a bit silly at work lol (must b tiredness) but me and my colleage went to see top bosses and asked to pose for pictures for this "great company" OMFG wasn't it funny lol lol best of all they all agreed and just start posing and all haha..god help them cause they don't know yet where those pictures going lol ....well depends how much i want that sack lol....not sure if it is cause it's night work, but usually about 2am ish the mentality goes crazy and d**n you can come up with loads of nasty and unbelievable stuff lol lol..saying that my colleague is only 26 so ya know, still some kid entertainment in that brain lol (I'm nearly 29 so age is not an excuse lol)..I suppose it just makes the night to go quicker lol lol

Yep, got about 7 hrs in and got woken up by my sis saying get up we going up town lol...yep, I had that cup of Joe in a car on a way to town and it felt hilarious lol.....3 hrs later and blisters on my heels walking up and down the street (she is shopping freak) I come bk only with a t-shirt in a bag lol..d**n what a b*****ks with shops over here, you can't even find decent trainers...online shopping it is lol....even if that snail is on a slowwww goooo lol..so yea, all good, back home, peaceful afternoon and soon will be time for opening that cold one, d**n I'm so thirsty I'm not sure what's up wiv me

So you tackling those weeds hmm? Lol...I tell you what, I hardly find my may in a driveway due to the hedge being overgrown lol. Some ///// going on with this house which send us a bit on a strike looking after it lol..but I think I need to tackle that hedge tomorrow, surely it will take me about 3hrs lol, it is right jungle going on.

Sounds like your weekend went pretty well, which is great to hear, you even managed to fire that bbq up and I'm more than happy for that!! Yep that pizza incident shook all of the forum I believe lol lol, I'm sure you are not in a rush to get more of those lol lol

Well soul, hope your day and night ahead will go well, soon be weekend indeed lol, and I will surely join you in that celebration with a cold one this time lol....and maybe a little bbq myself. Can't beat a bit of that meat being tossed on a grill 😀

Take care and stay out of trouble, really proud of you (just for being you lol) and keep doing what you doing cause hell girl, it is working just fine!!!! B good and be kind to yourself (and others lol lol)

d**n I'm loosing the plot lol, maybe time to open that first one...........lol

Later girl

Guess I'm mad right now and need to release. Just call my boy saying I got a notice his shipment was on its way. Well he was all happy with that and tried putting in another order with me from another place. LOL yeah said your done with Christmas basically and yeah my fun money will be going to your sister next check in the amount of $200. Well the boy gets all snakey with me after that and starts complaining about his meds and he don't need them. Yeah i don't know how he feels or what's going threw his head and these meds make him feel like none of his thoughts are his own. And yeah I don't know how ya feel or what's going through that head of yours but yeah i know something snapped in it and ya never been the same since. Be it from the ecstasy ya took or just inherited down the line ya ain't the same and do believe you need to be on something. Well that boy goes off and tells me I don't know nothing about the meds he's on and what they do. LOL oh Hell no you ain't feeding me nothing like that boy. Hell I worked with a girl for a good many years. Hell we were kinda like sisters and brothers in the place we worked at. Hell management would tell us to knock off early and buy a case of beer cause we got the job done and yeah we were appreciated. Any way this girl I worked with or sister should I say. Her husband went off his meds and shot her kid, her and then himself. Yeah the only remaining soul in that family was teekie the cat which was a pretty snakey cat and didn't like anyone but immediate family and shipped to the humane society where I'm sure was put to sleep. So yeah don't be telling me about people going of their meds. Yeah kinda like talking to the air and none of it registered. Told him fine ASK don't tell your doctor you want to go off all meds your on and meet the true you. I'm sure it will take som weaning off the meds your on and your in a secure facility so all should be safe. Hell he liked the ideal and will be asking soon. LOL Lol Lol yeah can grantee he won't have Christmas waiting when he gets back to the level he's now at.

Can u somehow contact the place and speak to his doc?He can't just wean off the meds. No chance, he needs to get sorted..if he feels these don't work, there is a way out with other prescriptions. Soul....he knows he needs t take meds and refusing all that ///// is not gonna help.

I'm sure docs will get it all sorted. .you hav to find a combination suitable for a person. .not everything works indeed.

Keep calm ok...just keep calm

here all the way

ps. Keep venting it all out girl. Don't bottle things inside

Look after yourself

Hi soul,

Thank you for your kind support. .some tough S***e going on today lol..but hey..minute at a time and I'm on top of it. Hope you are feeling ok and had calm night.

Right girl, your son you so love and care about. I agree with you saying he needs to accept his condition. Mental health problems is not a drop in a water and it is ongoing problem which means he will have to stick to his meds. Not sure how severe or mild his condition is but he definitely didn't ask to have it. If it developed in recent years, it will be harder for him to accept it. He gets the care he needs and of course he has you and all family by his side. It is very hard to understand what's going on in ones head, but he is no different. He is the same boy you raised up, the same heart and soul.

I know he gets your support and it is main thing for people with this illness. He might think he is ok and he don't need any help or meds. He might just feel very confused how he feels now and again, but the tablets is a wire he needs in his system. Not much else you can do my friend, only listen, understand, be there for him. It must be very hard for you too, but have to look after yourself also. He is being looked after, he is getting care and I'm sure the right combination of meds will get sorted for him. It is a f****r, cause it is like ongoing battle to find what is the best for the patient. Don't forget it takes some time for meds to kick in, esp if he recently got them changed...and I'm afraid after a while they might stop giving the same effect, which means he will need changing them again.

I truly talk from my heart girl, I know how confused you might feel..it took me ages to realise why my mum behaving one way or the other.. all I knew she was polly...it is not easy, but it is what it is. We love them for who they are and that's never gonna change.

He will be alright, he is in good hands girl, let him vent out and kick about but life will be better and easier if he accepts it and let doctors look after him.

Right, you can tell me t f**k off now lol, I wish I could open up about my mums situation more, but hey it is a bit open forum for all to see. All I can say, I know what you must go through now and fully understand your frustrations about it.

hope ya have a good and peaceful day and calm night ahead. Joining you in a race tomorrow lol (yep back to work) but I'm sure we will catch up and smash through those days to get to the weekend lol...d**n don't we deserve it???!! Lol lol..of course we do x

Hey girl, thanks for the post and yeah hope that tough sh-it coming your way has tenderized a bit and not so tough any more.

Did talk to my boy a bit today and he seemed a little more level headed. He's got this Dr jeckle, Mr hyde thing going on so yeah ya always tend to second guess them first thoughts. LOL seems he has been reading up on the subject of schizophrenia and psychosis so yeah he must have some acceptance goings on there. Guess he just needs to fully accept the fact before any real progress can be made.

One night in at work and 4 to go. At least I got 5 or 6 hours of sleep in so should be good for the night. Yeah was up that 24 hour plus for Monday and kinda use to all that and just a trend now for that day. LOL

See the neighbors lawn mower is sitting in the driveway out back with a big puddle of something underneath it. LOL So yeah kinda expecting to hear that knock on the door tomorrow asking to borrow mine. At least they don't mind doing their share for the most part and yeah had much lazier living along side me.

Well getting close to that time I need to start getting ready to head out that door.

Hope your day was good to ya.

Sad to hear you are having such a worrying time and much good advice from Sandra. My mum also has mental health problems but fortunately all managed with medication so not a major problem cept she cannot go anywhere on her own and lives miles away from us. Life isn't easy some days but sounds like you have got through it without the demon gambling so all good there.

xxx

Hiya Soul,

Really good to see your son getting back on both feet. I'm sure he will keep progressing in himself and let the others to help him. Accept and move on.

d**n girl you seem to struggle with that sleep too. I can't believe I'm back in tonight and mine days off gave me about 11 hrs of sleep (combined together lol). Weather is horrible recently and rain is present daily...I suppose I will never get used to it lol, Africa it is!! Lol

Did manage to tackle that hedge yesterday. I can't believe it I left it for the day and only remembered about 7 ish at night lol..oh god, that was a bit of a race against time before darkness falls lol, and not really a masterpiece looking threw windows today lol lol..but hey, at least I can navigate easier in that driveway lol.

Nasty urges gone and I'm thankful for it, cause d**n I thought I will lose my mind yesterday lol...but I suppose just need to ride that storm and deal with it lol..I hate having addiction. .lol..but hey ho, I have it and nothing will change it. It's like living with a elephant in a room as Duncs says and this one is not one of the smallest ones lol..

Hope ur night went well and you are well into that zzzzzzz land 😉 my joy of the same is in 15 hrs lol...counting down already lol lol..will keep u updated wiv a progress lol

Stay safe and hav a good day

Hey there,

Yea insomniac here lol. Really struggling with trying to keep my eyes open lol. As more I move around to different departments the more tiring it seems to get lol. Just sat down and brew that second life saver, d**n it is weird when your body feels knackered but mind focused lol..well, few more hours to go and I'm sure I will be staring at the ceiling for a couple more tick tocks before I can allow my brain to switch off lol.

I can feel I did some gardening yesterday too lol. Body feels like broken in two. I suppose that machine is not made for some lightweights lol, but hey at least I'm reminded of those muscles I hav lol

Good to see your boy is sticking to his meds. Something very important and I hope he will realise that he needs them to feel better.

I best get going, no rest for this freak here tonight, I suppose I hav more on my hands as my duties allow. ..but nobody gives two f***s about it so best get in gear and sort the place out lol

Take care and stay safe girl

Hey there,

Take it easy soul, bill thing will get sorted.....eventually lol lol (sorry).

S***e at work eh? Well to be trueful I am absolutely drained physically and emotionally. Ya know when u feel flat and f*** knows wots going on with ur head...yep..didn't hav balls to tell top man how I feel about the place and my duties here..lol..but I think I turned the corner.end of.full stop lol.

As of a "bird" lol..just plant that f*****g tree girl lol

Hope ur shift goes better than mine lol lol..soon be weekend..cmon girl we can do it!!

Stay safe soul

o*g there's a whole fricken family out there of screaming bird including relatives. LOL Lol Lol

Lol lol.RUN!!!!!! Ha ha..o*g, just watching Eminem, d**n what a lovely song..f**k, he knows how to put life into words...lol....."I guess we are who we are"....yep.

Go man - go lol

Later soul, time to go for that f*g and meet the rats lol lol lol

Hiya 😀

Well girl, I hav already started my weekend! ! Yipee lol..sun is shining and even if I had 3 hrs after work it didn't stop me to drag my a** out in this lovely weather and enjoy my day off.yep working on a fourth cup of Joe and my eyes getting wider by the minute lol

Some tough S***e at work..blah blah..i'm not working so not gonna bother to waffle on about it this weekend lol

Decided to tackle other side of the driveway today..the hedge is just massive lol..guess what..5 mins in and I managed to cut through wire lol...I suppose I'm lucky to still type away after 240 volts going through my system lol..must b some kind of magnetic field which saved me from electrocution. ..lol..hmmm..ain't that funny but hey!! Lol..so yea, no hedge trimmer and massive hedge still there lol..I best get going to that shop and buy another one..try my luck again 😉

Hope you managed to sneak of the house safely last night and enjoyed some peace away from twirling birds lol.hope ur day goes well, hell girl - weekend is here!!! Fire that BBQ and enjoy

Stay safe

Morning Soul,

What's on the agenda for this weekend? Thanks for stopping by and for the reminder that I really don't need this shi t on top of everything else. I hope the weather holds out for you and you have plenty of time to chill with a cold one or two or three this weekend! Cheers! -joanxxx

Hey Soul,

Tonight is the premiere of Orange is the New Black! Got my popcorn and a cold one. Ha!!

LOL Oh i could watch it tonight too before I go into work but yeah that will be waiting to watch it sometime tomorrow with a cold one. LOL That was a kick a-ss ending to the season so yeah can't wait the new one to begin.