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Tiny small steps are better than no steps:)) gently does it,

Keep pushing through one day at a time, and keep strong and focused, you will get there:)))

Suzanne xxx

It's great you've told someone and that you keep coming here.

you're truely not alone in this. I've had several relapses, but as they've been one off binges I count them as bumps on my road of recovery. I'm no longer a gambler. I'm an addict in recovery. There could well be more slips on the way, but I hope not. I'll just take each day at a time and focus,on being gamble free for that day.I told my partner, parents and two best friends. I've learned from experience that the more people who know, the more support I can have, and the harder it is to keep secrets and hide gambling. It makes gambling much more less appealing, simply because I can't stand to lie to those close to me anymore. They deserve better. They deserve the me I can be when I'm gf. She's so much nicer and a lot less stressed! :-)Good luck on your journey. We're all here for you x

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Thank you, I hope in time once im in a better mental state I can come fully clean, I'm very fragile right now crying at almost anything. I just want this nightmare to end, I feel like a walking zombie at the moment I am just exhausted. Tomorrow should be easier cos I'm at work all day. Hope you have all had a good day x

Hi mrs me my names merc and im a compulsive gambler. I was where you were 90 days ago and like you terrified of losing my oh. I had stopped the year b4 but had a massive relapse which i kept hidden for about 4 months but aftet blowing 1k in less than 48 hours and feeling like ending it all i found this site. I told my oh the full truth and risked my 7yr relationship in doing so as he had told me previously anymore gambling he was gone. Luckily he stayed and has been amazing and so have some of the people i have met on here. So 90 days gf today and thst is with the amazing suuport on here my family and my ga meetings. I have blocks in place and i know im just one bet away from relapsing but uf i feel any urges i talk with oh friends on here or read my day one diary and look at how low gambling made me feel. I hope you get the help you need hun whatever way you choose good luck in your recovery x

Hi merc, nice to meet u as such. It's great to hear your on day 90, well done! This is inspiring and shows me I can do it somehow. My husband works away and I find it much easier not to do it when he is home but he's not home for another few weeks so this will be the hardest test. I live in a different country to my family so as you can imagine once the kids are in bed at night I'm on my own and that's where it sets it, so need to think of stuff to keep me occupied round the house. I can't go back just need to accept that money is gone and I'll just be in a worse state if I carry on X

Hi Mrs_me,

Life can be tough at the best of times and its about remembering these low days and how you can turn these thoughts into positive ones. Its a good feeling once you have come clean and I felt very emotional at everything straight after, rollercoaster of emotions..one minute feeling great then once you have a moment to sit down you think about the past and how this has effected you and others around you. Its important to take things one day at a time and things will get easier..i have days where I have urges and to overcome that I think 'Do I want to go down that road again?!'. To this day I still have my girlfriend look after my finances and can never thank her enough for that..she keeps me in check too!

All the best, here if you need a chat

Krishan