spose this is day one

Hey Dan,

nice to chat with u ... hope we CAN Do this together. Guess my next step is to actually self exclude too. I too have my own reasons for not wanting too, my ex works in one of the places and i know people through him in a couple of other places so im just so ashamed that they would find that out of me.

Now i've been told i don't have to exclude from those places (i don't gamble there anyways used too before it was a problem but now i know im a 'problem gambler' i dont want them to see me like that since i used to b**** about those people) but im scared that somehow it will accidently get back to those venues somehow anyways.

oh well guess i'll just have to bite teh bullet and do it. sooner rather than later.

Well done for self excluding.

ttys

another day down.first afternoon at home without betting. i no theres racing on and i did think about betting just a small bet. but i cant do it i wont do it im bigger than that. so i been in chat to help the urges thanks guys.

as the cheltenham races get closer i think about it more and more it worries me how am i gunna cope with out betting there how will i manage not to bet. will i manage not to do it. i hope so next week will be hard.i need sleep to cus im not sleeping.!!! work again tomorrow takes me away from the betting but is hard work!!! anyway rant over

oh and still no f**s and yeah im struggling and im P***** of im such i d**k for throwing away my happiness, up and down up and down!!!!

Hey Dan

just stopping by to wish you a gamble free day!

oh and good for u for stopping smoking - i smoke MORE than a chimney, i don't know how u do it, don't give up (the quitting not the smoking :D)

Seeya

thanks guys nice to see people helping people on here.

ive had a sh*tty day tho real down, think ive made a big mistake!

a massive part of me wanted to say f*** it and go to the bookies on way home,i drove like a d**k all the way part of me wanted a accident too. im sofucked up still punishing myself for stuff. i gotta stop doing it. i hate feeling lonley and that theres nobody in my day to. .day ..life i can talk to ,but thats my own stoopid fault to. im at home didnt go bookies.

dans very narked!

im only new at this but my advice would be to let the negative feelings go..stop punishing youself as this will only make matters worse....i'm concentrating on today...not 2 morrow...but today...it all i can do just now....

stay strong and stay tough..we are all here to help

Stay strong Dan......we can all do this!!

Oh and dont S*** off Carlton Cole anymore haha!!!

im working again tomorrow 56 hours thatll be this week yeah i need th cash , but i think i need the company more, how bad is that im feel so alone thru all tis i gotta go work to be around people even then i cant tell nebody whats going on. i hate this so much its all my fault. 5 days in and im totally lost im so down again the high of getting it started has gone and im just alone again with my thoughts wich are S***e arrrrggggh f*** it

Dan.........please dont gamble.

Stay strong...this feeling will happen - there is always a come down and a craving from ANY addiction. This is no different.

Go and read a book, do the dishes, watch a film, go for a walk, go to the pub, ANYTHING that is not gambling related.

This will happen, and it is hard, but you can do it.

I hope you come on here and tell me that you feel a bit better.

Oh and you do have people to tell - you have us....and we understand what you are going through more than anyone.

Take care,

Paul

thanks paul.

spent the afternoon yesterday in my bed just led feeling numb, im tired from al this work, tired from trying hard to think of anything other than gambling.

chatted to somebody special today forgot how good it was to speak with her.felt better afterwards even tho i no ive wronged her so badly.

just feel empty again today i aint gambled dnt wanna just finding everything overwhelming at the mo well another day down so many more to conquer

Good luck Dan , hope u come on here on Monday and tell us you have had a gamble free weekend.

so yeah no gambling been work all weekend, was okish! hard today feel drained constantly. two more days till cheltenham and its on my mind always there ,cant switch it off but i wont be betting noway!

worked all day wanting to go home but i realised ive nothing exciting to go home tojust me and my messy thoughts dnt like this its hard.

but two days down its. a false tho as when i get paid will be the tester for me.

and still no f**s im pleased with that

Hey man it's 2225 on a Sunday and you have not had a bet all weekend ,neither have I that's progress man. Keep strong , not known u for long but u seem so determined I would be surprised if u f'd up over Cheltenham it's not worth it!!!

Keep on going with the one day at a time attitude and you will get where u want to.

mnday morning cant sleep well aint slept proper for days now tired all the time too.

another day lined up to be strong for and one day closer to cheltenham glad when its over

I thought I'd posted in here, guess I hadnt. Thanks for sticking by me despite my failure. And well done for continuing to find the strength to fight this even though yours a battle, minute, by minute. By god, I hope it gets easier.

I'm glad you got to talk to that special person, maybe all isn't lost after all.

Stay focused, stay strong Dan, maybe even see a Dr about something for your sleeping temporarily. I don't know about u but when I don't sleep properly everything else is so hard to deal with.

Whatever you decide, good luck.

All the best for another day without gambling.

NWN.