Starting again.

I cant believe how time flies ...yh even without gambling it sure does go quik...kepp busy is the trick!

Hi dont feel well 2day... tommorow will b brighter i hope..keep up the good work guys!

it is my birthday and I can b proud of not gambling 4 mre than 3 months...best present ever!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ty gamcare..and recovery buddies!

Hi Happy Birthday!! well done for not gambling you have done so well!

I was just wandering if you may have had alittle celebratory drink or two? your posts are great!! lol

You deserve it congratulations on your birthday and on your new gamble free life!!

best wishes linda x x

Happy birthday mate good to see you are doing so well 🙂

TNX guys really tnx...I got more birthday wishes on here than facebook lol....bloody typical ehh..social network my foot...spaghetti soup more like!..

Take care.

STAY strong!

Derv/Fast Life--thanks for posting on my diary mate.

Great to see that you are still going strong--I think it is always nice when you post on a new diary and then see that 3 months later that person is still pushing on with their recovery.

I see that you still like to use the phrase I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP. These words still mean so much to me and I know that without this little saying I would not be in the place I am now.

Can I assume from the 2 names you have used that you are into motorbikes? or Cars?

Nearly forgot--happy birthday for the other day mate--hope you treated yourself-you deserve it.

All the best

Stumper

Hi diary...well it hasnt been the best day but all in all it could have been worse.

Tnx for reply Stumper..I was looking foward to your post...

hmm am i in to cars YES

am I into Bikes err I was...But I know wht yu mean "DERV" petrol...haha..naah m8t I changed name cozz it was associated with my real name and I am so paranoid that someone was reading about me (who knows me)...but I changed my view and I think my gambling isnt so shameful really...it isnt a crime is it?....it feels like I commited 1 when i used to spend my wifes money...(not so long ago) see it is a crime when yu get to that low stage (and then rob rob peter to pay paul)... any how FAST £life...well mine has definitely been one of them!...haha you aint wrong though... I would love to just get on a bike and go!!..im too scared to now tho...I have lost my wild streak with age....(thats a relief in my case)....Gr8 to hear from you!! I posted this to myself cozz i dont want to clutter your diary with my junk...I hope you read this tho...

I just wish that I can be as imaginative as before in my diary..cozz it was quite amusing going back through all the emotions...it made me feel good...also I never realised how much you played a part in my recovery until I read from the begining about myself...

Fantastic...thanx again!!!

£fast life

I would also like to thank others like winning post/sony/Leedso/ ex gambler jeff/lindy loux....e.t.c...if I havnt mentioned you dont worry we are all sharing in this place ..there are no losers here!!!!!!!!

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Hi Fast life

Its great to see you have changed your view about your old gambling you are right its not a crime.You have nothing to be ashamed of on the contary m8 you have lots to be proud of.You really have come a long way and i have every faith in you to stop for ever. Keep up the good work m8.

Ps belated happy birthday wishes Jeff.

Hey mate,

Well done on the 3 months without gambling, probably has more significance for you than a birthday these days eh!

All the best mate,

Ryan

Yh..it does ...coz I aint getting any younger..haha...tnx 4 da post..and I MUST REMEMBER...I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP!!!

Tnx 4 da post ex gambler jeff!..good to hear from you guys..really does count towards recovery!!

Mate--whatever you have achieved over the last three months is down to you and you alone. Others can only post observations, thoughts and ideas based on what they read but you are the one that controls what goes on inside your head. In the past people like you and I struggled to control what we were doing but now we have reconditioned our brains to act and react differently---don't know about you but I much prefer this way to the old way.

Keep up the great work--and do not worry about cluttering up my diary--I do that enough myself but hey who cares!!

Stumper

Yeh Stumper!

you are very right about the rewiring of our brains...but I still am always going to be worried (im not sure if worried is the right word) of putting that first bet on...just like an ex smoker lighting up that first smoke....I hope that I have put a stop to all this...and I just think if we never had this chance to share our thoughts, over this problem as a group..who knows where we or I would be now!

Take care and good to hear from you...and I certainly will not let my gaurd down...coz I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP!