Starting again.

Hi. I just want to let you know that I am reading your diary, after you kindly wrote on mine. I relate to so much of what you write - I wish you peace of mind and happiness x

Thanks Charlotte and Anniel...And anyone else that has wrote on my diary....

Anyway, I would like to start off by saying although I am financially in ruins...I am so much happier, I have a new life, a job which I like, in a non gambling atmosphere (country) and this website to remind me of the misery my life was just a short time ago...

It is ironic that back in the UK (18 months gamble free tnx to Gamcare and the support you guys had given me)I thought I had everything under control....Until I fell completely to rock bottom... I wont deny that I let gambling back into my life, and that it was a huge mistake!!!... I will regret it for a long time....But HEY !! let's be realistic..Who was I trying to kid? With my perfect credit score and not even a steady job....It was only a matter of time...That's all gambling is...A matter of time (for some a very long time)...Yes lets forget aand lose oursevelves...forget our family, to eat....I could go on and on.... I realise that humans really are unhappy creatures at times, although we create our own misery.... I would like to point out....Slipping is dangerous...If you quit stay quit.....Especially if you want to keep your sanity....Gambling really, really is a serious illness.

Hi Easy Life,

It's good 2 hear that u r happier now , it seems like u r really enjoy ur new job. U r doing brilliant!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Thanks 4 the support on my diary..Charlotte19 xx

Easy li£e

Hi,

my money management is still very poor! I get a bit down about that..However, I no longer throw money to machines...Therefore, I should be celebrating that fact I suppose?

Easy //

Managing your money or managing without money as a gambler? Now which would you rather chose?

If you are not gambling then you are already better at money mangement than you were mate.

I watched Ascot on tv yesterday - what recession? Enjoyed the spectacle of it without blowing my brains on each race. In other years I may have won on the first race but would still be losing by the last because I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP!!

Have a happy day in non-gambling land.

All the best

Stumper

Hiya Easy,

Glad to hear all is going well for you. Just thinking.. your in glorious wonderful sunshine....you lucky man...;-) ...the rain is so bad here the ducks can't even cope.

Best wishes love Del x

Yo,

Thank you so much , really so much for your post.

You sound in a much place mentally than you were when I last posted to you.

You seemed so angry with the world before. I was unsure how to help you as we seem to view our addiction differently.

I wish you well my friend, have no doubt that someone will start a new year or ninety day list , you can be on, and with your new outlook have every belief your name will be at the top when it comes to its end.

Take care my friend.

Shiny xxxx

Tnx for posts guys!!!

.. well I havn't gambled since Feb...I keep having flashbacks of when I won a grand in my lunchbreak...and kept on winning, at least 300-400 per day...until I hit rock bottom and lost over 6k in one day....well those flashbacks still get my heart racing..It makes me realise im still a cg..and worried to ever come back to the UK...?

Gambling is not an option for you and if you waste one minute thinking about it then that will be a real shame. Life is for living; not gambling....

Easy life

Life is an amazing journey...Whatever you do, have no regrets!

Easy life...

P.s there is always sm1 worse off...

I have a problem...

If I distance myself from my recent and final 'biggest ever' loss, in my life...Eventually by getting over it, is that like rolling out the red carpet for me to try to win something back? However small....Therefore, I am lost and confused as to where my mind is going on this guilt ridden trip...

...I have been having dreams recently about gambling? too...

Always good to hear from you easy life. Gambling whether dreams or outside in the big wide world will always be close to us compulsive gamblers.you are back home now,hopefully your gambling pains will disappear in time.

You take care and stay strong.

We can and will do this !!!

Best wishes

W.P

Hi Easy Life, thank u 4 ur post 🙂

I hope u r ok and that ur teaching is going well 🙂

Stay strong 🙂

Tnx 4 post Charlotte..

Yes, still no gambling....What a difficult life it is at times 4 me!....Gambling was always used as my escape...

Easy li£e

Hi,

I just wanted to say not everything that shines glitters....I have now been gamble free for some time...That is a relief..However, I am homesick and fed up. I am at the end of my first term of teaching in an exotic country. However, the realisation of things have just started to kick in....Basically, it is a long story and I will break it down one day... One thing is for sure..IM PROUD TO BE BRITISH!! You should be too...Despite the mess...

I will come back or move on...

Easy life