Starting again.

Day 3

Thanks captain.

It is good that you now have filled the void with something else to escape gambling.....

As the days move forward what I have done recently becomes much more manageable, however now it is the long long road to recovery.

Day4.

Well 4 days ago I had £2000 in my pocket...Today I have nothing...On the other hand, I still have a caring family.

I will beat it!.

My whole life feels today like the part when you are losing money and then you go and get a note trapped in the machine..It wastes more precious moments and all you want is your money straight back so you can just leave...Or at least that is the way you think!!...The trouble for me, is no matter what I do I always want to leave....Finally, I have decided to stay and settle...Time to stop running, because I will end up running to the end of time....The year is about to pass and with a a shallow voice and watery eyes, I raise my glass and I wish you a happy new year..

2014.

The year I get my life back, and start to control my mind.

Happy new year L.i.g wish you the very best for 2014

I will take this journey with you and we will raise that glass again for 2015 with happy tears in our eyes So for now we will take one day at a time .We are OK...

Hopefully I have got it right this time...No more BS...

Real things for 2014

When I see how many people who have fallen victim to these machines i'm quite surprised. Easy money in easy money out...Let's be honest it is the FOBT's that are destroying thousands of businesses and lives...My local bookies has a hairdressers and a fast food place next to it, I believe the business runs, however, perhaps it would run better if people ate food and had a haircut instead of gamble and do drugs (bookies attract all sorts)....The other bizarre thing is both of the managers of these two shops play the FOBT's...I am positive their business is going to end up in the hands of the bookmakers? (I've already seen it happen to other businesses) I am certain these guys wouldn't put big money on the dogs/horses...

They have made it easy for everyone to throw money away....b******s!!

Abstain another day.

Let it go

Fella I get the using the anger you have at the fobt to your advantage, it can surely only add to your resolve.

My only concern is this.

When I get angry I tend to want to get even, I will bide my time, it will eat away at me until I seek vengence.

Sad thing is we both know there is no vengence to be found in the fobt.

I hope you see my point fella, I would hate to see your hard work gifted back to addiction.

Regards the folk who go at it, for me they outweigh the folk who don't.

In my town they are turning a pub into a bingo hall, well a room with 65 virtual gaming machines in it.

A petition was made.

The number of names on it 65.

There is nearly a population of half a million.

The math is there, very sobering.

I wish you continued abstinence.

I DID WIN BECAUSE I DID STOP

Duncs stepping forward never back.

..I was going to go away...I had flight booked. However, I need my family because they need me. On the other hand, I have no job and no money. the horrible part is I have been gambling since I last came on. I have won, then lost, then won, then lost and then won and then lost... I finally have lost everything bar £20 today. Still have no job and it hurts me to think that my family must hate me. Can this really be overcome? Firstly, I have to want to do it...At the moment, I am so bored and depressed without work I feel the need to make money...I even gave my daughter my cash to hide, I managed to find it and go and gamble. Useless is the word.

Day 1.

It's possible to do this.

Failed atempt today.

Day 1.

I found this interesting site. Please sign the petition it already has 200.

FORWARD THIS TO YOUR FRIENDS -------

Hi,

I wanted to draw your attention to this important petition that I recently signed:

"Ban bookmakers FOBT Machines (fixed odds betting terminals)"

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/banbookmakersfobt

I really think this is an important cause, and I'd like to encourage you to add your signature, too. It's free and takes just a few seconds of your time.

Thanks!

Let it go

fella your last three posts are again like opening the pages of my life gone by, the gambling life, the life were I blamed everything except myself for the fact that

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

I became a lying,cheating, thieving deceiptful sorry state of a man.

Until the day I stopped pretending that my family needed me to do it, that actually what my family needed was for me to address my problem

My problem is I am a compulsive gambler, once again the one thing we share in common.

The day I stopped, admitted that I lost, the day I admitted that gambling actually won was the day all of the above things started to reverse.

I stopped making false promises, stopped blaming others, stopped lying, stealing, cheating my family out of what they deserve. A LIFE.

to gamble is purely selfish on our part, we say we need funds because we are needed.

Fella I have been there, I was exactly the same.

In my mind you have to let the fobt go, you have to want to stop, admit your losses and then you will be able to move on.

I said before and will again, it is not the fobt's fault, nobody tied you to the machine.

Ask yourself this question

I posted when I lost everything, why did'nt I post when I was winning?? why did I not post then that the fobt was unfair??

You said you were winning, like all of us it will never be enough.

I will leave you with this a question my esteemed friend taff from my GA room asked me, upon my returning to gambling

How much do you love your daughter??

you would do anything for her right??

Well the next bet you have, the first bet you stake, that is how much you love your daughter. So if it is a pound, or a ton that is how much.

Why??

Because like me that bet might be the last one you stake before you lose your daughter.

That my friend is a very sobering and true story to ponder.

I hope your resolve grows.

With honesty, it is your choice nobody elses, me I hope it is the right one, really I do.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks D. It really is a sobering thought. I am into day 2, I can say that I have not gambled yesterday or today, but the thought of gambling has made me let my guard down a few times. I feel as if the thought of it is actually gambling. What I mean is if you contemplate it then the next step is doing it. Then it's back to square one. Hopefully, this is where it stops.

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP.

I am never satisfied with just a gamble...If I walk away winning..It's like saying no to a 'fresh' fix...

Day. 2........................................

Fella

Turn that hope into BELIEF

It really is about making a choice.

A fella in my Ga room gifted me this three weeks into my recovery.

"All we are asking you to do is not have a bet"

This hit me straight between the eyes, I got home elated and shared that same saying with my missus.

As you can imagine the Reply would be edited out of this post

Bet @#*#@!!! All you need to do is not have a f#'**+!!King bet!!!!

Why didnt you @##***king do that twenty years ago!!!

I flinch as I type my friend live will gift you many opportunities through abstinence, the bigger picture will not be found staring into a box that will at best gift you a monkey!!!!

Keep making the right choice, me I hope we can side by side enjoy the ride.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

I totally understand. You are right, it's going to be cold turkey for me from NOW ONWARDS!

Hi..I have been a total d******d today and put £400 +£300 in the roulette in the bookies...Furthermore, I am going round in circles again....£400 was mine and I managed to win £100 therefore, I should have stopped and walked...However, I never and ended up spending £300 of my partners.

To add, I won £500 back and she told me to walk. I didn't so I have to pay the ultimate price. The good news is I am now self excluded from the betting shop because I filled out a self exclusion form...I'm banned for 5 years! 60 months.