Starting again.

Hi nrly six weeks times flying...I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP AND I CANNOT LOSE IF I DO NOT START I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP AND I CANNOT LOSE IF I DO NOT START....no gambling = no stress 😉

Hi diary me again,

I am getting bored of posting...but I know if I stop I will end up letting gambling float back into my mind to take over my thoughts... and I really dont want that to happen.

Stay strong!

I just realized I got heaps 2 do and I havnt even started...must be getting old.

My daughter put a sum of money in my account 2 day cozz we are going away in July yeahh..cant wait evr1 going away with me (whole family)..never would be able to happen if I was still on the one arm bandits...

Stay strong!

Hi, I am happy I just booked my hols 4 family of 8... this is good times for me...feeling the pinch..in a nice way I spose!

glad to hear things are goin well keep it up hun and now you have something to look forward to.

Well done

xBx

tnx for the post brighteyes ...well what a nice day todat about time 2.

H diary...no bad thoughts today..hope all of you are sticking to your guns and enjoying the weather!

Hi diary.....knackered 2day ...I told my colleague 2day im a c.g...good to b honest!..helped me deal with it...better!

byexx

Hi diary!

I feel today that my friends are suspicious of me as they know im a c.g...for instance my friend wanted to see me go home from train st which I thought was unusual.. (mabbe they are suspicious cozz i told them i booked hols?) is it my brain that is suspicious.. and it just wanted an excuse to jump on gambling even though I had no intention of doin it?...I think im paranoid about gambling..it is all to do with what people think about me that triggers what I do.......and if I think they think im going to gamble (what they expect) im more likely to do it!..does any 1 understand me? although I aint sure. about any of what im saying... my brain is trying to let my gaurd down I think ..it wants my heart to race!!!....suggestions are welcome!.

Hi diary off to gym today. Lots of worries about gambling but nothing to big cozz I still reduce them to zero within seconds....

Eight weeks...gamble FREEEEEEEE!!!!......................................

WELL DONE...HUGE PAT ON THE BACK, keep going, best wishes. Maddie x

Tnx for the support ..I hope your recovery is going well too!

xx

only 4 weeks but hey its a start x