Starting again, again,.

Hi Pat, any chance of an update? I hope you are still gamble-free. I fell off the wagon but am willing you on to the 1st July. Once this month is over, can we set a new challenge - maybe 1st August?

Still going strongish. No bets just debts 🙂

Keep strong all

Pat

back to the start, thought it best to put down a mark here and move forward again, been reading a lot on here lately but not had the nerve to post until this morning. am on day 12 and will again try counting days. i am sick of the the way gambling is impacting on my life so time to change.

the best effort i made to stop was on this fourm a number of years ago, i made it over 300 days and it felt great, i so want to get that feeling back, i know it is totally in my hands to make this happen so here i go.

Pat

Hi Pat, good to see you again in a bitter-sweet way, dashing off now but will send you a PM today at some point. Good luck with it all.Mm

Great to hear from you bud. hope your doing ok.

today is actually day 14 and no chance to bet today so almost there on two weeks. feeling positive at the moment which is a nice feeling.

Aiming firstly at getting to the 26th of Oct, this will be 1 month done and payday,

heres to a brighter future.

Pat

Hi Pat, promised to send you a PM yesterday and didn't, I was actually poised to do it in the evening but was ordered upstairs to bed by the OH...THAT doesn't happen very often, so had to neglect you.

I've updated my diary. Curious to know what's happened to you in the meantime.

I never really went away, I check here nearly everyday, but getting private moments like now to write is difficult. Also, I'm not sure that the site and the diaries are actually having a positive effect any more. True, the first time they were great, and I abstained for nearly a year - as you did, and Pelle. But each subsequent time, the effect is diluted, or at least it was for me...also, not always good reading about people's failures, and definitely not good reading descriptions of gambling etc, it sometimes gives me a mini-hit and starts me craving.

However, I would give it one more go, if you wanted to do it properly, because originally it really really helped. So I'll try and update every few days, and see how you're doing too, if that's ok with you.

Good luck!

on to day 15, will not bet today, looking forward to a good weekend.

Pat

another day passes. not going to gamble today either (day 16).

Have a sick relative who recently got some bad news on the health front, they have a condition that cannot be cured only managed, got me thinking is that what gambling addiction is? will i never be cured? if i accept that and get on with manageing this then maybe thats how i move forward.

i have absolutely no desire to place a bet but i know there will be moments that i will. i remember in 2011 i made it to over 300 days without a bet but in the days leading up to my fall i knew it was coming, and felt powerless to stop it (sounds lame i know) need to understand that better so i can do something differently, no idea what yet but need to keep this to the fore of my mind as i need to make this stick this time around.

anyway to finish on a positive note, today i feel good, going to a birthday party with my little girl, 15 screaming 5 year old girls, what could be better 🙂

Pat

another day passes, on too day 17.

Feeling positive, two weeks to pay day, the bank account really needs to see that day as at the moment its running on empty.

have a good sunday all.

Pat

Hi Pat,

Thanks for your message on my thread.

18 days under your belt well done.

Here's to you staying 150 days behind me always.

Stay strong and positive,

Best wishes

Suzanne xx

Hi Pat,

Interesting post about addiction. I agree with you, the condition can only be managed, not beaten as such. If we start playing again,it's only a matter of time until we get back in the groove. Managed is good enough though - the first time we bet again is always a choice, then the choices disappear and we lose control. The first choice is the one that matters.

Day 20, away with work until Friday so no chance of gambling. Money situation is bleak to say the least, need to make it too next Friday for payday and that will ease the pressure. That will take me to one month and am feeling positive about that.

Keep strong all

Pat

Day 21, three weeks. Delighted and surprised to have made it this far. Looking forward to the 1st of November so I can say I have a full month behind me.

Feeling positive and a little optimistic about things.

Pat

Hi Pat,

Congratulations on 3 weeks,

Good positive post, keep going soon be a month of winning.

Suzanne xx