Steady as she goes!

Hi ade, just read your diary, and your doing so well. Im only on day 4 of my recovery but reading positive diarys like yours really help.

Hope ur well.

Downbeat

Morning diary,

Life. When someone figures out what it's all about, can they let me know please!

It's a constant battle, so we keep on going, not always knowing where it's taking us.

I seem to still be on the right track for now, but I wish there were not so many branchlines to negotiate along the way.

Back to London again today for a couple of site visits. All this rushing around doesn't give me much time to get things sorted out!

Still, at least it keeps me busy and away from gambling, so I guess that's the main thing.

Weldy

Morning Weldy

Well done on achieving the 50 days - that's brilliant. I'm sure you'll sort the spending money issue out with your g/f - looking from the outside in I think its really positive that she is able to talk openly with you about these things - its a sure way to get things resolved.

We all have days when we don't feel great and when we take little knocks - the difference being now that when we feel a bit blue or take a knock or two we don't go gambling to push it out of our minds - our minds are much clearer and we are in a far better position to think things through and sort them out.

Best wishes, speak soon

LA

It's a real rollercoaster of a ride this is! Hour by hour, I'm feeling good, feeling bad, feeling upbeat, feeling downbeat.

So this is what life is really about!

When gambling, it was so hectic, so busy and so up and down that I think I just didn't notice that "real life" is actually like that.

When you strip away the gambling from your life, the rest of it seems to follow that pattern anyway!

I'm still going along my merry way and have a lot to be thankful for.

Weldy

I'm here again this morning because I chose to be. Today I chose not to gamble. People come an go, seemingly because it's just too difficult to beat an addiction that plays havoc in their everyday lives.

Even when the problem is identified and diagnosed, it is such a powerful obsession that it just comes back to attack.

"It will not say goodbye just like it didn't say hello".

The only way to deal with it seems to be to confront it on a daily basis and to let it know that today I won't be participating in it's invitation, as I have more important things to be doing with my time. One day at a time.

Weldy

Sounds good to me Weldy!

Keep staying strong

Steve E

hi weldy

sounds good to me too. im so glad to have found this site, although not gambling at the moment and quite at ease with myself, i will continue to use this site. everyday brings a different story into here, some horrific,and a great reminder never to put myself in them crazy situations gambling put me in,ever again!

you seem to be doing well,long may it continue

neil

Hi all,

Thanks for your comments.

Had a quiet day today in the end as I was supposed to be on a golf day. Turned up only to discover that the day had been cancelled and is now in two weeks time! The guy who invited me was very apologetic, (apologies don't pay the bills I might add !!!) and he had completely forgotten me. (story of my life!!!)

I had the perfect opportunity to go off the rails and go betting as I had access to money and wouldn't have been missed all day.

But, that was the past and this is now. Phoned my g/f straight away to say what had happened and that I would be back home in an hour (35 miles away) and for sure I was!!!

Quite proud of that, it was a test that I managed to pass with flying colours.

As it happened, it worked out great, as I had spent the evening before submitting a tender for one of my clients and by 5.30pm I had bagged the order for him, (which secures me work aswell)

Off to band rehearsal now, gig on saturday. Life is good again.

Weldy

hi weldy

I have one thing that really keeps me going and me choosing not to gamble. My father 70 and broke and I really dont want to end up like that

in 30 years time but he still gambles and thinks the big win is just round the corner like we all did.

alan

Thank you so much for supporting Jas. I hope you are doing ok?

Hi all,

Just checking in, had a good day off work today, playing golf. Nice and relaxing evening with a couple of beers.

Have completed 54 days now and feeling a lot more calm and engaged in many other things.

Keep strong out there.

Weldy

Some inspiring words this week from you Weldy. I particularly like the bit "It will not say goodbye just like it didn't say hello". The important thing is we continue to say goodbye to it. Every day is different sometimes it is very hard , sometimes it's not even noticeable. What is important is we take each day as a single entity and deal with it. I can't think of any other way to possibly live life at the moment. Well done on nearlt 8 weeks.

Hi all,

Thanks for your comments.

Hey City, glad to see you are still going along well. I'd love to claim those words as my own, but the line comes from a Beautiful South song "Let love speak up itself".

This morning, I just wanted to pass on some words of encouragement. I have almost completed 8 weeks without gambling and when I started my recovery, I was feeling pretty much a wreck, failing miserably and getting myself into some serious debt situation.

That has significantly changed since then, and through some dedication, hard work and effort (and of course complete abstention from gambling) I now have some light at the end of the tunnel.

I can now see a future, plan for a future, and have some goals and a purpose for where my life is going.

I am almost a completely different person with new energy and focus, and eight weeks ago this was just not possible. I can hardly believe what I have been able to achieve in this short space of time.

So for those starting out on the journey, and for those in the thick of it, it's got to be worth sticking at this.

Rome wasn't built in a day! It takes as much time as it takes, be patient with it, don't rush it. Take your time and retain your focus.

Have a good day all (ODAAT)

Weldy

Hi Buddy

just popping in to see how everyone is getting along this week. Thanks for all your thoughts on my decision - I have thought about all of that but am doing things differently and so far so good, trust me though at the first sign I am not in control I will be back on here for good in a flash.

Nice to read your 8 week post and congratulations on that. Being able to plan and see a future is a wonderful thing.

Thinking of you

Eyes X

Hi Weldy

Thanks for your 'brief' response on my diary - we do both have a habit of rambling on don't we 🙂 As always your post was full of useful advice and pointers so cheers for that.

I sympathise with the situation with your old business partner and him running and stripping down your old business that you had obviously put so much effort into building up. Your attitude in terms of just accepting that you have to let it go and get on with your life is spot on - it must have been really hard to accept but you obviously realise its the best thing to do in terms of helping to support your gambling recovery.

Congratulations on achieving your 54 days, stay strong and keep enjoying your better life.

Speak soon mate

LA