Steady as she goes!

Hi Weldy

Thanks for the post on my diary, you are right with what you where saying, my diary has kept me focused, the support i have had has been realy helpful. I have maybe posted things i shouldn't have but i have been honest and for me thats an acheivement. At times i have poured my heart out and properly will again throughout my diary.

there are some realy great people on this forum (including you) and i know for a fact i would not have got this far without this website/chat room/netline.

Anyway sorry to babble on your diary, your recovery is inspiring and you certainly give out a lot of great advice and support.

Thanks mate and 116 days is impressive, nice one!! ands

Cheers Green & Ands for your comments.

Well, the weekend went well, the best man's speech didn't flop, though it wasn't as good as I had hoped, but everyone seemed to think it was good. The day went well so my duties were completed with the decoration of the bride and grooms car sunday morning!

The horse ran, finished fifth and I didn't have a bet on her so that's another good thing. Going to take a trip up to Newmarket this week to the yard to spend a day with the kids, which should be fun.

I feel I am now ready for this without it setting me off on the wrong road and wanting to gamble again.

Other than that, it's fairly quiet as the work front seems to have dropped off a little. Rather than panic about it, I shall use the time sensibly to get a few things done.

Regards to anyone reading.

Weldy

Hi Kevin

Sounds like a good plan. Time filling was my biggest problem. Now I can't think where I found the time to gamble. Strange world.

Steve E

Thanks Stevey for your comments. I know, it's very strange but when you throw yourself into so many things at once you can't understand how u used to find the time.

It looks like it's going to be a stormy day outside today, so I'm staying inside! Got a number of things to get done today, so hopefully will be a productive sort of day.

Still working to complete Part A (debts) of my plan (which is the now 82.75% complete) and which hopefully will be complete in the next 2-3 weeks.

Then onto Part B - more debt - with a 4-5 month duration (hopefully).

Just got to keep up the good work, concentrate and not get too impatient.

ODAAT!

Weldy

4 months today.

It would appear that things in the building industry are worsening further as I have had a lot of negative feedback this week and my phone has really stopped hopping and gone quiet on me. I'm hoping that it's just because it's holiday time which always goes a little quiet.

Talking through things with my g/f last night I am so thankful that I quit gambling 4 months ago, as the current downturn in my workload is certainly causing some concerns, but I am so grateful that I have done so well in reducing our liabilities over this period. If I'd continued how I was, I can safely say that I would be stuck up the creek without a paddle!

That said, I will soldier on and hope things pick up again soon.

Looks like the storms we were promised yesterday arrived today as the weather outside is less than lovely! Rain, more rain and the odd thunderstorm to boot!

For anyone starting their recovery right now, it's definately a good thing and I wish them much success. Get yourself a good plan, build immovable barriers high and keep focused and your spirits high. It's definately worth it! ODAAT!

Weldy

Hi Weldy..Am not usually one for tracking down peoples diaries when they go off the front page.. as its up to each of us to decide to post or not of course. But today i have broken my own rule.. am not sure why.. I think it was something else I read on another diary.

Just wanted to say well done on your gambling free time. I hope that the work situation has picked up for you. All the best in recovery... S.A 🙂

Everything ok Weldy? Thinking of you.

Jas x

Hello old friend,

Glad to read you are still bet free.

Hope things in terms of your work pick up for you.

Thinking of you

Eyes X

Hi all, thanks for your messages.

Have been away for a while, and working on some new projects.

Been a little down with things, work went a bit too quiet so I have taken the time to start up a couple of new plans. Early days, but we'll see how goes.

Become rather impatient with the paying off Mr Taxman, and still have some to pay. Have a few bad payers on the work side who are causing cashflow problems and making me a bit twitchy, but these things are there to try us!

Planning a holiday in October providing they pay me, so hopefully will be ok.

Have felt a little complacent about gambling of late, as if it were calling me to return. Guess it never really goes away. Have been reading back through my diary to remind me how bad things were in April when I started my recovery. Know kust how close I came to losing my head, my business and probably more! So just keeping my feet on the ground and working through temptation.

Hope you are all doing good, I'll catch up with you all soon on your diaries.

Take care,

Weldy

Hi Weldy

Thank you for posting on my diary, i just want to say that i wll bounce back and this time i am even more determained!

Take care mate. andrew

Sorry for such a short post, dont realy know what to say..............

HI Weldy,

I am happy you have posted. I like to read your progress and I was beginning to miss you.

I appreciate the post on my diary...things are tough for me at the moment.....feels like there is a trauma nearly everyday. Life eh!

Hope your work picks up soon Weldy and glad that you have avoided the gambling demon.

Take care my friend.....Jas xx

Hi Weldy,

Like you say, be aware of complacency. My experience has been that when i don't really feel like reading and writing on here anymore, then that is the time to read and write.

For me its easy to gradually gradually slip back into old ways of thinking and being and then suddenly seemingly out of the blue gambling starts to feel like an option. Sometimes i don't realise that i am struggling when i am. Today i post alot cos it helps me get back into positive head space.

Anyway too much about me.. you remind yourself what a return to gambling would bring.. keep that in ones mind when it matters. All the best in recovery.. S.A 🙂

Hey Weldy my friend,

How are you doing? Post an update soon.

Thinking of you..................Jas x

Hi Jas,

Hiya how are you? I'm still kicking about and doing alright. Things are a bit down on the work side of things which is causing me some anguish, and just managing to tread water at the moment.

Have nearly cleared my dreaded tax bill, but so many other bills are putting the odd "spanner in the works" which has been getting me down.

Still, as we are quiet at the moment we are off to majorca next week on a "cheapy" break last minute and all that so not all bad.

And I have played a bit more golf to keep me occupied.

Hope you are feeling well and that your sister is doing ok?

Weldy x

Still doing ok - though no longer bet free, in relative control of my gambling problem compared to the past and happy with my life right now.