Day 3 - all quiet on the western front! Apart from having flu, feeling good about not gambling - the mind has eased and is calm.
Weldy
Notes to self
I am here because I need to be here.
I am here because it's a better way of living.
I am here because I am a better person when I am here.
Hi Weldy,keep writing those thoughts down.....,post them every day if it helps!!!,you know from last time exactly what you need to do :),i have found that limiting my access to money has been hugely helpful,i know it's not an option for everyone though.You will soon start to feel as good as you felt last time you quit,in the past i've stopped gambling so many times,only for my demons to convince me that i can bet in a controlled way.....,never lasts though,i'm back in full blown solitary action in quick time.
Seano.
Day 3 Weldy
Well done .
You already know what it takes in your recovery and it seems to me that the determination is there.Them days soon add up Weldy Take care Jeff.
Thanks guys for the comments. Working towards my first week again.
Weldy
Name Trivia
Just a quick note about my "username" Weldy.
My gambling problem is horeseracing, and began at the age of 21 when I first went to a race meeting. It happened to be The Guineas at Newmarket, and the first live race I ever saw was a Group race won by a horse called WELD in the golden (Apricot) coloured silks of Lord Howard de Walden.
My recovery is to try and "fix" myself up! (i.e. if something is broken it can sometimes be repaired by "Welding") hence the nickname WELDY.
End of Trivia.....
Day 4 has begun - feeling strong with regards to not betting (ODAAT), but this flu I have is a real downer!
Weldy
Day 4 completed - a brief moment of temptation, though quickly suppressed.
Weldy
Hi Weldy.. working recovery hard i see.. great stuff!
Like you say acknowledge the urges and then let them pass. I find that when I fully surpress and deny my urges to gamble.. I am likely to gamble, if that makes sense.
have a great day and thanks for your thoughts in my diary.. S.A
Thanks guys for your posts. Some good points of view to digest.
Into day 5 and I feel like I was never away from this site (probably because for 5 days I have not been away from this site!)
Life feels better already, just need to shift this d**n flu/cold!
Weldy
Hi weldy
Glad you are finding some comfort from the site again. Hope getting back into recovery mode hasnt been too hard.
Why is it when life's being a b*tch we always seem to land with a cold or flu to top it off eh?
Eyes X
Hi Weldy,
I admire your stength of character Weldy. I believe coming back here is a really good move for you.....and selfishly, a good move for a lot of us on here too. Missed you!
Jas x
Thank you too ladies! for your posts.
I was slightly aprehensive about returning but now I am back I can't think why. You are a very warm and welcoming lot. Thank you.
I'm slowly breaking into posting again, feel a little out of practice! Lots of new and old diaries to catch up on, so been reading more than writing.
Things seem almost like I was never away in some respects, but I'm glad to be back before I became desperate, like I was when I first found Gamcare last year.
Good to be back, good to not be gambling.
Weldy
Still going good after a week. Very little to report. Chillin and relaxin....
Well done Kevin, I think the first week is the toughest.... especially after dropping back into it.
Keep it going mate its hard work but worth it.
Cheers, Jim
Interesting reading this site can be. I have read several posts about how waking up in the morning thinking that I am a CG makes me down and depressed and stops me from doing other things in my life...
I have to say that's not how I have ever felt.
Being a CG interupts my life for sure, I have to constantly remind myself too that I have a problem that needs to be worked upon and contained.
But I have always got on with all other aspects of my life regardless, other than when the gambling encroached too much upon it.
You shouldn't just stop living because you are a CG, that is surely the worst thing to do, it's about replacing the time you used to spend gambling on more productive and worthwhile activities.
Anyway, just my thoughts....
Weldy
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