Really well done weldy on day 60 i just read your post from sunday and i can really relate to it i too want to change my life now as i have been selling my self short 4 so long now and im tired of paying 4 bookies going on extra holidays i havnt been on a foreign holiday in roughly 9 years but yet iv gambled roughly 85 grand in the last 9 years thatz feckn madness when i think of it.
Hope your work load calms down soon and hope both of us can stay bet free a day at a time and have that better future we both want and deserve.
Take care
Day 63
Thanks Ronnie. Little change to report and feeling clam about things at present.
Over two-thirds of my original target and progressing towards my goal. Will need at some point to reset the target, but it's just important not to think too far ahead!
ODAAT!
Day 64
Busy day at work. Even went for a nap when I got home as I was just too tired for anything else.
ODAAT
Day 65
Hated work today! Enjoyed the footie and looking forward to another game Sunday evening.
ODAAT
Day 67
Still going well but work has me seriously stressed right now. Too much to do and not enough time to do everything and some pretty hairy things going on right now.
It's such a tough market out there.
I can't think how I used to get through everything and found time to gamble aswell!
ODAAT
Day 70
Tired! Late Gig!
ODAAT
70 days is brilliant, keep going!
Enjoy the football tonight.
NT
Day 73
Thanks NT.
The days are really flying by at the moment. Been busy with work and it feels like it should be Friday already!
Happy with things right now, so much calmer than before and a much clearer head than when I was gambling.
LG - Life's Good.
ODAAT
Day 76
Chugging along quite nicely and things are still on the up! (For me anyway)
Have a younger brother who has ****ed up his life partly because of the FOBT's but with other problems aswell and I'm trying to help him (again!) but boy is it hard work. He text's and phones up to 10 times a day, constantly with wild tales and his begging bowl and it's trying my patience to the limit.
The rest of the family have cut him off almost completely, but I can't find it in my heart to do the same and it's a real dilemma as I risk getting into trouble with the others for my actions, which they see as perpetuating the problem.
He looks like a tramp and so I went shopping for him and bought all the essentials and a load of clothes, but it hasn't made much difference as he's so low.
Not really sure what else to do, if you give him money it just falls into a bottomless pit. He says he isn't gambling and I'm not giving him large sums (though I have in the past) so it's not going into the machines, he just owes half of London money it seems.
He has no job, no benefits and pretty much no prospects. Pretty stumped right now how to offer any help or hope.
What I can't do is let him drag me down again as in the past, I have given him money and then gone out gambling to try and get back what I have given him usually resulting in a big loss for myself.
Anyway, rant over. Onwards and upwards.
ODAAT!
Hi ya,
Thanks for your post.
It must be tough with your brother. I too would not be so presumptuous to offer any advice.
When you wrote on mine about the ruck sack , and seeing this post can see how the two relate.
Just try pal to look after yourself cause you will be help him to him if you go under. ....
Take care my friend .
Dusty xxxxxxx
Day 82
Been so busy with work that I haven't time to even think about gambling.
That's definately a good thing in one way, but I need to be mindful that there are other things to life but work!
ODAAT
Yo,
82 days well done mate, did you get something sorted with your brother ?
As to work , play balance hope you can find some time to relax over the weekend.
Over tiredness and feeling I needed a reward was one of my biggest triggers. Still is but I am trying really hard to get some down time .
Take care, and be kind to yourself .
Shiny ( aka Dusty )
Hi weldy
Thanks for popping in to my diary (a whie ago) yep i remember you! i also remember the support you gave me in those early days of my recovery! Which i am very grateful for!! thank you!!
82 days, you are doing very well mate, as you and SA said to me a few years ago odaat and those words are so very true.
Anyways i hope you are well. catch you soon.
take care, ands
Day 88
Thanks for your replies peoples.
The days are really flying by right now, possibly because it's Summer (or at least it's supposed to be!) or probably because I am so busy working.
Little thought given to gambling, as I haven't got any inclination to want to go and do that as I am still focused on the job in hand.
ODAAT!
After a bit of a depressing relapse, I feel it is high time I returned to a sense of normality once again.
2012 was by my usual standards a very successful year, however has ended on a rather poor note with a bit of a blow out that wasn't really worth it as usual.
Need to get back to concentrating on NOT gambling, so will use my trusty topic to steady the ship again.
I begin here once more.
Weldy
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