Thank you Linda for posting in my diary! Yes I'm looking forward now and being positive.past can't be changed but the future is up to me.that goes for everyone on this forum.look at your past and learn from it but don't beat yourself up about it.Its never to late to turn your life around.it might be hard in the early stages but reading others success stories give you hope that life can change for the better!
Yes New, I agree, we can look back but we must not stare!
Linda
Hi newhorizon,
Really true words you put down. It is possible to turn our lives around. It might take some time, but with every day we abstaining, we coming closer to that peace and calmness we all deserve.
Keep up the good work.
I wish you all the best in ur journey. You can do it, you are doing it, be proud!!
Day at a time
Take care
Sandra x
Thank you sandra !
Day 8 and do in fine still feeling positive that I'm going to do this and get my life back on track.
Hi newhorizon, im on day 67 of not gambling, I spent over £50,000 gambling over 12 years, thankfully gambling hasn't taken everything from me, I used to gamble online roulette and roulette in the bookies. I have blocked all gambling sites and got self exclusions from bookies, I never want to gamble again but I have said that many times before but I hope this time its for real.
Day 12 today.been a hard week being skint.thankfully payday today.Just need to stay focused now and remember how hard this week has been without money.lived my life like this for so long now and I shouldn't have financial worries.life can be so much better if I stay gamble free.
Hi New
Well done on 12 days and keep your guard up this weekend. Life is and will always be so much better gamble free.
Keep strong
Linda
Hi NH
Just think, tomorrow you'll be celebrating 2 weeks of being clean and free from gambling - stay strong and if you are not already, you will begin to feel hose emotional benefits very soon and in waves. The financial benefits........and challenges........come with the wages.........but it's so much more enjoyable doing positive things, even if it's a bit of debt repayment......then you'll feel great about that too!!
Keep making the right choices!! Don't forget to check in to the 2014 challenge!!!
We'll done,
Mr B
Thank you Linda and Mr B! Yes the real challenge for me starts now.have had no money last two weeks so a somewhat minor acheivment.have few wee voices in my head last night to have a wee punt online but managed to resist.
Its only when I think about my debt then I think about winning and paying it off.we all no were that leads though.more debt!! So I managed to talk myself out of it.I'll pay my debt of in a structured way every month.patience is the key.a year will sort it.keep gambling and it will never be sorted.
Even with the urges last night I still feel confident a positive.going to have a nice stress free weekend.i don't want to experience that feeling when you wake up the next morning and wonder did a big loss really happen.then realise what you done and feel all the stress worry and hurt you've caused yourself.that is the worst feeling ever.not going to let that happen again.
Hi New
Great post and the urges will come and go but each time they get a bit easier to manage. I almost welcome them now because I know I will beat them every time.
Have a great gamble and stress free weekend!
Linda
Well day 16 for me today.still feeling positive.thinking more about not gambling than gambling which is a good sign.although I never was a big punter on the horses I did enjoy the odd bet.so with Cheltenham starting today feels a bit strange not to be having a bet.I'm totally surrounded in work with people talkin about horses and tips etc.quiet funny to listen to all the experts giving there views.no bets for me today cos I know were it would lead.its been a trigger for me in the past.just like the start of the footie season.it always leads me back online and the madness starts.I've great peace in my mind at the moment by not gambling.stress free and relaxed.I don't want the nervous rush feeling I would get weather winning or losing.it just ain't worth it.I like the calmness I have in my mind right now.
24 days gamble free today.feeling good.not really getting any urges to gamble at all.but I know I have to be careful.it only takes an hour of madness to destroy those days and the money I've saved.so always keep my guard up.I'm up for this fight.I think I've reached a turning point this time.I've never been so determined to kick this and Change my life.
Day 41 today.havnt been on here much as both me and my daughter have been unwell.also had the car to sort for mot which thankfully passed so that was a big relief!
I'm really seeing the benefits of no gambling now.its not just about the extra money in my pocket but more the extra time in my mind to think about good things and the lack of stress in my head.
When I gamble it takes over every bloody minute of the day.I would be constantly thinking of that wheel spinning and thinking of numbers etc.then of course when I loose I spend every minute recalculating my finances and working out how much I had to live on for the next few weeks or months etc.its mentally draining!
Mr brightsides 2014 challenge is helping me so much!!! Seeing my total days increasing every week is my new numbers addiction.I'm increasing my days and I won't stop I can't stop.I can't withdraw my days.gotta keep playing this game.get my days up.its workin for me! this will be the best addiction I ever had!
Day 47 today.very tiring week in work and still gettin over this chest infection.been a rough 2 weeks. My daughter is away for a couple of days to her mums.she doesn't see her mum much.fourth time since last July.I will be glad of the break but I worry about her when she is there.(long story)
This is a dangerous time for me.two days of freedom and plenty of time on my hands and also the stress of worrying bout her.in the past this has been my trigger for a blow out. go online and gamble.so need to keep busy and stay focussed on how well I'm doing.I'm not going to ruin my two days break and end up stressed and skint and exhausted.
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