Day 42 and the weekend again yippee 🙂
Didn't have the same urges yesterday so hopefully they are subsiding now...
Off shopping after work tonight and out for tea, will be nice to not cook for a change! Booked in for a spa day tomorrow so a bit of pampering will be nice 🙂 nice to be able to spend a bit of money on yourself and not be calculating in your head how much it is going to affect your ability to gamble!
xxx
Hi Shorty, just checking in, hope the weekend went ok for you.
Pat
Hi pat thanks for checking in on me...day 45 now! Off work sick so only got my phone to access site hence no big update! Hope ur going strong 🙂 xxx
Hope you're feeling better soon and ready to take on the world again!
GT
Thanks GT...feeling a lot better than yesterday so back in work. God I was bored at home yesterday!! It made me realise why I became addicted to gambling...sheer boredom!!! However even though I was stuck in the house all day I didn't even contemplate placing a bet. The urges that took over me last week seem to have subsided thank goodness although I'm sure they will pay me another visit at some point!!
So today is day 46....feels amazing! So close to 50 days now and am determined to make it!
Been driving myself crazy thinking about the debt mountain I have still got to face. Some days I don't think about it at all and other days I feel like I need to be put in a padded room because it is ALL I can think about.
Anyway...better get some work done! xx
Day 47...edging closer and closer to 50 days now but for some reason the further I progress the less important the number of days become. It's not like when I reach 50 days or 100 days I can treat myself to a hundred quid flutter is it?! And why is 50 days more important than 3 days...if anything the first few days are the most important.
Sooooooooo ready for a break from work now. Really struggling to get out of bed in the morning just want to stay tucked up in the warm. Roll on Christmas so I can have a few lie in's!!
Anyway, not much to report. No urges no real thoughts, I guess no news is good news!
Maybe that's because you are beginning not to think about the past but about your future.
I don't know how many days gamble free I have been and nor do I wish to work it out.
I only care about what I hope to happen in my future.
Not long until the weekend then you can chill from work.
GT
Day 48...and DECEMBER!! Woo hoo! So excited for Christmas 🙂 can't wait to get the tree up, get the mulled wine on the go! I know a lot of you out there will just be dreading it with the expense etc etc but I just LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas!!! It is the one month out of the year that I am going to allow myself to fully forget about the debts that I have and just concentrate on having a good time. The debts will still be there in January and I fully intend to tackle them head on then! xxx
Day 49...only one more day until the big 5 0. Not that excited, like I said before it's just a number and it doesn't make it any more special than day 2.
Not much to report. No urges, no thoughts. Much better than last week. Trying not to let thoughts of the debts get into my head but its harder than I thought it would be grrrrrrrrr
Think it's day 54 now...day 50 came and went, didn't even acknowledge it to be honest. Gambling is the furthest thing from my mind at the minute, so much so that the days, thoughts, urges just don't even register. think it's down to being unwell again. Have had no thoughts of debts either. Times like this you realise that your health is the most important thing and everything else can just do one!
Anyway, not much energy today to type too much but hadn't checked in since Friday so thought I'd better!
Day 59...had a few lucky escapes over the past week. Strangely enough nothing to do with the usual method of online gambling that I usually partake in...this was mainly due to too much alcohol and too many nights out. Thank god the people I were with are a lot more sensible than me and didn't fancy going to the casino. Luckily Saturday night was the last crazy night I had planned for this month, the rest of my Christmas celebrations will be at peoples houses where I am safe!!
Have spent an absolute fortune over the past week. Luckily I knew it was going to be an expensive time and did have a bit saved up for it but it is just ridiculous how much a night out costs etc etc. So glad that I don't have to worry about anything more than buying a few bottles of wine to take to a house party for the rest of the month!
Debts are still on my mind. But looking forward to Xmas day and then the start of a new year and a new more sensible and happier me!
Day 60...now 2 full months have passed which means I have paid off about £1500 of my debt. It's amazing thinking of it like this and just shows how much gets paid off in such a short space of time. I know being debt free is still a long way off but progress is being made now and I feel very confident about the future 🙂 still LONGING for the day when I get paid and ALL my wages (after normal bills come out) are mine to spend on clothes and holidays and nice food etc etc etc. I am literally going to feel like I have won the lottery every month!! May even start doing my food shop in M&S lol.
No thoughts, no urges just plodding along at the minute waiting to finish work for Christmas so I can have plenty of R&R at home with my family. Only one more week of work to go then a nice week off 🙂
Hiya Shorty,
Just want to pass a message on from Juliette 999, she is able to read on the forum but unable to post as she is having a few computer problems at the mo and lost her gamcare password as a result. She wants you to know she is thinking about you and sends her best wishes, plus she's doing well. If you post on her diary she will see it okay 🙂
Del x
Day 61....definitely in a phase at the moment where gambling thoughts don't even enter my head...I'm not stupid enough to think that things will remain this way as I know how quickly things can turn around and the urges grab you and don't let go!
Very very tired these days, don't know if it's the weather or what but I just do not want to get out of bed!
Not much else to write today...no news is good news I guess!
Day 62....am ill again! Have been ill every week for the past 3 weeks and it is really getting me down 🙁 hopefully this is the last thing I get before Christmas, do not want to be ill on Christmas day when I have a turkey to cook!
Still no urges. Can't really be bothered with anything at the minute least of all sitting wasting my money online. Just want to go back to bed and hibernate.
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