The bear new chapter

Just want to say thank you all for your posts in my diary I lost 3 k a few weeks ago I won some back lost some more win some back then lose again still 3 grand down but more than that lost in my own head feeling miserable and anxious putting brave face on for my boy it has to stop and I have to get back on wagon tomorrow day 1 thanks to all again it means a lot xx

Still day 1 has to try and win some back 🙁 but I will battle again

Bear

Fella sorry you feel the need to chase, just ensure it's only money you lose fella, I know how close I came to cashing in my family for the pursuit of gambling.

That is sobering.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Bear,

Sorry to read about what you're going through now, I know that desperate need to chase a loss so well. It's an old friend, but luckily one I haven't seen in some time. Keep fighting to find your strength, its never too late to pick yourself up and get back on the path.

All the best

Ryan

All cards handed to girlfriend lost the plot will write in couple of days can't spend no more no access 3k down the swanny as well as my sanity but stopped now meeting with girlfriend in morning .....

The bear

How is Max doing buddy ? your newborn son, is he reaping the rewards of a good dad who only has got time for making his life better and your girlfriend ?

We are all weak my friend, i have failed so many times i have lost count. You have to suck it up and tough it out, freedom is only round the corner. I hate to see you doing this to yourself and your family. You have to really want to stop in your head, you can do it my friend ! you have before.

Enjoy the football tomorrow with a few beers and realise the true value of money and how hard it is to earn.

God bless you and your family, love ya mate what ever happens Dark Place

Day 1 ......

Day 2......

Day 3 ..... Feeling low ..

Bear

I feel your pain , I have walked in your shoes many times where you are right now , your doing an incredible thing to keep trying and not giving up , focus on the positives in your life beyond gambling and draw strength from them to fight today

The support from everyone will always be here

Castle2

Bear

nothing worse in life than that self inflicted misery that gambling gifts.

The outcome of something out of our control on a random possibility of winning.

Pretty mad on the face of it, but we all have experienced the compulsion to do so and continue to repeat it.

Is it the loss that causes the most misery, the felling of being a loser.

All the time I gambled it ate away at my mind,the shame it made me feel,compelling me to relentlessly gamble on,not to win big,just to lose the title 'loser'

Abstinence offers that,a continued winning mentality.

Fact is you wont win the losses back,you will add to them if you gamble again.

In the cold light of day I know towards the end of my gambling life,each time I waged a bet I staked my family,my wife and kids became what I had to lose.

That is seriously sobering.

I really hope the same does not happen to you my friend.

Why??

Because you 'the bear' are worth more than this.

Duncs stepping forward never back

You are right duncs I'm back misery and torture through gambling I placed my last bet at 3.30 today no more family now little boy needs me ....

The bear x

Day 1 feeling c**P about gambling anxiety back in my life start again gotta keep fight up have good day all

The bear x

HI Bear, Don't be so hard on yourself this is an unbelivable disease it has such a hold over us and yet we blame ourselves. I find you are making alot of mistakes that I made but you are not giving yourself the clap on the back you deserve. Yes you have returned to gambling but for a large part of the last year you have not been gambling. The secret to getting off gambling is to keep trying no matter how stupid you feel for failing because one day it will work. I am now coming up to 8 months and I feel little difference to day 1, I would return gambling in a heartbeat but then I remember all the cr ap I caused and all the cr ap yet to come and I manage to hold off for another day. I honestly feel hostility to those on here who feel they have clicked after a day, a week, a month as I am not in that boat. But what I am missing is I should be happy for any day I do not gamble I do not alway feel like that but life around me is alot better if maybe not my own.

Michael

Thanks michael will take strength from what you write and 8 months is amazing well done my friend... Day 2 lots of things to sort out financially and get myself right mentally again been here before WILL do it again ....

The bear x