Honestly w*f is wrong with me ! I gambled today lost money I can’t afford to lose . I can’t stop . I’ve had every chance and I feel sick to my stomach I loathe myself . What am I doing . I walk the streets afterwards and look at other people and realise this isn’t normal behaviour . This isn’t what normal people do . I want to be normal again stop chasing a dream that doesn’t exist . So tired of losing and feeling like a loser . Why can’t I stop .
Right back on the wagon for 2018. Feel good and determined. Best of resolve to anyone struggling with this horrible addiction . Let’s make 2018 the year we say goodbye to the devil on our shoulders and get on with more important things in our life . None of us can afford to carry on doing this so let’s stop turn round and say no I’m not giving away for free anymore of my money . Let the fight back start now . Take care everyone
Hi pwm
Stay strong, this is our year to destroy this habit.
Shaun
Tough day today - for anyone who bets on the Football like me FA cup third round day is everywhere . Anyway I feel okay going to keep myself busy ,go for a run, make some food etc... it will be nice watching my team later without ruining it by betting on how many corners there will be !!! Idiot . Stay strong everyone
Week without gambling done . Not easy but feel good about it . Smiling at the bookies on the high street as I walk past thinking ‘your not having my money’ today . Have a good day everyone gamble free
Not giving my money away for free today . Going to stay GF . Good luck everyone
Tough day yesterday with all the football on , I definitely was tempted but online I have blocks in place plus it feels good today to have done 2 weeks gamble free. I also haven’t had a drink in two weeks - that makes me sound like an alcoholic - I’m not - could honestly take it or leave it but I certainly think it helps not drinking as with a drink you tend to lose you inhibitions and the devil on your shoulders says f**k it let’s have a gamble or go to a casino . Stay strong everyone
Asure Thanks for the post Christmas ineffable. A good read and you have done amazing to get the debts down to what they are . If you can halve it like that you can get back down to normality im sure. 2018 is a big year for us and we’ve already ticked off a month. I feel calmer and more in control already . Im so distracted when I’m gambling - always not quite in the room if you know what I mean . Appreciate what your saying about online gambling that really was the killer for me - blocks have helped and as they say how many millionaires do you see come out of the bookies! All the best keep going
Been doing fine not gambling - then boom I was tempted today - just out the blue. Back in town working finished for the day and my mind went f it lets go have a drink and go to the casino. I didn’t but it’s so scary how that sort of thing just creeps up on me sometimes . At least the online gambling and going in the bookies is under control - it really doesn’t appeal . I just have an association ironically of relaxing having a drink , a night out and finishing it off in a casino .
Pretty low . Finished my IVA but been rejected from a remortgage on my property. Going through divorce and wanted to take it on my own . However Santander have said they won’t lend to me - maybe ever - ! Ouch! Feel like a leper. I know this is the punishment I know this is the reality . But it hurts a lot a kick in the teeth . Don’t Gamble kids it f***s your life up
Sorry to read of your troubles Pwm but pleased to see you haven't gambled this year. What's done is done but you still have a life ahead of you.
I can recall the time when my marriage was coming to an end. A torrid time brought about by gambling and binge drinking. 95% of the time I had been a good family man, worked my little socks off, but that counted for zilch when I gambled.
Considering the misery that gambling brings us it is amazing that we sometimes think fondly of it. I have witnessed this phenomena regularly when reading the diaries. Compulsive gambling will destroy someone's life but then along it comes masquerading as a friend. We must be quite gullible to keep falling in the same trap.
You have real challenges ahead of you. I sincerely hope you can resolve them in a way which will bring you some peace of mind, contentment and happy days. Take care...stephen
Stephen . Thank you for the post and taking the time to write. You are of course bang on - gambling does masquerade as a friend - such a crux or a go to but ultimately evil as hell - just like smoking really - I often think of it as that . Yes the end of my marriage is really hard - not totally down to gambling but im sure it took its toll - often in the unforeseen ways - the distraction - not fully being in the room, mood swings etc... what’s Keeping me going is knowing that although life is a bit S****y at the mo I know adding gambling to the mix would catosphroic ! Thanks again for writing / reading
Hi Pwm
So glad you didn't gamble after your stressful time, what I find encouraging, you have gone through long periods without gambling before and am confident you can do it again. I know it's tough but keep your head up and don't give into gambling, it will only make things worse. Speak soon.
Shaun
Sorry to read you are going through difficult personal troubles at present but you'll come through it and so pleased you haven't turned to gambling. All the best
Wilsy
Wilsey & sha999 many Thanks appreciate the support . Racking up the days . Keeping the mind busy in other things . Only way to be . Thanks for writing wishing everyone a GF weekend . All the best .
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