Hi my names hayden I'm 23 this is my first diary so here goes! (I don't think the first one saved)
so it all started when my stepdad showed my how to put a g/gs bet on as I was curious about 4 years ago as he's always been a gambling man! Then it all started!
i soon after found it too easy to get an overdraft loans etc.. Playing anything I could I worked myself into 5k of debt luckily enough for me my stepdad and mum came into and inheritance so last year I cried for help I was in a bad place finances were everywhere I was a wreck!
he decided out of the kindness of his heart too take me down the bank lay all the cards on the table and pay every penny off I walked out of tgere feeling reborn as you could imagine!
but did I stop there? Obvcourse not..I've somehow managed to get myself back into 3k of debt I cannot go out with friends or family because payday is over in 24 hours then it's 4 weeks if hiding I'm do ashamed of what I've become and it hurts me so much can't sleep ,eat work properly !
I have a beautiful girlfriend who's trust I have lost she's tried helping me out but I haven't been fully open about everything and I have pushed her away!
Im trying to change my life for a bright future and don't want to run myself down any further Thankyou for reading hayd x
Hello Hayden,
you have spoken honestly here, that is an important step.
I hope you read some of the experiences of others on here, both the tragedy and the inspiring succes stories.
This site also offers practical help which I think is worth looking into.
you can be strong, you can be in control, accept help where you need it.
your bright future is is waiting for you
Welcome to recovery Hayden,
Lots of us on here battling our Demons & an awful lot of experience & great advice from some remarkable role models as well as I'm sure a lot more people reading & rooting for you than feel confident enough to post on your diary.
I hope that coming here will give you the tools you need to stay on this road & you will soon be eating & sleeping again.
Keep choosing no - ODAAT
Thankyou for the replys currently at work it's day 4 and in feeling good just trying to sort my finances out which feels good?
Yes I come on here everyday the support and posts are really helpful.its such an aweful thug so much hurt and misery hope everyone is doing ok keep posting
stay strong hayden
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