Thank you Sharon for your kind words. I have replied on your diary.
In 2 hours time I will be having the cataracts operated on in my right eye. I am very apprehensive but it has to be done.
In certain situations, like this, I have no control over what's happening and must put my trust in others. This is a far cry from gambling when I am totally in control and free to make decisions regarding my welfare. The freedom to choose is something I will cherish from now on.
Hello Diary. All that worry for nothing. Thursdays operation on the cataracts in my right eye went really well. It is now not so tender and I can see a lot better with it than before. I have to be careful with it for a few weeks and put drops in every day than in about 6 weeks i'll get the other one done.
Keep going forward, never give in and never lose hope.
It might help if I make changes were necessary and try looking at things from a different perspective.
Maybe I need putting in a bag and shaking up but some days that's just the way I feel.
Escapism is something I have always practiced to avoid facing up to reality. It has involved me running away or hiding from aspects of my life that I found unpalatable.
Burying my head in the sand or turning to gambling does not help one little bit. It is necessary for me to address my problems (both real and imagined) in a positive, practical way without making unrealistic demands on myself. If there are things I cannot resolve than I can either put them on the back burner for a while or consign them to the past and get on with living.
However, I do believe that escapism can be a force for good when used in a positive way. Once I have decided in a course of action I need to not dwell on it and to do this I can escape to the gym, enjoy a walk, go dancing, take up hobbies or enjoy some social interaction.
The rest of my life is just starting.........
Morning Stephen
I have dealt with things in a very similar way.Now i am filling the gaps with things that are positive for my mind and body rather than zoning out with gambling.
28 days free today and feeling the
Benefits apart from still a struggle at home as too early to expect my wife to believe that this time i have taken all actions i can to stop and she is very cold at present(all i deserve)
My son and daughter are now supporting me which feels so good after 4 weeks of pain for all.
I got advise to treat the situation with my wife as taking medicine but at times even though i know its my fault its hard to swallow.
Just hope this lifts soon as still get sad and not sleeping well.
Time will tell if she can forgive me for the lapse but i have to keep my self focus to beat my old demons.As Churchill called them ,his Black Dog days .
Thankyou for the poem. Was thinking about you as your post appeared as I was replying to a new person. I'm just making mess with lots of fabric. Good film I saw was 'American animals'. Also new James Bay album. All calm on the gambling front which is always a bonus. Just for today!
Thank you for the posts on my diary which lifted my spirits and brightened up the day. It has been very windy though and my thoughts go out to those who have been adversely affected by the storm.
Lost....Congratulations on your honesty and courage. I admire your determination to overcome any urges to gamble and your genuine desire to be free of this insidious addiction which has left so much misery on your doorstep. You are now 4 weeks into your quest. I would advise that you look upon it as an adventure in which you will strive to rediscover your life as you journey through the foothills and go on to climb the gamble free mountain. They say the view is excellent from the summit.
Merry Go Round .... you really are a gamcare treasure and a wonderful antidote to the blues. Whenever I need to summon up a smile I picture you on your sewing machine, surrounded by fabrics and singing along to your favourite tunes. I have listened to the album by James Bay and thoroughly enjoyed his music. The lyrics of the song "Stand Up" struck a chord: "Stand up and be counted before we slip away." Glad you enjoyed your film. My lady friend and I are off to the cinema on Sunday but don't know what we're going to see yet. Take care and keep up the good work. Your common sense approach, honesty and wisdom are like a breath of fresh air.
Ps to Lost...The song you recommended on the "Inspirational Music" thread is excellent: REM singing "Everybody Hurts." However, the version by The Corrs is even better.
Hi Stephen just dropping by to say hi, hope ur well,
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Hi Stephen ...... hope you are keeping well and are back among the diaries again soon as like alot of us i am sure you have been having problems logging into the site .... its good to have it back up and running and a look forward to hearing from you soon.
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