Back on the recovery wagon! thanks for the encouraging words guys it means a lot! I think I was tired from working a lot and wanted a little buzz on a bandit when drunk! I guess the hardest thing about a blip of any sort is it becomes easier to return to gambling it brings back dirty thoughts of winning and urges it also brings back the shame of your past and it can be hard to put everything back into perspective.
Roughly £20.00 spent on gambling in seven weeks on a sh1tty little bandit is good going I think i've done my uni work i've paid debt off not visited a bookies or played online and I do feel better for it! i've got a day off today so it allows me to focus again! Christmas has been stressful especially with cricket, darts and live football being on not to mention how expensive it is and also working for the last 8 or 9 days
Anyway heres to a gamble free rest of the year and also 2015!! onwards and upwards
Hi StoneRoses,
Keep that focus and move on my friend.
Minor blip, that's all. It's not going to draw you back in, because you are stronger than that. YOU are in control!!!
Keep strong
Ade
Resetting my days to coincide with the 2015 challenge of not gambling this year! Day 3 today. All is good. Looking forward to paying some more of my debts off on sunday/monday and also at the end of the month 🙂
This illness is hanging over me like a dark cloud at the moment it's doing my head in still making good progress though all things considered and gamble free. Really determined and know this is my year, got all my barriers up. Just paid off some more debts which is a relief but frustrating at the same time.
Looking forward to tomorrow going to get up early and go for a run before work and make a start on the healthy eating.
Previous debts stacked up from a life of a compulsive gambler
£6110.00
Current Deb Stands at
£4940
which is great progress dread to think what position I would have been in had I carried on my old ways.
Beating it one day at a time. f1ck off gambling your in the past where you belong. to the present and to the future. Got a huge list of things I hope to achieve from this year and can't wait to be able to reflect on achieving them without the hindrance of gambling.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zy9aj-dr118 I watched this earlier and it's a reminder/inspiration that nothing is impossible. 🙂
o*g, just look @ those figures tumbling down 🙂
Love the post @ 2335...You better get some sleep if you're up early for a run 😉
Great work, keep it up - ODAAT
🙂 feel really positive today and proud at how well i'm doing not going to feel sorry for myself at what i've done in the past I'm going to keep beating this one day at a time. Great to see the debt coming down.
No bet today. Slowly but surely winning the battle.
Quite stressed and got a lot on my mind at work and uni deadlines but I know gambling would only compound that. Not going back to that destructive life.
One day at a time things are getting better. Sometimes to see the mountain you have to be at the bottom of the valley so that when you get to the top its all the more sweeter.
Hi StoneRoses,
Keep strong my friend.
One day at a time you are getting there....
All the very best
Ade
Cheers Ade hope you had a good christmas and new year and remain gamble free!
Just putting my feet up listening to music and began to think how exciting recovery is and what the future holds without gambling. two monts ago I felt down and out but now i'm full of hope.
Sometimes it's easy to focus on the negatives and the stresses of not gambling but maybe that's the wrong way to look at it.
To put things in perspective I have money spare from my last two wages, my relationship with my parents is more open and great, I can treat them, my debts are coming down, i'm a lot more calm and relaxed, I don't have to lie anymore, I dont have to hide things I dont have to chase losses and franctically pace the house for more money and plan days of gambling making things worse. I am studying better than i ever have, my job is going well and i'm beginning to eat healthier.
Yes life is tough you have good days, you have bad days but I know when i gambled the bad days came around far more often than they do now.
I just thought i'd post this as it can be a reminder why not gambling is a much better life.
Hear hear StoneRoses, I echo those sentiments completely 🙂
Hi Stone,
Good positive post, stay positive, strong and keep going.
Suzanne xx
Thanks Odaat and Suzanne for the continued support 🙂 never know if im just rambling or making sense but it helps putting things down!
Got an essay due next friday and workload is high so a little anxious at moment the essay is also difficult but what else can I expect with it being final year. At least its something to focus on rather than the 2.15 in columbia or when 32 is gonna come out on roulette haha
No thoughts no desire to gamble.
One day at a time winning the battle!
Played football tonight for the first time in about 9 weeks! another step in the right direction things coming together nicely 🙂
No gambling today 🙂 just a tough day of study rather be concentrating on that than the dirty roulette machines!
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