The road to recovery...84 months on.

Hello Gazza

Been through your diary this morning, excellent work for what you have achieved so far you are an inspiration to a lot of us.

I know you keep mentioning how tight/bad finances are but maybe it is worth conssidering occasionally, how bad they may have been if you had been gambling these last 100 days, I view it like a high speed train changing direction, we had been hurtling in the wrong direction for years, it will take some time for the train to slow down, stop and then begin to gather momentum in the right direction, I guess with the finances things are still slowing down, which is some times hard to accept as our gambling brains have firmly stopped and changed direction, it takes time for the things around us to realise, see and appreciate those changes, so dont be too hard on yourself or the missus, each day without a bet gets us closer to the promised land.

Once again, well done on what you have achieved and I wish you all the strength you need to get through this period in your life,

Thanks for sharing your journey

regards

John

Gazza.

Normal folk go through hard times just like us cg's fella dont be too hard on yourself my friend only a week and as you say you can do something about it!!! At it would you be waiting a week or far worse??? You have stepped from the quicksand of compulsive gambling keep making the right choice just for today NO BET.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Day 108

Thanks John and Dunc for your posts.

Just feeling a bit low at the moment.

Been busy at work.

I can't shake the guilt-i've tried but it's there and i'll have to deal with it.

I won't gamble,i know that and that makes me feel better.

Best wishes everybody.

Day 109

As yesterday.

Hey gazza,

Well done on your 109 days wow. I hope i can say that in the future that I reached over 100 days. But for now I take each day as it comes. Me I am day 38 today. I have that horrible feeling of guilt the pain I caused my fiancee the debt I have left us with I wish I could change all that. But there is a way to make it upto them and that is showing them that you won't gamble and try and make a better life for you and your loved ones.

I remember when I was a gambler i spent more times with the machines then my missus. since I gave up I now spend quality time with her and just trying to make life more enjoyable take each day as it comes and make the most of it because you never know when it will end. I don't know how to get rid of that thought of guilt but all I know is that you can try and make a better life for you and your loved ones by not gambling and being there for them trying to make them happy.

I try and put those horrible thoughts out of my head the ones like what if I didn't gamble all that money I could have bought a house bee quite well off it depresses me and puts me on a massive low all you do now is think about the present and future and try make that better. 🙂

Hope everything works out and well done on no gambling a real inspiration to me. Thanks

Regards

Ricky

Day 110

Thanks Ricky for your words of support.

Hopefully i'll come out of this trough soon.

I'm tired which doesn't help after a busy time lately.

Some time off work so that should help.

Hope everyone is well

Day 111, 112 (4months) and 113

Feeling better and regained positivity.

Sun is shining which helps!

Pleased to pass the 4 month mark.

Hope everyone is well

Day 114

Feeling the benefit of some time of work

hope everyone is well

Day 115

Lots to do.

Feeling fine

Thanks 4 your post Gazza

Glad to hear youve a bit of time of work 2 recharge the batteries mate

Day 116

Feeling fine.

Could do with some sunshine though

Hopefully get to GA meeting tonight as i missed last week.

Hope everyone is well

Day 117

Constructive GA meeting last night.

Sun trying to shine!

hope everybody is well

well done gazza,

I got to my meeting last night as well, was also very constructive, took so much away from it.

Blondie 🙂

Day 118 and 119 (17 weeks)

Doing fine.

Keeping busy.

Gambling far from my thoughts.

Enjoy what's left of the weekend

Day 120 and 121

Thanks Ade for your words of support.

Doing ok